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I find my self looking in the mirror but no one see the pain i hold deep down inside no one can not imagine the horror i went through in my life if i would not told my true story or stories no one would of had no clue the horror i had faced in my life the would of thought i was just a regular joe looking for attention or would of thought anything other wise. All the stories i have told on this web site is so horrifying true down to the dots and to the I 's but when you go through any sort of kind of pain or horror you keep it so hidden because no one would believe in a million years this could actually happen to you. 23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlXyiogM4TA
People do not want to understand or put their self in your shoes to feel the pain and the lonely ness you feel inside and the darkness you are feeling all they do is walk on by and do not have the care in the world but yet you set all alone in your bed room on your bed on you chrome book or lab top or what ever you may have and type for hours on end to help with your pain inside and then later on you find your self getting tired of writing and you still find your self feeling ashamed inside and you still do not know why you still have this lost feeling come over you and you like what the hell i thought writing and telling my truth and my deep dark feelings would help but you in find in your heart it did not do a damn thing but have all these strange con artist emailing you on here trying to sell you their fake services to make you believe that they can draw you your first cover i am like omg please really get over your self cause all you want to do is scam someone out of money while i know i have my cover picked out and what i do not understand your telling your stories for free why would you want to pay someone for a cover while you can do it your self and it don't cost a thing.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVniejsjZn5
SO when i look in the mirror i will still have my pain in side but i know it will come a time that it will go away soon but at least i will have my truth that i will stay away from the people who had hurt me deeply , I know i have learned not to shed a tear for them anymore they just left scares that have healed that is what i have to look at and i know they are not sorry cause they should of not left the scares in the first place if they had any love for me at all cause their i am sorry i hurt you does not mean shit to me anymore all i know is they broke my trust and they lost my love that i had once had for them and now that to is gone. Like my second ex husband Paul William Fenimore I had lost all respect and love for him he has hurt me so deeply i would not care if he jumped off a bridge or ended his life cause i know he was a bad person all the way around thought i could trust him but finding out i could not and i thought he truly loved me and apparently his love for me was never true and that to was based on lies to cause it was all about him and what his needs where and what he wanted but never gave anything back in return except pain that he caused me. All i know is my guard went back up and i will not trust anyone again that is how my heart feels and people that read this you will feel the same way i do cause no one takes the time t o get the true you or me ,23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ66CM8DJQPW
