Oh boy. The problem with me is that I'm always in my feelings. Always about this guy that can give two shits about me. And how can I tell this? A person wouldn't block me for no reason. If they really cared. And the bad thing about this is that it was my boyfriend. I guess my ex now. It honestly hurts me to say ex. I feel like trash, and I'm pretty sure he's having a good time somewhere else. So that's pretty cool. I just want to tell myself to forget him. I am, but it's really hard to forget someone when your future was planned and how happy you thought you were gonna be with that person. And that's cool you know? To be so damn happy in that period of time. That anything they say makes you gush with happiness. And you wouldn't trade them for the world. That's my problem too. I get so overly attached with a person if you say the right things to me. And that's the toxic part of my personality. 399Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxsF9f6uuLz
That, and I fuck everything up severely. Which makes me doubt what purpose I truly have for the world. But anyways, the situation takes the spot for the "icing on the cake." I've gotten screwed over by him once before. And this is the second time. I should call him out in this, but I just can't call him the worst I've ever had, because he treated me like I mattered. This was the best "relationship" I've ever had. The things he said to me made me feel important. I feel like there is something special with him. And that's why I can't let him go. I can't watch him walk out of my life and slowly fade away.... because not being able to be called his would destroy me
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