dear diary,

BACK IN SCHOOL

bru im at school rn 6th period and the kids are being SO BAD literally its the worst class I think I've ever been in the kids are so immature and rude like wtf and also its the grade below me

We've all been in the following situation before. You find a book on a site that sounds like an amazing idea. It's got a good premise, the little synopsis at the start is eye catching and it just feels like it's going to be a fic to add to your library and go back to read it again. You save it and start to read...only to find that it's poorly written. No paragraph breaks, generally poor grammar, text speech, numbers where the word should be, etc. So, not wanting to put yourself through that, you exit out of the fic and never look back except to leave a note on their writing style.

This isn't to say that we all didn't start somewhere or that it's not okay to make mistakes (I do and most of us are just doing this for fun) but if you're honestly hoping people are going to want to read your works, you need to learn to how to write well. There's something nice about seeing the number of people read your stuff go up every now and then and good writing is going to help that. The examples I gave above for what I would say are included in "poor writing" is the bane of the existence of anyone looking for a well-written fic of something they enjoy or is good on its own. Beyond the reader wanting to read it, it should also matter to the writer that their stuff is good to them as well since you are, in some way, writing the stories you want to read.

You'll still develop a writing style as you practice, but that doesn't really give much of an excuse for some things. On a quick note, improper grammar can work well if used as dialogue for a character who uses it or if it fits the character whose POV we're looking through. While we may write in a slightly more proper and eloquent style, we all speak like people when everything is said and done. I suppose this could be a time and place thing in terms of the poor grammar, but pretty much everything else I mentioned should probably be avoided.

Have a day

Math is the queen of science.

Biology is a science.

Yet the human dental formulas in my textbook just don't make sense mathematically!

2,1,2,3 / 2,1,2,3 = 32. How?! This is supposed to be the sum of diff tooth types or something. I give up

Title: Thot

In this picture, I decided to make him wear the children haircut in the ancient Egyptian time so that he can represent the permanent juvenile learner.

Again, I wanted to add more elements in this drawing, but I stopped, for fear to messed up again ☹…

I enjoyed this series as I could noticed my evolution in drawing. It seems like you need to practice so that you could improve your style. It’s a lot of thinking, studying or understanding before getting better. Of course, before achieving a successful drawing, I had a lot of failures (you saw some that I put on this blog).

Again, I am making some errors still, but with practice, I think I will get better and better, so I am not at the end of my journey. Challenges awaited me in the future, I like challenging myself to see what I am capable of. My first passion, before everything else, is me and how can I improve myself in everything I do (I am my own competitor :-D)…

[Verse]

Do you remember the summer nights

When we watched the stars in the sky?

Do you remember the kisses we shared

All the sweet and beautiful words we said?

Do you remember the dance of our hearts

The way you played guitar and sang a song?

[Pre-Chorus]

The first love that we will never forget

The memories that will never be dead

The best days we can’t bring back

The songs that became our soundtracks

It’ll always remind me of the best days of my life

[Chorus]

When we were young

When we watched the sunset

When we witnessed the sunrise

Can’t forget the way you kissed my neck

The words that praised me to the skies

Baby, I wish we’d come back to the days

When I loved being in your tight embrace

When we were wild and young

[Verse 2]

Do you remember the late-night talks

When we talked 'till we fell asleep?

Do you remember the secrets we shared

All the biggest dreams we aimed to chase?

Do you remember the sunny day we first met

The way you made me lose my head?

[Pre-Chorus]

The first love that we will never forget

The memories that will never be dead

The best days we can’t bring back

The songs that became our soundtracks

It’ll always remind me of the best days of my life

[Chorus]

When we were young

When we watched the sunset

When we witnessed the sunrise

Can’t forget the way you kissed my neck

The words that praised me to the skies

Baby, I wish we’d come back to the days

When I loved being in your tight embrace

When we were wild and young

[Bridge]

When life seemed so simple

When things seemed magical

When the stars were bright

When we didn’t think of pride

[Chorus]

When we were young

When we watched the sunset

When we witnessed the sunrise

Can’t forget the way you kissed my neck

The words that praised me to the skies

Baby, I wish we’d come back to the days

When I loved being in your tight embrace

When we were wild and young

[Outro]

The first love that we will never forget

The memories that will never be dead

The best days we can’t bring back

The songs that became our soundtracks

It’ll always remind me of the best days of my life

Maybe I should make a dream diary?

Anywaysssssss I had a dream where a kpop idol turned into a dragon and ate me. Not fun at all.

Maybe I should take some posters down lol

Hey guys! I know it's been a while, but I have not forgotten about you. So, I'm probably going to recreate ADT and ABT eventually with their new covers, since I can't update the covers on the current books, which is...really annoying. And bothering me maybe more than it should. Anyway, that's on my to-do list, and when I do that, I'll also be posting the rest of ABT, so the entire book will be available. But, for now, enjoy the next chapter of ADT! Well...as much as you can. It's a heavier one. I've been struggling with how to handle Licht's cutting since I first introduced it into the story way back at the beginning, but I'm happy with how this turned out. And we'll see where I take it from here.

Your story here...

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I don't miss you at all.

Not on my bad days

Not on my good ones.

I don't miss you when I go out skating  and I certainly don't miss you when I'm thinking of leaving this place.

I don't miss your laugh or your silly remarks

I remember them but I can't seem to miss you.

Should I miss you?

I don't think so.

You got mean over time

Not the girl I knew.

Angry and always at your last straw.

No more compassion for me.

Though I held you and then I made sure you were okay

I wrote poems and cried while I thought you were on the street dying.

I laughed with glee when you told me you were doing well

cus that's all I had ever wanted.

11:11 I wished for you.

11:12 suddenly I feel you slipping away.

from me

though I cared

and I understood you. the parts that lovers and friends couldn't seem to grasp

So I guess I'm saying

I don't miss you

but I hope you're still doing well.

and that your girl is making you happy

that your smile still shines how it always did

and you're still having sleepovers with your friends.

I hope that I don't cross your mind anymore

that you are free of me because you want to be

and really I pray that head of yours clears

and you see yourself the way I've always seen you.

enough.

and so so many beautiful things.

All of us are jealous of someone or something. Be it a celebrity, the next-door neighbour or your classmate, there is someone we envy. The grass always looks greener on the other side.

And I don’t blame you for it. Jealousy and envy are human emotions; everybody has felt them at one point. And whether it’s right or wrong depends on how you choose to act upon its influence.

Let me give you an example: Last year, I had a smart, popular classmate who also appeared to be confident. We would use the same transport to get to school and come back home, so I had plenty of time to talk to her. But I wouldn’t.

Because I felt insecure and competitive around her.

As mentioned earlier, she was very popular, and I could see why. Her body language, communication skills and her spontaneous jokes made her fun to be around with. And those were the things I wish I had. So the most sensible thing to do was to hang around with her, and probably adapt some of her habits and at least be a step closer to being my dream self.

But that’s not what happened, and why did it not happen?

Every time she would try to talk to me, I would find fault with whatever she said and complain to my friends and say how she would not be a good friend to me to satiate my jealousy. But in the end, that did nothing but pull me even deeper into a quicksand of hatred.

And so I started thinking, “Why do I not feel better even after impeccably finding her drawbacks and gossiping about it with others?”

It was because I failed to address the main issue. All those days, I had thought that shewas the problem but in fact, it was me.It was my jealousy that blinded me into thinking that if I were to take away what I thought she had in addition to what I had by gossiping about it with other people, then that would make us equalwhen in reality, all it did was ruin friendship.

By gossiping about her to others, I was draining my energy instead of focusing on myself and fixing my drawbacks. I also found myself being so competitive around her. If she said she had accomplished something I would go on and tell her about what Ididas if it was better.

I soon began to catch up that it was her extroverted personality that I wanted, and that I was jealous that she had what I didn’t. But though I knew it, I still kept feeling a bit inferior and jealous and eventually stopped talking to her.

Looking back, that was one friendship that I lost.

Now, what do you do after you realize that you’re jealous of someone? In my case, I was able to identify that I was jealous and could even point out which trait of hers that I would wish to have. But even then, I wasn’t able to go back and see her as just another classmate who I wanted to be friends with. I just completely shut her off.

There are some things that I wish I would do if I ever meet someone like her again in the future, and let me share those with you.

But before that, I’ll tell you about another one of my experiences.

I transferred schools and there was this girl who would constantly ask me for tips on how to study better. (FYI I was one of the top 5 in the class.) Sometimes she asked me to explain a question and I would be like, “This is easy. Why would you even ask me this?” After some time she was quite tired of it and, would not ask me to explain anything. But whenever I confronted her about this, and asked, “Am I being rude by saying this to you?” or “Should I try explaining the question better?” She would just brush it off and say it was not a problem.

But I knew it was because I could see my past self in her. The self that shuts out the people she wants to be like because her jealousy surpasses her admiration for them.

So one lunch break, I asked her something along the lines, “Do you feel half-jealous and half-admiration for me because of my academic performance?”

And though surprised, she said yes, and elaborated on how she felt. That was one of the first big conversations we had and I think that had a huge impact on our friendship (She’s one of my best friends now). If we hadn't opened up about our feelings and emotions towards each other, I don’t think our friendship would have progressed.

So if you have the chance to talk to the person who you half-admire and half-envy, then do it and probably say something like, “You are very good at this, what did you do to achieve it?” And try to implement whatever they say.

And understand that jealousy doesn’t mean bad. It can serve as a motivation. When you see someone and they have something that you want for yourself, say to yourself, “That person is so good at it, they probably worked hard, I should also work hard.”

Most of the time, these people in your life also have something about you that they’re jealous of. And again, it’s not wrong. Just make sure that you don’t act rashly or rudely towards them because when you feel jealous, it’s your soul telling you, “This is one of your traits, get better at it.”

With Love,

Akshe <3