"LOST IN THE HAZE OF DAWN"— a hauntingly beautiful exploration of shattered dreams, silent screams, and the unyielding resilience of the human heart.

This is a place where I put some of the poems I’ve written. Poems about surviving this terrible world, about finding ways to defy fate and defy injustice, and about creating a new world.

Exactly what the title says.

This will be all of my poetry, from contests, other sites, and just whatever, all in one easy, accessible spot!

Enjoy <3

Just my imagination.

This is a fanfic of Julie and the phantoms

In *Undergoing: Seeing Red*, we meet a 16-year-old girl named Roxy, whose life is a tangled web of empathy, anxiety, and a relentless search for stability. A girl who is fiercely independent, yet carries the weight of others' emotions, Roxy’s world is colored by the pain of her past and the struggles she faces each day. She is a character defined by her Y2K-inspired style—bold, sharp, and a bit of a puzzle to those who try to understand her. With Vasovagal syncope, Roxy navigates her life with a constant battle between fear and strength, balancing the weight of her emotions with a deep sense of empathy for the people around her. She can feel the pain of others as if it were her own, and it is both a gift and a curse.

Roxy is introverted by nature, choosing her battles carefully and only opening up to those who have earned her trust. Though sassy and sarcastic, with a sharp wit that can cut through the air, Roxy is a survivor, constantly searching for answers to the questions that life keeps throwing her way. The daughter of Evie and Axel, both young parents who were barely older than Roxy herself when they had her, Roxy’s home life has always been a difficult one. Her parents, too immature and unfit to care for her, have been a source of pain and confusion throughout her life. With the looming threat of a court case that could change everything, Roxy finds herself at a crossroads, caught between the chaotic life she’s known and the chance for something better.

Roxy’s appearance is as unique as her personality. She has deep red hair that cascades past her shoulders in soft waves, often styled in a messy bun or left to flow freely, embracing the Y2K aesthetic with a modern twist. Her pale complexion contrasts with her striking features, including her sharp, almond-shaped eyes, which are her most captivating feature—an intense, piercing red that flicker when she's emotionally charged. Her left eyebrow is adorned with a small piercing, giving her an edge, and a helix piercing on her left ear adds to her rebellious charm. Roxy dresses in a mix of vintage and modern pieces, blending layers of vibrant red, denim, and chunky accessories. She’s often seen wearing bold, graphic tees, oversized jackets, and chunky boots, completing the look with silver jewelry that catches the light as she moves.

Enter Luke, Alex, and Reggie—three 17-year-old boys whose lives were forever changed by the music that bound them together. Though they come from different backgrounds, each of them has been shaped by their own trials and tribulations, making them the perfect complement to Roxy's complex character.

The year is **1995**, a time when music, fashion, and culture collide, setting the stage for Sunset Curve, the band that binds these four souls together. And in this version of reality, Luke, Alex, and Reggie are not ghosts or memories of the past—they are very much alive, each at the forefront of their journey, their struggles, and their victories.

### **Luke’s Backstory:**

At 17 years old, Luke is the passionate and protective leader of the trio. He grew up in a home torn apart by emotional neglect, with a mother who could never truly connect with him and a father who chose to walk away from their family. From a young age, Luke learned to fend for himself. His escape was always music—writing songs, playing guitar, and finding solace in the sound of his own voice. But no matter how much he lost himself in his music, the void left by his father’s abandonment was always there.

Luke is tall with a lean, athletic build, often dressed in a mix of rock-inspired clothing, like leather jackets, band tees, and worn-in jeans. His shaggy brown hair, often messy from performing, frames his face, and his hazel eyes gleam with an intensity that shows his unwavering determination to protect those he loves. He carries himself with the quiet confidence of someone who’s fought his battles, and though his tough exterior sometimes makes him seem unapproachable, those who know him understand the depth of his heart. His natural leadership is magnetic, and while he can be a bit headstrong, his sincerity is never in question. Luke plays guitar in their band, Sunset Curve, a pivotal role in the band's sound and the driving force behind their success.

### **Alex’s Backstory:**

At 17, Alex is the quiet, introspective member of the trio. Growing up in a family that demanded perfection at every turn, Alex spent much of his childhood feeling like he was never enough. His parents, though loving, put immense pressure on him to succeed, making it impossible for him to find his true self. The fear of failure plagued him for years, and it wasn’t until he found music and his ability to empathize with others that he started to feel like he had a purpose. But even then, the weight of never meeting expectations stayed with him.

Alex stands at an average height with a slender frame that reflects his quieter, more thoughtful nature. His messy blonde hair often falls into his eyes, which are a striking shade of green, full of emotion and depth. His usual attire includes simple yet stylish clothes—loose sweaters, fitted jeans, and boots that give off an effortlessly cool vibe. Alex’s understated look contrasts with the intensity he carries in his heart, and though he may appear soft-spoken, his presence is undeniable when he chooses to speak. Alex plays drums for Sunset Curve, providing the rhythm and pulse that gives their music its heartbeat.

### **Reggie’s Backstory:**

At 17, Reggie is the youngest of the trio, but that doesn’t mean he lacks depth. Reggie’s upbringing was far from easy—he grew up in a household where love was conditional and affection was rare. His parents, though present, were emotionally distant, leaving Reggie to figure out the world on his own. The humor he developed over the years became his shield against the loneliness and neglect he often felt. Through laughter, he found his way into the hearts of others, but behind the jokes was a boy who never felt seen or valued.

Reggie is slightly shorter than Luke, with a wiry frame that allows him to move with a restless energy. His black hair is always in a state of controlled chaos, often tousled in a way that looks like he’s been running his hands through it. His playful blue eyes sparkle with mischief, but they also reflect a sadness he doesn’t like to show. Reggie dresses casually, often in colorful shirts, jackets, and sneakers, embracing a laid-back, almost childlike style that contrasts with the depth of his emotions. His humor is infectious, and his presence is a breath of fresh air, but beneath his playful exterior lies someone who longs for true connection. Reggie plays bass guitar for Sunset Curve, adding the groove and energy that fuels their sound.

### **A New Beginning:**

Roxy’s path intertwines with Luke, Alex, and Reggie’s in a way that changes all of them. The boys, each with their own emotional baggage, come together to offer Roxy something she’s never had: a sense of belonging. With Luke’s fierce protection, Alex’s understanding, and Reggie’s lightheartedness, Roxy begins to see that there is more to life than the chaos she’s known. The boys, too, begin to heal in their own way, learning from Roxy’s strength and resilience.

As they all navigate the complexities of their lives—Roxy facing the court case and her troubled parents, and the boys learning to balance their pasts with their futures—they find in each other a support system that changes everything. Luke, Alex, and Reggie are alive, real young men with dreams, fears, and flaws. But together, they form something unbreakable: a family built on empathy, love, and the shared understanding that healing isn’t a solo journey.

In the end, it’s not just Roxy who needs saving—it’s all of them. And perhaps, in saving each other, they’ll all find the peace they’ve been searching for. Together, they will not only face the trials of their pasts, but they will find their place in the world, both in their music and in the lives they are building together. The year is **1995**, and this is just the beginning of the story that will define them all.

*completed draft 2*

In a country named Eluvia exists a group called the Blades who is tasked with protecting the King and royal family.

Vander, a Captain within the organization is tasked with discovering the truth to who had tried to kill the King. His investigation leads him into trouble fighting a shadowy organization and their assassins. He will discover new friends, make new allies, but lurking around every corner is a traitor waiting for him to fail.

Book 1 of the Vander Trilogy

This is a collection of some of the poems I’ve written. The themes are about surviving this world we live in, finding love and community along the way, and fighting for justice.

"Introduction"

In the shadowed recesses of the human experience, where the cacophony of raw emotion meets the silence of existential dread, there lies a realm that music dares to tread—a realm where the visceral intensity of Death Metal, the mechanized heartbeat of Industrial Metal, the haunting depths of Black and Doom Metal, and the aggressive velocity of Thrash Metal converge. It is from this dark confluence that "Darkbloom" emerges, a collection of poems that seeks to capture the essence of these powerful musical forces and channel their unrelenting energy into the written word.

This anthology is not merely an homage to the genres that inspire it; it is a pilgrimage through the labyrinthine corridors of the psyche, a descent into the abyss where light is devoured by shadow and where the soul is laid bare, screaming and triumphant. Each poem within these pages is a ritual, an incantation spun from the threads of the most primal human emotions—rage, despair, longing, and the lust for transcendence. While the poems are influenced by particular songs and bands, they are not direct copies but rather original creations that echo the spirit and intensity of the music.

"Darkbloom" is a testament to the beauty found in darkness, the order in chaos, and the harmony in dissonance. It is a journey through the night that promises no dawn, yet offers glimpses of an otherworldly luminescence that can only be perceived by those who dare to look beyond the veil of the mundane.

The verses contained herein are not for the faint of heart. They are the screams of the damned, the whispers of the forgotten, and the battle cries of the defiant. Each line is a scar etched upon the parchment by the clawed hand of introspection, each stanza a chapter in the saga of the human condition.

As you immerse yourself in "Darkbloom," let the darkness envelop you like a shroud. Feel the pulse of the double bass, the screech of the guitar, the guttural growls, and the piercing screams as they resonate within the chambers of your soul. Allow the industrial hammering to become your heartbeat, the doleful melodies your breath, and the searing lyrics your guiding light through the uncharted territories of your own depths.

Welcome to "Darkbloom," where the petals of beauty unfurl in the night, and the thorns of truth pierce the veil of illusion. Here, in the confluence of metal and verse, find the courage to confront the darkness and the strength to let it transform you.

Notes to you.

idk i was bored

Shion, monoton bir hayata sahip, sıradan bir lise öğrencisiydi. Günleri, dersleri ve ödevleriyle geçiyor, akşamları ise en sevilen romanın dünyasında kayboluyordu. Bu roman, büyü ve sihir dolu bir akademide geçen epik bir macerayı anlatıyordu. Ancak bir sabah, gözü açılıp kendini tanımadığı bir odada buldu. Etrafına bakınca, her şeyin ona çok tanındığını fark etti. Aynada ona bakan yüz değildi; bu, romanın en nefret edilen karakteri Raul'du. Shion, bir şekilde kendini romanın içinde bulmuştu ancak Raul onun sandığından daha gizemli bir geçmişe sahipti