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Today when I woke up and opened my eyes, looking at the white ceiling of my bedroom, I realized that I didn't want to. I don't know exactly what I didn't want, I just knew I didn't want it. I got up, went to the bathroom and sat on the toilet. I spent a few minutes on my phone, scrolling endlessly and aimlessly. I let my phone slip from my hands and fall to the floor. I wasn't hungry or thirsty, so I decided to skip breakfast and take a shower straight away. I throw myself under the freezing water, I don't use shampoo or soap, I let the drops of water wet my body. I turn off the water and get out of the shower. I don't even dry myself. I don't even get dressed. I look around my living room for a bit, then I go out into the garden.149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ90uRdwgQLJ
It's early morning, Monday. There aren't many people around, but enough to smell the exhaust fumes in the air, hear the conversations of people walking, some dogs barking and some children cackling. I'm in the middle of the garden path, completely naked, and I look around. I don't focus on anything specific, I let my eyes fly over everything they land on, without really analyzing what they are observing. I start to notice people looking at me askance, those who burst out laughing, those who insult me, but I don't pay any attention to it at all. I turn my gaze to the sky.149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0Iu27PYA5
It's a cool morning, one of those where you don't understand if the weather is good or not. There are some clouds, the sky is vaguely gray. The sunlight is there, but he is invisible, nowhere to be found. I've always enjoyed days like these. For some reason I start to focus on a point. It wasn’t anything interesting, but my eyes began to focus on him, on this small generic area located precisely above me. I feel my heels lift off the ground.149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7F6Z7QEZh
I feel so light. My heels are off the ground a few millimeters, but the levitation is constant, if very slow. Soon I'm on the tips of my toes. Then I am completely separated from the ground. The people around me are starting to notice, I hear their screams, some swear, some call an ambulance, a priest improvises an exorcism. I continue to focus on the point. I'm 1 meter off the ground. I feel all the eyes on me, the people taking photos and videos of me. I ignore everything. 4 meters. Cops, ambulances and firefighters arrive, they call me but I don't answer. An old lady cries. 8 meters. A journalist berates her cameraman to adjust the shot, and starts babbling. 16 meters. By now the voices become imperceptible, a background buzz, signal interference. I notice how I'm picking up speed, how it's increasing exponentially. The eyes are fixed on the point.149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbI40PGWUju
At this height all the people seem little smaller than ants, the neighborhoods, parks, buildings and cultivated fields are like floor tiles that form an abstract pattern. The air has become cleaner, fresher. I let it pass through my lungs and sanitize them. I pass through a cloud, this wad of condensation that heals my skin with its humidity. I inhale deeply, breathe in these microscopic droplets, drowning in their purity. The cloud becomes denser and denser, the hair and hair on my body straighten. I am hit in the head by a powerful electric shock, which passes through my nervous system. I feel the neurons being pumped with energy, each little discharge crossing each cortical sulci, then unleashing on my spinal cord. From there the electricity conquers me completely, reaching every extremity of mine. Lightning escape from my fingers, returning to the clouds. The wing of an airplane brushes me lightly, I hear an engine explode. Continue following the point.149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmUAFhj4UEW
The dark color of Space is getting closer and closer, I am now reaching the stratosphere. My body catches fire, I'm becoming an inverse meteor, a grave that rejects its gravitational pull and uses it to distance itself from everything. My body is burning, but not losing mass. It's as if every molecule of mine started to merge. I pass the Moon. My fingers stick together, my limbs recede. Venus. My torso remains, my neck merges between my shoulders. Mercury. I am no longer recognizable as a human being, a vaguely spherical shapeless mass, an organic geoid. I cross our Sun. The radiations of the solar winds embrace me sweetly, scar me, burn me, poison me. I let myself be shaped deeply. I reach the core. So much light, so much pressure, so much heat. I have never felt such comforting warmth in my entire life. When I emerge, I am a new being. A living being. I continue to follow the path.
My entire body mass has now degenerated into a single point, a single atom at the center of everything, my flesh and soul concentrated into a single infinitely dense molecule of eternal energy potential. I reach the speed of light. Shortly after I exceed the limit, I become even faster. I crash into planets and other celestial bodies, destroying them in instants, without ever stopping, gaining more and more speed, and even more power. Fixed straight to my point, I continue to travel into the dark oblivion of the universe at an infinite, incalculable speed. I cross billions of galaxies in single instants, passing by each planet I witness the miracle of life, millions of civilizations and empires forming and destroying with the blink of an eye, until life and death unite to become one and the same. I reach the furthest edge of matter, and reach the point I so much longed for. I stop immediately.149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWPOKecfSUF
I achieved my goal. I've reached my objective. Around me, around this little atom, there is only nothingness. I am the only evidence of the existence of matter for eons of light years.
Very slowly, I start moving again. I'm going back.
I'm coming home149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs0HXt295FX
