I'm laying in a hospital bed, I know this. I have bandages on my wrists. Now I feel remorse. As I wake up, I begin to weep. I weep for the lives I have taken, Yet I don't plan on stopping my theft. I stay there until the shadow comes again.
"Felix. you failed. You need to run." She said to me, her hand in mine, just as it used to be, as it always should have been. I cry more at the absence.
"Alex, I can't do it..." I told her, my hand shaking trying to grip hers. I couldn't run. I couldn't do it.
"But then what will you do?" She asked me, her voice breaking a little. She still loves me. even after everything I have done.
"I will meet you at the gates, my dear." I told her, promising my death. I smiled at her and let her image fade away. I took a piece of paper and a pen and began to write.
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Dear Mom,195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKJmshiKvG
I am not strong enough. I'm sorry for being the son you never wanted. I hope sometime after this is all over that you can love me again. I hope we will meet in the afterlife and you can hold me in your arms like you did before. I am an imposter, a fraud, and a murderer. I can't live knowing she's not. I love you, and I'm sorry that I wasn't better to you. I hope you can get sober, I hope dad can, too. I don't want you to cry for me, because a shit son doesn't deserve your precious tears. Goodbye Mommy.195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ169ogsuSeM
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After I finished writing, I ripped the bandages off of my wrists and threw them at the window. I rolled over in the bed and unplugged all of the cords holding me in this mortal plain. I turned back over and waited.195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfklHhIkXnk
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I felt the sting of death on my tongue as my eyes rolled back. Nurses came flooding in, trying to help. But they couldn't.
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