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We arrive at Club Grandi. I immediately make a beeline for the bar, The thought of Felix losing it tonight makes me way more upset than it should. I stare in disgust as a boy flirts with Felix, and I walk over. "Heyyy, Lixie!" Felix studies me. "Jinne," he warns. "We just got here! How are you already drunk?" I shrug. The boy passes Felix a drink, and I watch him shudder as he gulps it down. Felix isn't used to the power of a little vodka yet. A couple of hours pass, and let's just say I'm not keen on sobering up right now. I can't find Felix. The horrifying thought of him going home with this stranger...drunk...goddammit Felix! Then I see him, alone, holding a glass. His pupils dilated, his hand holding the drink shaking. Who fucked with him? I walk over. "Lixie, are you okay?' He doesn't even notice me. Then, he drops the drink. Glass shatters across the tile floor, sending sparkling shards everywhere. I gasp, at turn to Felix, he is still somehow unfazed by the situation. "What did you take," I mutter as I carry him out of the club. Felix's eyes flicker open as I walk back to my house. "Jinnie?" He says weakly. "Hey, Lixie". I lay him on my bed as I go shower. It's helping me gradually sober up, I wrap a towel around my waist and check my phone, full of drunk texts from I.N. I put my phone down after reading the first ten, then giving up. I.N will be fine, Bangchan is with him. Felix is sitting on my bed, reading this big ass novel. "Hey Jinne!" I smile at him. My brain is so fucked up right now from all the alcohol. When I'm drunk, I have no filter. I stare at Felix, thinking about how drop-dead gorgeous he is. It's normal to think that about your friend, right? I don't even know. "Ughhh" Felix groans. I chuckle. "Don't do drugs. Or this happens." Felix grins. "Mmkay, daddy" I laugh at this. We joke around like this all the time, it's nothing weird. Still...
I go to my dresser to throw on a t-shirt, when a husky, clearly intoxicated voice says "Don't". "Don't what?" I ask Felix. "Put a shirt on. You're so hot shirtless, baby," I stop. Baby? He is obviously high. But why...why am I turned on? He is my best friend. What the fuck is wrong with me? I don't say anything, but I don't put a shirt on either. "Jinnie?" "Yeah?" "I'm high right now and it's the only time I'll be confident enough to say this." He inhales and exhales deeply, then continues. "I have a crush on you. And I have for a while." I stare at him. My best friend, crushing on me? It sounds ridiculous until I remember, all those 'fucked up' thoughts? I think and realize maybe...maybe I am crushing on him too. And then he does what I am too scared to do. To even begin to process what is happening, I'm too drunk. He's drunk. But I don't want to stop him even though I know I should. I let him kiss me. And fuck this shit, I kiss him back.
I cup his neck and pull him into me, kissing him roughly. I bite his lip, and he opens his mouth to let out a soft moan, and it drives me wild. I take advantage of his mouth being ajar and I slip my tongue inside, exploring his mouth, running it against his front teeth, his perfect, shining teeth. He moans in my mouth, and I pull away and kiss his neck. Then his collarbone. Then I unbutton his shirt, kissing down it. Felix pulls me up to him. "Take it."
"Take what?" I ask, breathing on his cheek. His voice deep with wanting he looks me dead in the eyes. "My virginity." My eyes widen. This is all too much...My best friend wants to fuck me. And I want to fuck him. And we're drunk, but who gives a shit. "A-are you sure?" He grabs my chin pulling me into a rough kiss, biting my lips and tongue, his hands running up and down my sides. "Stop," I say suddenly. He obeys, yet looks disappointed. "When you're sober," I say, not sure if I was talking to Felix or myself. He nods, understanding, yet his disappointment couldn't be more obvious.
I tuck him into bed, and he passes out immediately. I, however, don't sleep at all. I made out with my best friend. And I'm pretty damn sure I left a mark. Perfect.
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