The day in and day out i feel this empty space inside my soul. I Keep trying to reach for it I try to walk toward it but once i try to get close it fades away i keep wondering if my mind is playing tricks on me or is this even real or is my guardian angel trying to tell me something why I Lay Here Waiting , I find my self going back 20 yrs ago when i was in my late 20s when i was married to my first husband and we lived on price place in East Alton my husband at the time worked on construction and i remember him going to work and i was by my self all of a sudden a heard a deck of cards shuffle and i am like what the hell and i knew i was by my self but when i went in to my kitchen i saw a deck of card set u for a card game and all of sudden i heard my grandpa voice speak set down and said no he said SET DOWN NOW!!!! i set down and the kitchen chair and i was playing cards with my DEAD GRANDPA that pasted away 2002 and here it was 2004 i was really close to him and i was still grieving over and the fucked up thing was the cards where up in the air and we was playing cards and all of a sudden my husband came home for some reason or another and the cards drop to the table and then my husband left the cards picked back up and we kept on playing and that was that then one night me and husband got in to a heated fight and I made him sleep on the couch and i could see my husband from are bedroom and he went to sleep and all of a sudden i see the end of the couch lift up and tip over and my husband fell off the couch and the couch went back down to the floor and my husband did not know what happen but i sure in the hell did lol it was my grandpa lol i said to my self now fuck with me you deal with my grandpa lol as time went on i did feel my grandpa around me and it was strange really he has protected me from harm from a past boyfriend he told me one time to get out get out now and i saw his shadow of a spirit figure that i knew it was my grandpa and i knew he was protecting me from something and guarding me from anyone from hurting me and sure shit he did after a week later the guy i broke up with got arrested at is mom house for drugs and i am like holy shit i was so glad i called it off because i could of been going down with him cause i never did drugs in my life let alone i sure in the fuck will not go down for stupid shit like that. You figure my dad would be my guardian angel since i was a daddy girl but i was a pappa girl to but i think since my grandpa died first i kind of figure it was my grandpa. As time went on i feel like he went to the other side but i figure i would see him again but i did not . let me tell you i wish i could see them alive all of my family and the once i never met . So in my mid 40s i decided to get a few tattoos and one of my tattoos is angel wings and in between each wing there are special words between the angel wings and it reads Angels in Heaven so i dedicated to the family i lost and that are angels and i hope most of my family are angels and i hope i get to see them all and that they know who i am and that are waiting for me and i hope there will not be any illnesses and that everyone is 25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡodfFnMMXmz
Laying here just wondering is starting to be boring as hell i hate the winter time its so depressing cause you can not do anything but hide in your house and keep warm. I love my spring and summer and fall so i can work out in the yard . So hopefully i do not lay here to long.
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