I ran down the street, not looking were I was going and not caring either. Suddenly somebody caught my arm. Oh great. My first thought was that Steven had come after me and I didn’t like it, but it wasn’t Steven.884Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoSWaThxRL7
Standing there, with an alarmed expression on his face, was Adam. He let go of my arm when he saw that I wasn’t going to run.884Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHewF90r61n
“What happened?” Adam asked as calmly as he could, which was a lot calmer than I was.884Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj6om72aRti
I tried to wipe away my tears and smile but that didn’t help. The tears kept coming and coming. I didn’t know how I felt about Adam being there. I was happy that I wasn’t alone and it was him, standing here, concerned for me, but at the same time I didn’t really want to tell Adam anything about Steven since I really was not interested in Steven that way and it had been just a misunderstanding. 884Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtndZHN2bJN
“I'm okay. Just a little surprised, and it wasn’t a nice surprise,” I explained. The good thing about Adam was that he didn’t pry. He saw I didn’t want to say anything about it and he accepted it. That however didn’t mean that he left me there in the state I was in.884Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVU5TmBFLf5
“I'll walk you home,” he offered. I noticed that in my hurry, I had run further away from my house. I hoped that by the time we reached my house my tears would have stopped and that I didn’t look like a wreck. However that was unlikely. Mum always noticed when I had cried. I didn’t want to explain to her that I was having boy trouble.884Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE1dTvGrISK
“Wait,” I said to Adam, “I don’t want to go home. Not yet.” 884Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq6SKiVEaV9
“Where then?”884Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKZRsfvSeTl
“I don’t know. Can we just walk for a while? I don’t want my parents to see me crying.”884Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnROmZDQImy
“Okay,” Adam replied, “I think I know a place where you can collect your thoughts without interference,”884Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEjUgjywKaD
We walked for a while, we didn’t talk much and we didn’t touch, but just Adam's presence helped me calm down. After some time I realized that we were almost at the beach. I hadn’t been there since August 23rd.884Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZdg9qYJxon
It was dark, I could only make out Adam's silhouette and our footsteps on the sand were the only sounds breaking the silence of the night other than the crashing of the waves.884Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHpYQsnlzXB
I sat down. The sand was cold and felt a little bit wet, but I didn’t really care. Adam sat next to me and for a while we just looked at the sea in silence, both of us in our own thoughts. I know we came here because I was crying. I think I still looked like I had just cried, but I didn’t feel sad or angry anymore. What I did feel was Adam's warm hand lying on the sand. I placed mine next to his and our fingers touched, just a little but it still felt a hundred times better than Steven holding my hand.884Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoKuyAf7NNO
“Hey,” I turned toward the where I knew Adam was sitting, “Why did you stop me when I was running away?”884Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ockufAg9p
“You seemed upset,” Adam's voice said. I couldn't see his face, but imagined it must have had looked gentle like his voice.884Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnHfQo4ts42
“I think we have established I was upset.” I laughed quietly, not daring to disturb the silence any further, “but why did you stop me?”884Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDCrGZfy4J
“Because if something had happened to you and I knew that I could have helped, but didn’t, I couldn’t live with myself.”884Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8VlRv64a0j
“So you were thinking of yourself?” I asked. My voice wasn’t accusing or judging. I just wanted to know Adam. I didn’t care if he was selfish as long as I learned something new about him and his past.884Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHJ3SIg6Qy
“I was thinking of the way Cindy was suffering and how I saw it every day, but still didn’t do a single thing that made a difference,” Adam's voice was as quiet as mine.884Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKHw6iHiaU9
“Do I remind you of her?” I couldn’t say that name. It would have left a bitter taste in my mouth. I didn’t know if I really wanted an answer to that question either. Was I just a replacement for Adam?884Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWA3uI8fDv
Adam turned his head in my direction but I doubted he saw much, which was a good thing considering how anxious I looked. “No, you're nothing like her,”884Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVN00wvEeCq
I felt relief wash over me. Adam was with me for me, not to remember Cindy.884Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwRTi2lEN8
He continued, “Your looks, personalities – it's all different, but the way we are drawn to each other, I know you have felt it too, like we have know each other forever. I want that to remind me of my little sister.”884Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJ6FWoldVq
“Little sister?” That came out loud. I just couldn’t suppress my surprise, and relief, “Cindy was your sister?”884Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhy3X5gKgOs
“Who did you think Cindy was?” there was a hint of humor back in his voice. “A lover?”884Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ06os03IB7M
Damn, it was like he could read my thoughts. “Silly me,”884Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQWFh03sqtS
“I never told you who she was so you weren’t being silly, just imaginative.” I could feel him smiling in the darkness.884Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7oDBqUlDU
Adam intertwined his fingers with mine and we sat there. We didn’t say any more, just enjoyed each other's company and at some point, my head fell on Adam's shoulder and I fell asleep. The last thing I remembered was him stroking my hair.884Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj93mc3z1Wc
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