I should probably ease up on the rules I have set for myself. Such as this one. This was started with the intention to write at least 100 words a day but I've already missed some. Consistency is something I have always struggled with. I think that goes with being motivated by novelty. Eventually habits become monotonous. There's this need to feel constant excitement or else I lose interest. Perhaps the answer lies with being able to trudge through how boring it all becomes.341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7xLxV2BVN
Can you tell I'm just trying to hit the word count? It's kinda hard to think right now, so many strings and branches and tangents of ideas swirling around in my head. And here I am in the eye of the storm. Caught in the middle of everything yet only finding clarity by being detached from the roiling mess.
There's also the issue of perfectionism. I'm not entirely sure if it's the fault of modern media and the internet, but once I realized I have some audience, I find myself creating things to be presentable; a performance, words on a screen, a handmade picture. I've thrown that thought to the wind with this rambling for now. But I ought to remind myself to create for the sake of creating and to make something I'd enjoy myself. It doesn't have to be perfect, it just has to be.
Also I have to append a clause to this entire endeavor; I don't have to write something if I don't feel like it.341Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡizqfWItbFv
Creating everyday takes such a great toll, must be why I could never do it for long. That and the myriad of real life issues I have to attend to.
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