I'm not sure what to call it, should I say love or should it be a wish upon a star? Even though I've felt everything I needed to, I still don't understand. I don't understand who I am or what what I'm supposed to be. Time goes by as if it doesn't care about the people it leaves behind, so I made a vow not to be one of those people.
The mirror tells me everything I need to know, from the way you so call "love" me to the way you lie straight through your teeth. I've tried to put a new stepping stone in my life, but something always comes along to knock it down. You are that something. The size of a penny is the size of my love for you, don't take it the wrong way I just thought I'd tell you. For months my mind has been contemplating where you might be when I'm not home, or who your loving when the sun sets. I can't see myself without you, so I keep feeding my heart with lies in order to lay down instead of break down.
You know that I know that this love isn't working anymore, but yet something keeps pulling me in for more. More what? Will I ever find out? I can't say for sure. The last time we talked I was alone, and I heard breathing. I thought to myself this wasn't real, but then I remembered - it was you all along. I couldn't speak, because I knew my life was going to be over soon. So I stood there looking into your eyes, hoping you would see something in me; but everything happened so fast I couldn't help but to notice blood dripping from my face, on my hands; all over my body. You're death craving hands never touched me, but instead they told me a story that I will never forget.
It was a story of the hate you had stored somewhere inside of you all your life, something whispered in my ear that you never really did love me, but you treated me like a fool for love. And that fool was exactly what I was. Don't cry on my shoulder when you have no one else to wipe your tears away, and most of all don't apologies when you and I both know where it's really coming from.
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