It was a winter day, something I always hated. Standing alone waiting to be picked up by my cab in the bitter cold, it was a every day thing now. I would be waiting at the side of my school building, in hopes of not being seen by anyone getting into a foul smelling cab. But sure enough there he was, Caleb Clark. He wasn't the cutest boy in our grade, but he was the sweetest in my heart. Smiles, laughter, caring; and giving is what he was all about. Every time I saw him he always had some kind of gift in hand, whether it be my favorite snack, or jewelry that he swore he hand made himself just to impress me more.
He came up to me wanting to talk for a bit before his dad honked his horn for Caleb to hurry up. Smiling per usual, and taking a step closer to me; I knew it was going to be something I would never forget. He had brought up the fact that his cousin thought we were dating, due to us eating lunch together all the time. Then said, " so... would you like to be my girlfriend"? And me being the awkward cow that I am, I laughed, I freaking laughed. Doing that always helped me calm down when feeling a certain way, but it didn't help me this time. I was afraid of him taking it the wrong way, so I quickly told him I'll think about it. I knew what my final answer was going to be.
Long story short, I sadly didn't get to confront him about how I really felt. I later moved schools during the summer. Because I had no phone at the time; I had no way of keeping in touch with him nor my other friends. Still to this day I hope he knows that me moving wasn't because of him, but my own personal reasons. This is not something I am proud of, but I won't sit and deny that it ever happened. Yes, I did move on and now I have feelings for someone else, but that will never take the truth of him being my first. Even though I didn't love him the same way he did for me, I learned something new about: love, life, and most importantly myself. That is one thing I will always thank him for.
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