I don’t know if I can keep doing this… He just… He just doesn’t see me anymore. Do you know what it is like to be invisible?
Jenna was a short practical woman with curly brown hair and brown eyes. She was like a hedgehog hiding in the bushes. She would certainly spike your hands if you grabbed her now. She was a tired small thing. She felt invisible to her boyfriend Johnny.
She is so damn stiff. Everytime I touch her, she pulls away from me. I miss her but I don’t know how to say it…
Johnny was an older man, about fifteen years older than Jenna, but was still young. He had some creases in his eyes but not a single grey hair. He sported a dirty moustache and soul patch and had long wavy black hair. He never wanted to grow old…
”Oh come on! Not again…” Johnny moaned as he massaged her shoulders and she brushed him off. She stood by the window looking at the condensation on the panel.
“I’m tired…” She said.
”You were tired yesterday… and the day before that… and before that…” Johnny said leaving the room.
The truth was that she was in fact drained. She was a lifeless soul floating on the brink. She was glitching out with her eyes focused on the drops of water on the window panel. She wanted to cry…
He just doesn’t see me… I am lost…
Johnny put his load into an old microfiber cloth. It was crusty with seed after all he had been hiding it underneath his driving side seat. He jacked off in his car often. The porn was always the same. Latina.
I hate this… Why can’t she see me? I want her to love me again. I just don’t know what I did wrong…
Zoe Kahn stood in the street, twenty feet away, looking up at the stars. He reached out to touch one and then his ice cream dropped off the cone. He walked down the street back to Roy’s Ice Cream Palace.
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What’s happening up there? Huh?
Jenna was rubbing the sand out of her eyes for the tenth time that morning. She stood in a line at the cafe for her regular americano with two sugars. There was some commotion at the front counter.
”What’s wrong with you, huh?” A bald man said as he received his coffee with a lemon wedge on it.
“You said you wanted a lemon coffee… right?” Zoe stumbled over his words.
“Don’t worry…” the manager, a black woman with a peanut shaped body smiled nervously, “Sir… I will make you a new one, on the house.”
The manager hurried Zoe away who walked away looking at the floor. Zoe was a tall Indian man with wavy black hair and a pretty face. Jenna assumed he was probably an air head who was hired based on visuals, but still there was something weird about him. Something that was unsettling.
I’ve never heard of a lemon coffee… Strange…
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Why is it so grey here? It’s a monochrome world… I would kill for a sepia tone, something warm to hold me close and tight.
Jenna was woken up from her daydream. She was in the office canteen at lunch. She sat alone as usual. There used to be a few girls with her but they deserted her for bigger and better connections, she guessed.
“Can you believe it? The CEO’s son jumped off the Aurora Archway,” one woman said.
”What kinds of problems do spoiled rich kids have anyway…”
“Will this affect us? Our jobs? I just got here…”
He killed himself? Jeez… Can’t they be more respectful? Fuckers…
*Buzz* “Pizza tonight?” - Johnny
Jenna sighed. She walked up to her office cubicle and the rows seemed to extend to infinity. She felt woozy. She looked up at the ceiling and saw stars. A whole universe making her feel insignificant.
She ran out of there, dropping her papers on the floor.
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She saw the message. Damn… Why didn’t she reply… I hate it when she does this.
Johnny knew her favourite pizza toppings. It was always Hawaiian with pineapple and ham but with the addition of jalapenos and chilli flakes - she was a spicy girl. He never got meat lovers or seafood pizzas that he would get for himself when he was single because Jenna was very particular.
He arrived early at the pizza shop. The world was encased in a dark blue hue like they were submerged under water. The blue hung heavy on Johnny’s heart. He noticed at the corner of the shop was two men sitting on the floor sharing a box of steamy hot pizza.
“Boy this is a weird flavour… But I can’t complain because it’s free…” the homeless man said. He was older in his sixties with messy pee coloured white hair and stubble. He had one front tooth missing.
“I like making new combos. I dunno… banana, beef, and gravy sounded nice… The waxy sweet banana, grilled beef, and spicy gravy…” Zoe said, “Not bad…”
Banana, Beef, and Gravy? Weird kid…
Johnny was woken up by the man calling out his name for his order. He walked to his car and struggled to open it and he cursed. He similarly struggled with the apartment door keys. It was like something was slowing him down… Pushing him away…
There was a note on the table…
”I can’t do this anymore. I’m sorry. I will call you once I find myself again. Don’t look for me because I don’t love you anymore. You would be better off with another girl.”
I don’t love you anymore…
Johnny rushed into the bedroom and most of her clothes were gone. There was a scarf on the floor and it smelled like her.
But she was gone.
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