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I was born Feb 21 st 1977 i was to cute for my own good, when i was born i was born with stomach issues my little body could not digest iron and my little body would hold gas to where i could not burp at all and i had to be on special kind of milk and take gas drops. well as time went on i was 2 yrs old I had some black people that where my neighbors for a long time and to me colored did not matter to me hell i thought they was just had a dark tan to them hell i did not know the difference and did not care so every time i would see my neighbor Freddy washing his rose colored Lincoln town car I would climb the fence and go over to my neighbor Freddy house and ask what ya doing he said i am drying off my car so i wont get water spots but so i realized he had his driver side car open and i just hopped my little ass in the driver side and bent down and said Freddy you missed a spot and he was laughing and said o did i and i said yes sir you did and he asked me did i get it and i said yep and the funny thing about this was he never let his own grand kids in his car but yet i could and then he went in and said you want a sandwich and i said yes sir and thank you he was my best friend in the whole world . Then a few days later i would climb over the fence and knock on the door and his wife Gracie would answer and i said can Freddy come out and play and she said well Karen he is eating lunch and she let me in to see my buddy and of course he made me a sandwich and my mom could not find me any where in the house and my mom went out side to look for me and Gracie happen to see my mom and Gracie said Susie you looking for Karen and my mom said ya and Gracie said she is over here eating lunch with Freddy and my mom said ok send her back when she is done and Gracie had to tell my mom that i knocked on Gracie door and asked her if Freddy could come out and play, Then after years went by i would visit him and the funny thing was when he got in to a wreck and i went in told the ER nurse i was his daughter and the look i got and my ass was white as hell lol my ass got any whiter i could glow in the dark but i did not care that was my buddy but the day he passed away was my whole world fell apart but he was so sick for so long but i did not know it broke my heart , I miss him still to this day..
But as time went on i did follow my dad ever where when i was little from the bathroom and in the kitchen and when we go to family functions as well but hell when i got to be a a teen ager tho i rebelled like a son of a bitch tho i could not handle my dad telling me i could not date until i was 16 yrs old and i could not hang out with my friends until i got in to high school but i could not date tho until 16 but that did not stop me from having boyfriends tho lol but when i could date tho holy hell i was a little bad little girl lol i never got in to drugs or drinking but i did smoke c cigarettes but i was not a heavy but years on i did stop smoking but at that time i thought it was cool in my era but hell things was cheaper than to . but i never knew why my dad was being a hard ass until later on in my life and then i completely understood but then when i thought about it he was still unfair tho but when i had my son every thing changed tho and the crazy thing was i was the only kid that he had that gave him a grandson every kid he had and he had 5 total except for my real brother did not have any kids cause he did not want none that gave my dad a grandson the rest of them gave him grand daughters and my dad would say its kind of funny that you could not give me a grandson but your sister could thats fucked up you know lol but as time went on i did not marry my kid real dad he was to much of a weekend drunk and we did not last anyways and so i married my high school sweet heart, You know what sucks is when we are daddy little girl we look at are daddy like he is are hero and he will live for ever but finding out when that time comes they get sick and they pass away and you think way did people lie making us think that they will last for ever and when you do realize once again you ask your self why did they lie and you never get answers from what you asked, All that you get is tears going down your face and you find your little girl self heart is broken even if your a grown ass woman.17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTl4EuIL0aO
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The day my daddy past away i just did not want to believe it my daddy die and Aug 20th 2010 and ill never will forget the phone call that you never want to get in the middle of the night at 2 AM and i answered the phone and they told me that my daddy was gasping for air and he could not break and they sucked out all the phlegm and he took one last clear breath and he went to heaven and they told us to get the family together and come to the hospital and they told us witch door to come in at and they would buzz us in and all i know i heard my self screaming after i got off the phone and i ran up the stairs since i was in the basement and i woke up my mom and i had to call my son other grandma to tell her what was going on and i woke up my son and i said son your grandpa passed away and i asked my son do you want to say your good byes now or wait to his funeral and my son said i will do them now and i said after that i need to take you to your grandma house so you can stay with her and ill call you off from school so i did that and my son said his good byes and i came back after i dropped my son off at his other grandmas house . I never knew how lost i would be come after my dad passed away.
After my mom and i got back from the hospital and we had his military funeral and let me tell you after my dad passed and we put him to rest I was setting down in the basement and i could of swore him calling me from up stairs and i got up headed up stairs cause that is where we put him cause he could not climb the stairs anymore cause he like a cool bed room and are basement was finished so we had everything down there but when i realized he was gone i cried and i went back down stairs and what was so hard it took me 10 yrs to get ride of his stuff i could not bring my self to do it cause i felt like if i did that i was erasing my dad out of my life but i needed more time but it took 10 yrs to do so but i know people sometimes do not have a choice tho .17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWj2znvSZUS
Now its 2025 now Aug 20th 2010 my daddy will be gone 15 yrs and my heart still feel like it has not been that long but it has . But i have to be thankful tho i had my dad until he was 81 yrs old and i was in my 30's but i still feel like i got ripped the fuck off tho i wanted more time with him and i find my self asking why in the hell can you last for ever and not die from something. . When i need my dad the most he is not here with me anymore he is else where and there are times i need my dad but i wanted him nicer tho . You know i find my self now when things go so wrong and i feel so lost i need my daddy the most and he is not here and i cry like a little girl and i miss hearing his voice and i miss are late night together and i miss us playing card games together i feel so lost without him. I feel my self screaming and crying for my daddy that little girl scream i hear my self doing when i m lost or worried or scared out of my mind or if i am in a jam daddy was always there for me .
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I sure miss my daddy and i miss being your little girl. LOVE YOU Daddy I wish you was here with me 17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCJDk8urPW
