But like every story, ours too had a twist when I had the dawn of love for him. He was attracted towards another junior girl. I was neither happy nor sad of his love. I was really confused of my attitude towards him. He started seeking my help for his love. As a good friend, I tried to help him with one percent of prayer to make his love fail. But my prayers were in vain, as that girl accepted his love. I felt happy for him. But I still believed that I'm not happy wholeheartedly.
Thereafter I started feeling alone. Loneliness was killing me little by little. He used to call me when he needs help. I felt drowned to the bottom of my tear sunken heart. At that time I met, Mr. X. He was from a different college. In the beginning I had nothing towards him. But as days passed Mr. X made me believe that I am attracted to him. I was not in a position to judge my actions. So I blindly gave into his conclusions. In our first meeting, Mr. X kissed me on my lips. It was my first kiss, but I had no reactions towards it. I was not excited about it. I thought that excitement of the first kiss happens only in movies. After just one month of our relationship, Mr. X wanted to sleep with me. Though I was not willing, he somehow convinced me to give into his decision. I was not again happy. As days passed whenever we met, Mr. X wanted to sleep with me, to which I strongly opposed. He started to cut down all my relationships. He wanted me to be with him always. I thought this was because of possessiveness. But later I understood that he was talking with other girls and just making use of my loneliness. Though I was around everyone, I still felt lonely . At one point of time, I understood that Mr. X is not the right person for me. I made this point clear to Mr. X which he was not ready to accept. He even promised to me that he will change but nothing he did.
All these months I had no contact with Jarius. In the corner of my heart I still missed him. We used to meet each other at college. I wanted to share everything with him. But I couldn't as the junior girl always accompanied him. Suddenly, one night I received a call,which was from Jarius. When I picked up the call, I heard Jarius weeping on the other side. The junior girl broke up with him as she was in love with someone else. At first I was happy, but as Jarius started weeping I felt sorry for him. I tried to console him but nothing could stop him. He dropped the call. I was really confused of what was happening in my life. These are not planned but still it's happening with unexpected twists and turns.
A week later, Jarius returned to normal. We once again started coming close to each other. Just then I revealed my love story with Mr. X. At first he was upset, but slowly he made up with my decision. I revealed only the positive part of my negative love story. Jarius and I started spending more time together which made Mr. X angry. One day when we both were in restaurant, Mr. X appeared from nowhere and started abusing me. This made Jarius angry that he entered into a fight with Mr. X. The fight was settled with my decision to select whom I need. I selected Mr. X over Jarius.
My decision changed my life alot. After that Jarius stopped talking to me. I very well knew that I broke his heart. On the other hand I was not happy either. Because Mr. X started troubling me with insulted talks. He wanted to have sex with me if not he abused me with his words. I really felt hurt. I wanted to share this to someone but I don't know who should it be. I was totally afraid to let it out to my parents. One day I was sitting in a beach restaurant,that used to be Jarius' favourite one. I was reminiscing the happy days that Jarius and I had together. When all of a sudden, Jarius appeared from nowhere. He came straight to my table and sat in front of me. I got up to move away as I don't want to break his heart again. But he held my hand and asked me not to move away from him.
When I looked deep into his eyes, I could feel the pain. So I sat beside him. We both spoke nothing but sat quietly looking into each others eyes as he was holding my hands. I didn't want to take my hands from his.
Our quietness was disturbed when someone called my name. It was none other than Mr. X. He stormed towards me to pull me away but I could not be moved as Jarius was holding me so tight and close. This made Mr. X angry that he broke up with me that very moment and left. I was happy that Mr. X became my ex. When I returned home, I went to bed happily and had a sound sleep. At times Mr. X used to call me and remind me of some beautiful moments that we shared. But I was very clear that I was not ready to sacrifice my whole life for some beautiful moments.
We were in our final year. When we turned back we could see alot of ups and downs. We were getting ready for our Farewell. I went to church to give thanks to the Lord for everything that happened. When I finished praying, I turned to see that Jarius was waiting for me. He came there to tell me something. But all he said was nothing. He stood there quietly. Bored of his quietness I got ready to leave, when he pulled me close to him, and both our lips touched each other. I was for the first time excited to kiss him, I even heard my heart fluttering its beats. After a second or two we moved away. I felt as if I had been in a daydream. I lifted my eyes to look at him, when he bent down on his knees and asked my hand in marriage. I was totally mesmerised by his proposal that I accepted it immediately. But one thing Jarius made sure was that, that moment was just the beginning of our never ending love story.
I finally understood that the God's plan to make Jarius and me together went unexpectedly wrong but in the end He turned the wrong in a good way.
ns 18.68.41.139da2
