Lemme tell you the story.
So when I first joined this app I made a friend by the name of alicssia or if I spelt that wrong my bad. They go by he/they pronouns now so I will be kind enough to use those. me and (imma just call them ali) Ali became close friends, which I was fine with. Then things started to speed up fast when ali told me abt his home life and how difficult it was. That made me feel really bad abt them. We soon started to date. But listen, I didn’t want to date ali. But I felt like I had to in order to make their life somewhat better than it was. I did that for him I did it so he didn’t have to be in that dark space alone. That went of for about a good 5-6 weeks before I got my phone taken and was gone for two weeks. When I came back, I came back to several messages of ali saying shit like “omg did I do something??!!” “Did I fuck up?” “JUST ANSWER ME IM SCARED OKAY?” And I got told they had ran away from home and the police had to come and get them. That made me a bit worried bc I didn’t wanna have to be questioned with like the police and stuff about his mmm running away since I was most likely one of the last people they had messaged. Speeding things up, they would write poems about me. We would never get into any arguments, nothing. Until one day I got a txt from his acc claiming to be his parents. At first I thought I was just a joke they played on me to scare me but no. I’m almost positive it was real. The message was basically from the mom saying I should stop texting ali bc I could be an old man n shit and that she works for a computer company so she could dox me if she wanted to and all of that. Ali soon told me that his parents got to his phone and read out messages, seeing our conversation they proceeded to take Ali’s phone and sent that message. I was a bit scared I’m not even gonna lie. I really didn’t wanna be doxxed lol so I left. And I forgot. I felt so bad when u left ali. I didn’t want to. I didn’t want to leave them alone in that place for too long. I didn’t want them to do something stupid. Like they’ve threatened to do in the past. I came back after a month or so to see they’ve made a new acc! I was so happy bc I had been waiting for them. We started texting again, they told me things about what happened and how they want to save money so when he’s 16 he will pay to get removed from his home. I was so proud of them, they where doing great. But I still didn’t have that love feeling. That feeling you get when your with someone you love. When you get those butterflies in your stomach from just being around them. And I never did, I never had that for ali. But I did care. I care so much about ali I just can’t find a place in my heart for them. Ngl I have told ali that I never cared about them. And that was wrong Of me today something so vulgar to a person not doing so well rn. But n e ways, everything was fine until I got grounded again, I left for 93 days and when I came back I was shocked. Ali had made a new acc after deleting their old one and was texting me from that. They spammed me with txt thinking that I left them for no reason and that they where upset with me bc of it. I was surprised that he would even think something like that. I corrected them and wished them a happy birthday as that day was their 16th birthday. I looked at their pf and…it was all abt me. Well maybe that’s an exaggeration but basically. They had people about me, a bio about me, and some more things I can’t remember. I was creeped out. Me and ali only dated for about 9 weeks (counting the times I was actually there and not grounded) basically since I left so much. I was scared. I didn’t know what to do. Something k me just changed and I told my self I didn’t want to deal with this. I couldn’t take the weight of having to come back and check up in him every few minuets. I wasn’t ready for a relationship anymore. I was scared. I was afraid. That’s why I say those things I did. I wanted to get rid of you. I needed you gone.
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