"What this painting indicates, it seems more beautiful and complex."
Sonia took out one of the painting from the book. It was indeed complex. But it still felt like a photograph. It was much detailed. It reflected the clear emotions on the face of two girls. In that painting there were two girls, one was sitting under tree playing flute. She was happy and satisfied. Her eyes had tears and smile on her face. Her face was similar to Vivek's face. The other girl was busy in painting. She was sad indeed. She seemed more focused but her eyes also had tears. Her face details matched with Radha. They both were surrounded by animals and birds. Tiger was resting in one of girls lap who was resting under tree. The smell of pleasure was reflected in the painting....
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"I painted it when we went to the jungle.", Radha said
"Which jungle? I don't know about it. Is there any jungle near this village? And who is the other girl? What's about this tiger?"
Sudden questions of Sonia made Radha uncomfortable. She was also puzzled. She didn't know what to answer. Radha was looking for something to avoid her questions
"May I have water?"
"Sure", said Sonia.
"Who this girl is Radha?", Krutika took out the painting of a beautiful girl. That girl had chubby chicks. She represented not only Radha but also Vivek and Diya. All the face were mixed, moulded and outcome was the sketch.
Radha smiled and said, "So you lied to me. You don't know Dhara. I thought you were able to see her. But I was wrong. After all she is my interpretation and imagination. She isn't alive nor dead. She lives in my thoughts but I want her to be alive. I want her to speak like human. I want her to be here. I need her. She wants to live now. She thinks you can be the one I can trust. She insist me on believing Vivek dada's and Diya mavshi's death. She is asking me to accept reality. But I hate it. I dont want to live in reality. Can't I live in my own world? Why should I make friends? Can't I be with her?", Radha was crying hard. She was trying to end her everlasting pain. Though she seemed to ignore reality deep inside she wanting to accept it. She was screaming for help. She was crying and every of her tear was the proof of the burden she carried. She cried for first time after her aunt's death. Though her mind passed tears of grief her eyes never accepted it. Finally she was trying to empty it all. Finally she was healing.
"It's fine Radha. We are with you.", Sonia patted on her back with love and care. She was trying to understand Radha. She was trying to understand the pain she endured all this time. For being just 14 Radha had alot misery. Radha became afraid of death. After Vivek's death she stopped trusting people. She stopped making friends. She thought everyone will disappear if she interfere their life. She took everything to herself. She thought she was responsible for their deaths.
"Radha, we will always be there for you. And you are not responsible for their deaths. And we won't leave you. After Dhara you have Krutika. You can be friends. She can't always be with you but will be their for you in your hard times. Dont cry. All these people will feel bad if you cry. They are watching you from the sky. Don't cry baccha." Radha cried out all her misery in Sonia's arms.
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Her words were indeed supportive for Radha. Radha had hard time trusting them but she tried. She started interacting with people. For her, death never became an issue. Vivek dada and her aunt were alive in her memories. Of course Dhara left but she often finds her in memories. It was hard for Radha to leave her and move on but she gladly left her behind. She started new life with her new family. She never made such imaginative person again but tried to find her lost voice. She knew her strength. She knew to cure herself from loneliness. And also Krutika never left her. Still sometimes Radha visits that park where she first encounter Dhara. Maybe she will return. But she knows she won't. That day she bravely faced her fear. Now she is 25 and works as cartoonist. She spents her time travelling. She admired Kabir from 'Yeh Jawaani, Hai Deewani'. She feels life in every moment. Understand people, observe them. She also earns by writing blogs. She sends all this money to orphanage. Also for her basic needs she does partime jobs. For her earning money isn't life, it's defination is totally different for her. Whenever Sonia's tell her to stop roaming and get settled, she gives a long speech,
"Aunt I don't want to. And why should I? And about population growth, India is very well at contributing in that. I just want to live my life till last breath. For me human relations doesn't matter, they are just like horizon. You feel you are one but you are not. I think it's better to live to understand yourself. Who you are? Why you are? What is death? I experience it every day. It's fun. You know I aunt you found travelling in your life and I found life in travelling..."
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