It’s time for my next class, I get up putting in my earbuds. It’s nice, Not hearing the commotion and chaos that walking to your next class brings.
Suddenly everybody’s gone, I’m in my own world. Trudging through the halls groups of friends pass. It stings knowing I won’t ever be able to be like them again. Group after group just pass by. They’re laughing. with friends. Funny how that was once me.
All the smiles, the silly bantering. They all look so incredibly happy. The joking around and the shared moments that they hold close to them. Things I long for.
I wish I wasn’t lonely. I wish I had friends. As I walk I keep my head down my throat closing up as hot tears form in my eyes threatening to become my own rain.
Suddenly I hear a familiar voice. Wondering who is it… I look up. The person I once knew, the person that I once had stood by smiling and laughing with just stared back at me.
But it feels like they are looking right through me. It’s just empty. The silence tugging at my eyes urging them to cry. How humiliating. Was I even worth your time, or was I just there so you didn’t look like a pathetic lonely loser.
I can’t stand it. The way you look down at me like I’m nothing. like I’m worth nothing. So easily I was tossed away by you.
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And you know how much it hurts me.
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It hurts me to the point that I find myself frozen. My own breath slowly choking me. I’m stuck in its stronghold. I can hear my heart pounding throughout my head. It rings. And it hurts. My blood practically dissipates from my body as I feel like I’m being held in time.
That empty gaze taunts and yet again you completely dismiss my presence. Just like you dismissed me as a friend and even through the sound of my music I can still. hear. your. laughing.
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I guess next time I’ll keep walking. Just like you did.
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