When I open my eyes, I see myself in a different dimension. I am not in the reality, I am floating inside my mind. My soul has separated from my body.
I swim around my thoughts for a while. I see many images and pictures - inspirations for my novels, friends, family, and happy memories. These are all my favourite things that I like to think of when I am at peace.
I pick up a drawing that happens to float towards me. I always enjoy drawing a lot even when I was just a child. And then here comes another thing, a book.
Books - storybooks, textbooks, reference books...my mind is filled with a lot of different books. Recently, I have been dealing with a lot of school works and exams. My mind is somehow cramped with a lot of knowledge.
I swim deeper within my mind. Deep down, I find some tunnels that look dangerous. Despite being a cheerful and strong person, I still have some memories that I don't want to face.
I take a deep breath, gather up my courage and swim into one of the tunnel. It was dark in there, and I can hear voices echoing from the inside.
"You are so naive!"
"I hate you! You always act like you are better than us!"
I still vividly remember these horrible words. I was bullied by my classmates when I was little, just for being good at studying and being kind. Those words have hurt me a lot. I still don't understand why people would bully others for mere fun.
I try to shut my eyes and ears, avoiding these hurtful words. I just want to have friends, friends that can support and encourage each other.
In my life, most of the people I met will eventually become my rivals just because I do better than them, academically and socially. Jealous soon consumes their minds and start to gossip about me.
Why do people have to behave like this?
I never understand human's mind at all.
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Those are my nightmares, something that I won't want to remember, but this doesn't mean I can forget them. By experiencing both kindness and cruelty in life, my life is complete.
I just hope I won't lose faith in the world only...
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