I sat there on the couch, staring at Ricardo as he fixed up some appetizers for everybody to eat while everybody sat around and talked. I couldn't take my eyes off of Ricardo as he stood in the kitchen, talking and fixing food with someone. I still can't believe that this sexy guy is the Ricardo I fell in love with seven years ago. Back then, he was a troublemaker and pretty goofy, but I loved him. We balanced each other out. I made sure he stayed out of trouble while he made sure I socialized with people. I guess you can say we were perfect for each other and whenever someone threaten me, Ricardo would be there to step in and protect me.
Now, he's using all his time and energy on someone else that he loves. There's no more room for me in his heart anymore. The thought makes me sad and now I know I have to get over Ricardo now, but i'm not sure I can. I've loved him so much when we were together and I still loved him after he broke up with me and left. I've always hoped that Ricardo would come back and we would pick up where we left off. Now that he's back, there's no way we can pick up where we left off and i'm quite curious about who his new lover is.
As I sat there, thinking about all the good times we had together in high school, I felt my chest tighten and my stomach turn into knots. I started to feel my eyes being close to tears when Collin sat next to me.
"Hey, you okay?" He asked.
I sniffled a little and nodded then I stood up.
"I'm...I'm going to the bathroom." I told him then I walked away and headed over to the bathroom to splash water on my face.
When I got to the bathroom, I closed the door behind me then turned on the cold water and began splashing water on my face to cool myself down. Though, feeling the cool water on my face just increased the chances of me tearing up and soon enough, I started to feel tears run down my face as I stared at myself in the mirror.
I sniffed then I started rubbing at my eyes, trying to stop myself from crying. I promised myself that I would wait till I leave, but I guess I just couldn't hold my emotions in anymore. Right now, I wish I can go up to Rico and cry into his chest and tell him how I feel, but I know that he might push me away.
A moment later, I heard a knock on the door and Collin's voice was on the other side of the door.
"Landon, are you alright?" He asked softly.
I sighed then I grabbed a paper towel and started to dry my face and hands off then I shut the water off and tossed the crumpled towel into the small trash can before leaving the bathroom.
"I'm fine." I told him then I started walking back over to the living room and sat down on the couch.
A few minutes later, Rico brought in the appetizers and set the plates down on the coffee table in front of everybody then someone popped open a bottle of wine and poured it in glasses for everybody to have. I took my share and stared down at it.
"I would like to congratulate Ricardo on finding a great guy like Will. Ever since he started dating Will, he has become more happy and I can't wait to see the two get married." One of Rico's friends said.
"To Rico and Will!" Another guy said then everybody held up their glasses and clinked them together before taking a sip of the wine.
I continued to stare down at my glass of wine, though, not in the mood to drink it. After hearing Rico's friend's speech, it made me feel even more horrible inside. He said Rico became more happy after he started dating this Will guy. Have I never made Rico happy when we were together?
I sighed sadly then I set my glass down before standing up.
"Um...I'm gonna go." I said and watched as everybody looked at me, including Ricardo.
I started to open up my mouth to say something to him, but I couldn't find any words to say so I just turned on my heels and walked right out of the living room, heading over to the front door to leave the apartment. I started to walk all the way home to give myself some time to think before I reached my studio apartment and went inside.
I kicked off my timberland black boots then I went over to my bedroom and collapsed on my bed. At first, I stared up at the ceiling then I sat up and grabbed my anime plushie that Rico won for me at a fair when we were in high school.
I held it close to my chest and buried my face into it. I never forgot that day when he won the plushie for me. It pretty much symbolized our love and I've always kept it. I never wanted to get rid of it because it's too precious to me.
I laid back on my bed, keeping my plushie close to my heart then I turned over on my side and closed my eyes, falling right asleep. I'm extremely emotionally exhausted after the events that happened today and I just want the night to be over.
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