You have not said a word for six consecutive years to anyone besides your mother, father, and brother. Your grandma comes to visit and comments that she has forgotten the sound of your voice. Your step-grandfather has never heard you utter a single word in the time you have known him. Your friends forget you, leave you in the dust because they don't know you are there. It is a devastation brought upon by anxiety and by the choice words of foolish children who judged before they knew.
You are a product of bullying. You don't speak because you fear someone will point their finger and laugh. You don't speak because you know, in the back of your mind, what you want to say is so absurdly wrong in the ears of others that they will cast you those odd looks that appear in your nightmares. You don't speak because you are ignorant of the workings of the world and somehow, in the back of your mind, you believe people are good, non-judgmental beings. Now, in your tongueless little head, in your silent mind, you can't help but think how utterly stupid you are for believing such lies.
You at first thought it was simply a fear of judgement, and by cutting your tongue figuratively you would stop the judgement. That did not happen. You were still naive, so you strive to become aware of evil.
Fast forward some years, and you've managed to sow your tongue back on and smile. Grandma hears your voice again.
You are smarter and wiser.
You are diagnosed and medicated for an anxiety disorder.
You suffer from clinical depression.
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And by knowing, you realize what your reality is, realize it was never just a fear, but a burning hatred for humanity, for they are evil and have caused your misery. 664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPiCXmbKKi
However, you are good, and that is why evil hurts you so. You become an advocate for speaking freely on opinions, not just facts. You learn how the human mind works, understand others in a way superior to your peers. Your tongue was cut by monsters, and you hate humanity, not just fear them. Now, a victim recovered, you do all you can to make sure such a thing does not become the living Hell of another.
You hate humanity.
And that is why you feel your help will not truly help.
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