409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3hy7SfGgY
I consider whether I should go there or not. But my mind keeps telling me the last option and I wonder why my subconscious is wrongly refuting me. I pack my things into my luggage and scan the room. As I tilt my head, I see the image of my father carrying me on his shoulders.
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW582Ou4KtL
"Lana," Mom calls me.
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOXF8Ccimko
"I am coming," I reply.
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfB0Dqt6ex
I grab all my things and sigh heavily as I pull the door behind me with a weak movement. I head straight for the foyer, knowing I'll miss this room as soon as I step into it because I know it was a part of my life. I wake up early and get on a bus near my friend's warehouse, which I find hardly classic and nerve-wracking.
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLTSAqLpB39
The tears try to escape, but I stop them by looking up at the ceiling – I know this is hard for me. But I know that not only do I want to do this, but I want to do it for my mother's sake. She says she's doing it all for my own good, but I know it's for her whims, and I have no power to fight it.
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4YGl7RdQOE
"Lana."
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZafNfgqg2W
My feet stomp on the concrete floor in annoyance. Why do I get the feeling she's happy to see me go? Why should she be? Should not she be? Anyway. I take a deep breath, press my feet to the stairs, and see her raise an eyebrow and look at me intently.
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKXoQUjemI
I stop in front of her as my hand grabs the travel bag. She was on the phone to call a cab, I realise. How ironic! She must be sad to see her daughter leave, but it's just the opposite, because she's happy.
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5oUrSnDn3l
"Who was it?" I inquire.
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq5HHTeMHrB
"Taxi, of course. Why do you ask?" she asks.
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHHBnRaXccD
I roll my eyes.
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEe5zG2VlxX
She did not seem like my mother because the way she treated me was pure hell. She was busy with work, like even with family day at school, she did not have time to put in the time I need.
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTB9OSP5vzp
How horrible my life was.
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYeMFjqFsUJ
"Just asking."
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEv6C34Q0HV
"Where are you going?" she asks in horror as I drag myself to the entrance, and if I were myself I would not have to turn around, but I have no power to restrain my subconscious.
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyTQtnCsbCG
"Walk like you mean it."
I never mean to sound rude, but she was pressuring me, and there's nothing wrong with pressuring her. Somehow I just wanted to do it, but my heart suppressed me not to, but here I am, speaking mockingly to my mother.
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tV4Xq8gOK
"Lana, I did not raise you to be a brat." Her voice rises a little angrily, and it pierces my ears and through all the blindness-all the way to the top of my brain. The words engulf and moss all parts of my brain, and I do not know how to erase all the toxins in my balance so she never becomes part of my pain.
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1au37jF0l
I laugh. A literal laugh that almost makes my jaw drop as I burst out laughing. Her jaw clenches and her eyebrows furrow. Who cares, anyway! This is my life. And how dare she tell me she's raising me when she's not here when I need her.
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQ7kcYe8Dy
"You are turning into a psycho, maybe because you hung those idiots!" My left hand clenches into a fist in exasperation as she utters the words. I can not even calm down because my blood is boiling and it lasts longer than a minute or two.
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZO0j0iSck
How dare she lure my friends here. Why can not she just mind her own business? I want to scream at her like she did now, but I can not. I still can not, because she was still my mother, and I still respect her, even if she's not so good for my bank account.
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiz1P8GISpu
"Right, fools. But those fools appreciated my efforts while you embedded your work. It's kind of pathetic, is not it? To have a mother who does not care about her child..." She interrupted me with a slap.
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGuWKQ7dkfa
"How dare you talk to me like that! I am still your mother and I am not doing this for me. I am doing this for your well-being," she hissed.
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7rD6RGiRG8
I clap my hands together sarcastically. "Wow. You are doing this for me? You are not making a comedy joke, are you, Mom?"
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4iZUIBmHo
"Shut up!"
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2azprpRzXU
I half-shrug my shoulders. "Okay, if you want."
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFlxirqBweo
I push my way to the door and leave a distracting noise after I get out. Tears gather and guilt seeps into me and in a split second the liquid runs down my cheeks and I just let it run down. I wipe the liquid away and leave the mansion as I tend to my travel bag, the pain relentlessly pounding at me.
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgBaN3oR21
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVPMaE8pfy
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCiVnefNQVa
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4e9WEOt1eK
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7s8wBcgpnJ
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcuwXhhi2e6
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvz1aImKtea
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYRvWxZ2pV
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZbUCKPHDs
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCMRg3WfDr
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡui3HLxTn5A
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFHtYqamaX
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcrmqPTPfE
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXRWqfv6qr7
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW3WfxNt6HD
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDV7gmPLJQX
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9fmXw1qrR
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwddXlwj4hu
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcEiFRjz9eO
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1nwnTqF1p0
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡclMY4wbEwj
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmRBYtiURNU
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxSMM5NMmA
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCz3sAKSFp
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr0SVGWT4sQ
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgp7NckBTZR
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX55tTZS3vY
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWEmbrKj6mK
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOgZlIJMMX
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS3DrNtGoOL
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkJ7TiIjG2t
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVqR4UzbJLc
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzwKmeVmFS
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZU4uXCLug
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbdhcr42HK
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiVxuIUtlGZ
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLVo4uAj8kM
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFWnlXNTowD
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6pEZqRnt5
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpXRASTOWw
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRfAAKQXjM5
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRt4pH9E6wT
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsMiD2j7pBj
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14wKDGmnMd
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx56DjM0vGs
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg5FckheRHP
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxMq8ehHR57
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhsMcVNzHz
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdFlZ1i4XU
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtkCBjK6B4
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX0U4uO8SGJ
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrqTR9G0z3
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMf81uLXkNA
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxoODKDTPKZ
409Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKR91J4scyp
Fuck this life.
ns52.14.131.93da2
