Monday; the beginning of Valentine's Week at Bloomfield Gymnasium. 493Please respect copyright.PENANALpeus5Tbdv
I had forgotten about that but as soon as Wiley's SUV parked in the school lot, I was reminded of it in every romantic way possible. 493Please respect copyright.PENANAb39C2mMcF0
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I wasn't quite the fan of valentine's day, perhaps because I never had someone romantic to share it with. It wasn't any different for me, I had no one and I was pretty sure I wouldn't be getting any roses or a note.493Please respect copyright.PENANAaZUQuaPf9K
As soon as my feet hit the concrete ground of the parking lot, Stacey and Carissa cornered me by Wiley's car. They were mad -fuming and needed not say why. When Alexa approached me, she greeted both Carissa and Stacey, than turned to me and said:493Please respect copyright.PENANAh2NZCHywQV
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"We got Math together, you coming?"493Please respect copyright.PENANAwFYuPmisFl
I hadn't seen or heard Wiley emerge from his car, he hadn't approached Alexa at all -I only spotted him when a bunch of cheerleaders called his name in harmony. Alexa rolled her eyes and it made me wonder if I had misread the chemistry between them.493Please respect copyright.PENANACLCRZcDUE2
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"I'll see you guys later." I told Carissa and Stacey, even though I knew it was a lie. I gave them no time to invite themselves along and walked away as quick as my feet could reach the distance between Alexa and I.493Please respect copyright.PENANAUGwIZ2KxKu
"You guys going through something?" I asked as soon as we passed my brother and his friends.493Please respect copyright.PENANAAFpEpHp2iu
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Alexa chuckled. "You can't date a friends brother. So, there's nothing for us to go through."493Please respect copyright.PENANAwmMDc649Gg
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Alexa considered me her friend, although Wiley had known her first and I was somewhat happy at the thought that she didn't use me only to get to him. 493Please respect copyright.PENANAd4KEyh1803
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I was flattered, somewhat. "You guys should try, I don't want Wiley to go around the house sour for the rest of his life and I'd hate for me to be the reason for that."493Please respect copyright.PENANAMcIByFkYcO
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"You think he really likes me?" She asked and looked around.493Please respect copyright.PENANAwXwDm5zFRI
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I didn't look, just in case Wiley and she had some kind of romantic stare down.493Please respect copyright.PENANAtJkV0zkVcp
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"Of course he does, if he didn't, he wouldn't have introduced us." 493Please respect copyright.PENANAMhWAE8FRI2
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She smiled and bowed her head, her cheeks a light shade of pink.493Please respect copyright.PENANATEm53dSYaJ
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"So," she suddenly said and my instincts told me something big would follow after -that she knew I was with Graeme on Saturday night, "I heard Jae went missing just around the time you did at the party. Something you want to confess?"493Please respect copyright.PENANAR07wnQr9tc
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It was my turn to heat up and I knew my face was red and she had seen it. Just than, we passed Graeme's pick up and Alexa nodded at him, while he was talking to Joey.493Please respect copyright.PENANA4C4RxNxOgo
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"Jerk." She murmured and it made my heart beat even faster. "Look, I got you girl but I don't think Wiley would mind at all."493Please respect copyright.PENANAwhJc9bJfIp
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"Nothing happened."493Please respect copyright.PENANAUnOBtkZxzp
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"That's what Jae said too...but just know that sneaking around can get you guys into a lot of trouble."493Please respect copyright.PENANAW8xBuN8MZw
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She had spoken to him and he hadn't denied it in the slightest -Jae Starling knew I only spend the morning at his but he didn't rat me out. He too had a secret that he wanted to keep as much as I did mine. The lie -that we were together that night, was something I knew we would talk about and I wished it wasn't soon. I knew I wouldn't be able to resist the feeling he gave that brought all the horror along with it.493Please respect copyright.PENANAug4NCt8Bf3
In Math, Alexa traded places with Jane and since that day, sat next to me. People really talked about us, like we were a couple -the envy of everyone's universe. I was expecting her to discourage me from going to class or anything similar to what Carissa and Stacey had insisted, but she didn't. Every class we had together, resulted in her trading places with whomever sat next to me. We had History together as well, I didn't want Graeme to sit next to anyone else, even though I wasn't sure how I would face him the fifth period. 493Please respect copyright.PENANAXDBrYxZntI
Remember how I told you that one of my simple guidelines was to avoid the cafeteria at all times? Cafeteria's were the root of being embarrassed in any possible way, in order for the whole school to see. It was the territory of popular kids and I bore no good memory of the only time I visited a school cafeteria. Wiley made me scrap that particularity.493Please respect copyright.PENANAKxitMonc0q
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I told him to send Alexa a dozen of roses and a note to ask her to the dance -to my surprise he'd done more. He went all out -publicly for only for her.493Please respect copyright.PENANA6IKlDGs1zh
He made sure I brought her to the cafeteria and gave me direct instructions on what to do and how to go about his plan. A banner hung from one side to the other, specially custom made, it read:493Please respect copyright.PENANAyTE0rwSchh
"One day, we're going to wake up and realize we should have tried."493Please respect copyright.PENANASTup6bOunY
It was something unexpected from my brother, he'd never done so much for a girl before and, I was sure those words wasn't his own. He stood underneath the banner, his face barely recognisable behind a thick bush of red roses and in his hand he held a heart box containing chocolates. He had purchased it all from Cupid's Gift Booth at school. Alexa was astound, she couldn't turn him down when he asked her to the dance -I don't think any girl could have.493Please respect copyright.PENANAMlQaWScIqQ
So strung on the romanticism of my brother, made me want to get to know Graeme better. The only thing that stuck by me was the questions I hadn't mind to ask at all: Why was Graeme considered a big no when clearly he wasn't an outcast or creepy? Why had Alexa so bitterly call him a jerk?493Please respect copyright.PENANAWakKHeB0Dm
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The need for answers was surely overruled by the thought that I had History after lunch and I couldn't wait to be close to Graeme again.493Please respect copyright.PENANAEmjWjAFDsr
Monday, 12th of February 2018; fifth period History class, Bloomfield Gymnasium -the beginning of everything. I walked alongside Alexa who beamed brightly at everyone. She walked to her seat immediately and only than did I become aware that Kath was there too. She remained by Kath's side and I too had taken my seat. I had hoped that Graeme was already seated and was soon met with disappointment. He skipped class -I was positive I had made a fool of myself over the weekend and he did think of me as a loose wannabe.493Please respect copyright.PENANAi9v5KofsSv
I grew miserable once Stacey and Heather Rory and another girl entered the class and Mr. Stewart immediately stopped with his lesson. Heather had snared a vile look at me before she started handing out heart shaped candy, roses and notes to whomever lucky enough to receive them. I concluded that Heather was the source who brought awareness to Alexa about Jae and I being missing from her party at the same. I didn't hold my breath for cards or roses, instead, scattered around my bag for nothing in particular. When I sat upright, I was surprised to a few pink cards and roses on my desk and amongst them only one violet card and one purple rose.493Please respect copyright.PENANA9PIAzqB79A
It was my favourite color and had attracted my sole attention. I knew whomever had purchased it, intended for it to stick out. I was flattered by the gesture that they went through all the trouble to know my favourite colour.493Please respect copyright.PENANAzk4zWbciqT
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I opened it. 493Please respect copyright.PENANA2YTTQsqRFq
"If you knew me, you'd know how hard it is to sit next to you without being unable to touch you. If you knew me you'd know I'm incapable of not breaking your heart. If you knew me, you'd know I'm only saying this because tomorrow isn't promised. If you knew me, you'd know I like you. If you knew me, you would know I would rather die than having you know. If you truly knew me, you'd know kissing you would be last thing I'd want before I left."493Please respect copyright.PENANAEiTnikcjiH
My heart was flattered at the intimacy of the card. Even thought he didn't sign it, I knew it was Graeme Yorkley. He was clearly not a guy for confessing feelings and I imagined he had tried to do so countless times before when he texted and I so coldly ignored. Was it perhaps why he hadn't given up? Was I just a challenge to him? I asked myself.493Please respect copyright.PENANAzsjJgZ7G5w
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I couldn't figure him out; it was absolutely frustrating and I wished he'd just kiss me or something -without anyone knowing of course.493Please respect copyright.PENANASIsB8LVKU0
So, when I got home from school, mom immediately wanted to know how much cards I'd gotten -I deliberately hid away Graeme's. 493Please respect copyright.PENANA0JCzVeE0SP
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I couldn't stop thinking about him, wondering if he intended for me to respond this way. I hated having him on my mind constantly but there was nothing I could do about it, except loose all senses.493Please respect copyright.PENANAdsD8u9gkNP
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"Mom, do you mind if I take your car out? We got a history assignment and my partner got sick so..."493Please respect copyright.PENANAwMfL9Menm1
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"-yes sweetheart. Just be home before your dad gets back from work, okay."493Please respect copyright.PENANAI6anr5jqre
I couldn't believe I lied to my mom just to see Graeme when I had no idea if I'd find him. That afternoon I drove to his brother's cabin, where he'd taken me to get stoned. As I got out, walking up the wooden porch, I could see smoke vaporising from the chimney and The Weekend playing inside. When I took the first step onto the patio, bells rang and the music's volume automatically turned lower. There was no way I could turn around and change my mind, before I knew, Graeme stood in the door. 493Please respect copyright.PENANAwUA40qRjS5
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His face was grim and I had gotten the feeling like I wasn't wanted there.493Please respect copyright.PENANA4sucvG40Cc
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"I'm sorry," I said, "I didn't know why I came."493Please respect copyright.PENANAvgDs0TzebO
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When I turned to head back to my mom's car, he said, "I've been waiting, I thought you wouldn't come."493Please respect copyright.PENANA3cVDhkudVI
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"So this is how you usually get your girls? Give them a card, lure them to your brother's cabin and except what to happen, exactly?"493Please respect copyright.PENANATcXNOKc3TV
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"I've never done this before, like this and I wanted to know what it felt like...with someone I really liked."493Please respect copyright.PENANAjWllgHAsV6
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"I don't put out, Graeme, so of you're looking to get down or whatever, I am not your girl."493Please respect copyright.PENANAPIj1sviOXs
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"And that's what I like most about you. You didn't drive all the way here to go back home. Would you please come inside?"493Please respect copyright.PENANAmO5QvL9w2e
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I knew I hadn't had it in me to go back home while all the feelings inside me told me with Graeme Yorkley was where I really wanted to be. 493Please respect copyright.PENANAORtyp9ABwM
When I entered the cabin the warmth of the chimney welcomed me. The cabin was more charming than I remembered from Saturday -and it was our secret place.493Please respect copyright.PENANANRgUFZ5Qs8
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"About your card..." I started. Than, I felt Graeme's hot breath against my ear and I could tell he'd been smoking again. For a minute, I couldn't breath, I couldn't move -his face muzzled into my hair and I was completely numb.493Please respect copyright.PENANAaoS5HplWv4
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"I'd like to know you...not what you show everyone. I want to see the girl that thinks so much during History. I want to know why your eyes are crying but no tears show. I want to hear everything you didn't get to say on Friday."493Please respect copyright.PENANAuUzUrA3xXm
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I hadn't known that Graeme Yorkley had been so attentive -I didn't know how to feel. All I could think of was the way he'd look at me once he knew everything because sometimes, the mystery is better than reality.493Please respect copyright.PENANAynUtMuW9rz
The image of Jae confessing he knew made my heart beat faster, I couldn't dare to tell Graeme.493Please respect copyright.PENANAzBAqo6XRSs
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"You know I'm not all these girls you got running around for you."493Please respect copyright.PENANAG7dyBPx6a9
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"I don't have girls running around, they do so by themselves."493Please respect copyright.PENANAXRRy5jgQ5H
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"You lured me here."493Please respect copyright.PENANAomiUC78EEh
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"You wanted to come," He said, turning me around, "because you can't deny this feeling. The thought of the two us...together, wrong to everyone who knows us but you don't care. 493Please respect copyright.PENANAc2UQEpOsRS
Nothing matters but us, here, together...learning, teaching each other the wonders of falling in love as everyone has failed to comply with our wants, failed to see behind the walls we would willingly tear down for them. If only they proved to know us...truly know us.493Please respect copyright.PENANAL0ES274r9J
I can't seem to find the flowers inside of you...the little that was left when you got here, they're gone now."493Please respect copyright.PENANA8CMneyuXTD
I wiped a tear from my eyes, I couldn't stand how Graeme Yorkley could figure me out, see through the pain I had confessed to no one. "Sometimes we have to die a little to bring happiness."493Please respect copyright.PENANA3WRFxhpTNw
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"I suppose that's happiness to everyone else around you, hiding your true feelings...like, it doesn't matter."493Please respect copyright.PENANArM8fYeWgJt
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"Because it doesn't..."493Please respect copyright.PENANAJgWavtAEc8
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"-but it does." He said and I could feel him drawing nearer. "You carry around so much and I want to help you through it."493Please respect copyright.PENANAz3j0fDz35s
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"I'm a mess, Graeme, you have no idea how much I am."493Please respect copyright.PENANAqqmHKkIPs4
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"Maybe we're the broken pieces to each other's bandaged lives. Would that be so bad?" He leaned in.493Please respect copyright.PENANA2CZMMfq10H
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"If you knew me...yes."493Please respect copyright.PENANA6C73baF4rn
Graeme Yorkley leaned in, his hot soft lips found mine. I liked it, he made my knees weak as he kissed me. I didn't care for anything but that moment -the future could pass, the world could wither, the sky could fall -as long as I had spend it kissing Graeme Yorkley. I closed my eyes, what a big mistake I had made -Graeme's warmth was gone and my mind took over. 493Please respect copyright.PENANAf0u551kSlO
They kept putting violent kisses on my neck, squeezing my face with their hands until the insides of my cheeks scraped on my teeth. I couldn't scream -I had no voice, no hands, no hope of getting out. Than the words.493Please respect copyright.PENANAhgoRAATd28
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"You'll think of us, every time you get touched...you'll long for a real man."493Please respect copyright.PENANAbSvLDfDFKP
I did think of them, they were always there, constantly reminding me who I'd become -the walking dead. Craving for nothing else but to feel human again, like I had before I had learned to cruelty associated with lust. They were Graeme Yorkley so I couldn't bare to face him any longer and did what I do best -I ran.
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