I let out a soft whimper as I pulled against the handcuffs that were now tightly secured to the bed as Rickey dug his nails into my hips as he finished pouring himself into me as I felt my body squeeze every last drop of him as I rode out my own release. I felt his hot breath tingle the nape of my neck.
"I love that even though I know you can easily break out of these, you choose to let them bind you and just lay there for me" he murmured against me before nipping at my neck.
"Rickey. . ." I whined pushing myself back against him to try to make him thrust deeper into me but he pushed me back down against the bed as I wiggled against his grip.
"Mm no, I didn't say you could move yet did I?" he slapped my ass hard and I wiggled beneath his touch once more.
"No, Sir."
Even though he had finished he was still rock hard and it made me want to continue our moment of clarity for just a little while longer I felt him twitch inside me proving he wasn't really done yet either.
"No one else has had this with you, and I must admit I do get a big ego stroke out of it and a lot of honor"
I felt his hand trail a tingling light touch down between my legs before he pushed two fingers into me and I whimpered again with the stretch I felt to accommodate his fingers, but as quickly as I adjusted they were pulled out.
"I don't think I'll ever get used to this new feeling" I said through shallow breaths as I felt the echoing shivers of pleasure course through me.
His hand moved up to my mouth and gently grabbed at my chin before dipping those same to fingers into my mouth he had just plunged into me and I let out a moan again his fingers. The sweet and tangy taste we made together just moments ago as he now filled my mouth with it's flavor as I sucked on his fingers and tilted my head taking them farther in my mouth.
"Good girl."
He purred in my ear and I fought every urge not to throw my hips back in a cheerful response to his praises. Instead of giving me another reward for good behavior he slipped out of me and the sudden loss of him made my head drop down.
"Mmm I know Kitten, but I'm starved- and as tasty a you were I need some real food too" he chuckled as he reached over undoing the handcuffs.
I turned around and frowned leaning back on my elbows.
After everyone had left and everyone had settled in Rickey and I had come to a mutual understanding that we both needed this time together. Even if we were both a little nervous.
"Don't look at me like that. . . baby I'm not going anywhere" he put his hand under my chin stroking it softly.
"I know. . . that's going to take some getting used to I will admit" I smiled.
He looked around the room for a moment then back at me.
"I uh. . . I should probably move some of my stuff over here huh? Well clothes mostly"
I blinked. I hadn't even thought about it. . . he had been here for over a month straight now, and what about Jeff? I had seen him at the funeral and he didn't even mention Rickey coming back or anything. . . Was Jarred going to move in with him after all this? Would Jeff move in with us?
"Love?" Rickey looked at me as he stood at the door now in a pair of pajama pants only.
"Sorry. . . I was just thinking you were kind of right."
I shook my head and got up and grabbed his shirt from the floor and slipped it on and walked to the dresser pulling out a pair of leggings and put them on quickly.
"You haven't been to the other kitchen have you?" I looked at him when he opened the door and he gave me a puzzled look.
"You're kidding right?"
I blinked shaking my head.
"Two kitchens?" he questioned.
Now that he said it out loud. . .
"It's usually just for the servants and such, but I also have the pin for it" I grinned walking outside of the room and waved my hand for him to follow me down the stairs. We walked down to the second floor and I pressed the buttons on the keypad to the oak french doors and pushed them open.
"Two kitchens. . ." Rickey muttered behind me and I giggled.
"You try fitting this big house in one kitchen"
The upstairs kitchen was quiet small compared to downstairs, but it did have a big white kitchen island and barstool all around it as well as a few smaller tables across the room.
"So why the keypad for this one?" he passed me gently brushing against me as he went to the fridge.
"Alexander said something about security? I don't remember the full reason" I shrugged.
Jason and I didn't eat so we didn't ever really go here, but it was definitely more private then the main floor. Even if Jarred was just a few doors away.
"I'm not going to lie to you. . . it's going to take some more getting used to being in a house- let alone a big one like this compared to my apartment. . ." he gave me a small smile while he grabbed some fruit out.
I sat down on the bar stool beside him as I watched him gathered things.
"You know I could cook for you if you want"
He turned around with a surprised face.
"Don't take this the wrong way- but you can cook?"
I laughed.
"Limited now, I will admit. . . Jarred loves when I make him pancakes with sprinkles so usually that's my go to, but I can do a few other things"
He rolled his eyes.
"Of course he'd put sprinkles in them"
I shrugged.
He popped a piece of watermelon in his mouth then looked at me.
"I love you"
"I love you too, what's got you in such a cheesy mood hmm?" I smiled poking his nose.
He walked over to me and spun me around on the stool and he kept his arms on either side of me as he leaned down looking into my eyes.
"Well. . . it's nice that I guess, I don't know we're trying to make things work? I don't know what the word is that I'm looking for"
"You sure it's not just the sex?" I laughed at him.
He rolled his eyes placing a kiss on my forehead and turned back around grabbing another piece of fruit.
"I mean it does help my mood, you know that"
I put my arms around his waist and carefully slid my hands down to hook my fingers in his pajama pants.
"What are you up to my little minx?" he looked back at me over his shoulder as he took another bite of fruit.
"Nothing" I batted my eyelashes and pushed one of my hands down his pants.
I mean, the chance of anyone coming in here was slim to none, and at least they'd have to put in the code first so it would buy us a quick second even if so.
"Why do I not believe you then, hmm?"
I shrugged before dropping down on my knees in front of him.
"Maybe you should trust me more"
I flashed a grin up at him and I could feel my eyes get heavy with lust as I pulled out his member that was still hard to my surprise and slid my tongue slowly down the tip.
"Oh I trust you" his eyes had shifted to a dark haze and he returned the same wicked grin and he moved his hand to the back of my head pulling my hair back with a slight tight grip.
I let out a small moan as he pulled it tighter as I sank my mouth around his member taking him all the way down my throat. He groaned in response thrusting his hips forward. I swirled my tongue around it as I bobbed my head up and down starting off slow.
"Fuck, babe I really do have to eat though" he chuckled.
I thought he was going to pull me off of him but instead he only gripped my hair tighter as he pushed my head back down his length making me moan again in pleasure around him and he groaned in response. I brought my head up off him slowly teasing him before giving him a little nip and then slid my tongue all the way down his base. He let out a low primal growl of need and pulled me up by my hair and spun me around quickly pinning me to the counter.
"You never let me play" I whined.
"And you only play it slow when you're avoiding things, Love" he commented as he slipped his hand down my pants and slid his finger between the slick lips between my thighs.
I felt myself shiver against him as I resting my back against him with the small amount I could move from his cage-like grip.
"It feels good. . . the distraction from everything, the submission I get with you after a day like today is absolutely beyond therapeutic I will admit" I swallowed as he gently moved his fingers up and down as he pressed against the bundle of nerves more.
"You know you can just use your words to tell me" he whispered against his neck before slowly starting to sink a finger in and I gripped the counter closing my eyes.
Any time he touched me after we bonded it was ten times more intense, and I wish that was an exaggeration, but it drove me insane. The lightest touch could almost bring me to an orgasm. At the very least it clouded my brain feeling his lust and mine combined.
"Please, fuck me" I begged.
Suddenly he froze for a moment. Then withdrew his hand and spun me back around and looked down at me his eyes now shifting to their normal color now.
"Why'd you stop?" I blinked up at him.
"Because this isn't you. . . not completely anyway" he frowned.
"What do you mean by that?" my face twisted in confusion. I wasn't sure if I should be offended by such a comment.
"You always try to talk about things- get me to talk instead you're more focused on my dick- which don't get me wrong I love and adore, but it would be wrong of me to ignore the real problem. I'm sure you feeding off my energy surely isn't helping your lust either" He put his hand on my cheek and caressed it softly with his thumb.
He wasn't really wrong. A part of me felt guilty though, about so many things. One minute the world was perfect and it was like Jason was just off at some meeting. . . A meeting I had no idea when he'd return from. . .
"Luna. . ." he said my name softly.
"I can feel you, please say something. . ." he was begging now and I looked down at his chest.
"One minute, I feel like nothing has changed you know? The next reality hits me and I just- I don't want it" I sighed.
He dropped his hand for a moment and readjusted his pants but quickly brought me into his arms.
"Baby. . . you were with him for over five hundred years, I can't even begin to fathom how difficult all these changes are. . . and you going back to meetings I know helps, but eventually I'll be. . . I'll be there instead and I know that is going to make this so much real for the both of us" he admitted as I wrapped my arms back around him.
"I don't want to replace him Luna, for so many reasons- but for the most selfish one being that I know it'll make this change impossible to push aside" he sighed.
I buried my face in his chest.
"I'm sorry. . ." I murmured softly.
He pulled me away to look at me in the eyes tilting my chin up.
"Don't be. . . I'm not mad at you- and maybe if it were in different circumstances that I were joining the council I might even be thrilled, it's just because of the reasons it's happening. I know I pushed him sometimes, but god I never wanted him dead- I never wanted him out of our lives period- except our sex life maybe" he tried to give me a smile.
I heard the sudden sound of a door unlocking and Rickey and I quickly shifted so we could look at the door. Jarred walked in wearing a black hoodie with the hood still up and a pair of black skinny jeans as he stared down at his phone and tapped away.
"Didn't expect to see you two in here" he grumbled.
I cleared my throat a little shifting myself from Rickey and pushed his bowl of fruit towards him.
He took the hint and started eating his fruit.
"What's up? You needed a snack too?" Rickey tried to start a conversation.
Jarred shrugged tossing his phone onto the island and went to the fridge.
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"Helloooo? Earth to Jarred?" Rickey called to him as he looked down at his fruit bowl rolling his eyes.
"What?" he said in an annoyed tone.
"What's wrong?" Rickey ignored his attitude.
Jarred stopped moving things in the fridge and turned around slowly glaring at Rickey's back.
"Is that really your question?"
"Look- I just mean like do you need to talk?" Rickey sighed.
"Nope, smoked a bit, had sex with Jeff and now I'm fine, did you take all the fruit?" Jarred snapped.
I watched them silently as they bickered to each other for a few moments longer before Jarred's gaze shifted to me.
"Have you felt anything from Zadicus?"
"W- why would you ask me that?" I felt my body tense at the mention of his name.
"Seems like he might be waking up soon. . . thought maybe you might know something about that- didn't want to just knock on your door though either" he shrugged.
"I haven't"
Maybe it was because I was subconsciously blocking him like always. Or maybe I really just couldn't tell when he'd wake up. That also meant I'd have to go and talk to Kaiden again at some point. . . In all honesty however I didn't know what to even say to him. I killed his other half. Not only that, but it was a half that Jason, my own other half was trying to protect and save. . . Little did I know, and that was one of the bigger slaps in the face about this situation.
"Jarred can I ask you something?" Rickey broke our silence.
"Sure" he sat down on a barstool across from Rickey with a bowl of cereal.
"How bad do you think it's going to be when you and I both join officially?"
Jarred shook his head.
"It's just you bud, once you're sworn in my duty is done- but it'll be fine, besides Luna can physically control everyone if needed be so I wouldn't worry-"
"I'm not worried about someone trying to kill me" Rickey cut him off.
"Oh you mean just the normal things of people whining and the press and what not?"
Rickey nodded and Jarred shrugged taking a spoonful.
"Fuck em'."
I rolled my eyes.
"What? Don't roll your eyes at me, I'm working my fucking ass off and the last thing any of us should worry about is their stupid opinion"
I mean he wasn't wrong. Maybe he just needed a break. . . I didn't even know how much stress he other job was letting alone piling all the things that were going on with Jason's death. Then the icing on the cake was dealing with that death.
"Maybe you should take a day off. . . spend time with Jeff, I can run the meeting" I offered.
He shook his head.
"It's fine. . . I'm with Jeff- well he's back in my room right now, sorry Rickey for stealing your brother from you during all this, but you can always just come to my room or whatever he's not a damn prisoner"
Jarred shifted his gaze to Rickey.
Jarred looked a lot more comfortable compared to his normal nice dress clothes, but you can see in his eyes and his posture something was off.
"I know, he texted me" Rickey gathered his plate and put it in the dishwasher.
Part of me wondered if Jarred was thinking the same thing I was about them moving in. . . It wasn't exactly the most comfortable of conversations due to their reasonings, but we had to eventually.
"Jarred. . . Can I. . . ask you something personal?" my words came out kind of quiet and hesitant as I watched him move his gaze back to me before nodding.
"When you lost Vera. . . and you, started to let people in again. . . do you think you would have done it all the same if we lived back home?"
I knew she was beyond a sore subject. Whether he wanted to admit it or not. The sudden pause in his eating and movements showed me that hadn't changed at all. She was his first love after all, let alone the traumatic experience he had with her.
"Is this about the you two sleeping in Rickey's room?"
I slowly nodded.
He let out a sigh.
"Luna. . . I can't tell you for certain- in terms of at least time or whatever you know what I went through, but I know Jason wouldn't have expected you to never go back into that room. . . he wouldn't expect you two to not want to sleep in there, fuck; whatever"
His words seemed a little harsh as he spoke, but his face had softened then he looked over to Rickey.
"What do you want?"
"I want her happy, of course- I just hope she's not avoiding the truth by not being in there" he admitted.
I swallowed.
Rickey and I never had gotten that deep into such a topic usually because of how I would brush it off like it didn't matter. Jarred moved his eyes back to me.
"This true?"
"I don't know- we had rules-"
"He's dead Luna."
His words cut me off and they sunk in with a sting.
"Take it from someone who tortured themselves for years before accepting that. They're dead, but they wouldn't want us to suffer or make our lives miserable"
He reminded me his tone shifting to try to be more soothing, but I knew this conversation wasn't going to be easy, no matter what tone he tried to use. Part of me wasn't really ready to hear the information he had to offer.
Rickey looked at me silently as he bit his lip a little as he seemed to think. His eyes looked at me with worry as he watched my face for any sign.
"I know that he's been gone for a while now. . . but I only just woke up, it's got my thoughts all conflicted" I admitted shifting my gaze to the hands that were laying in front of me.
"Luna I don't think anyone in the world, would judge you for being upset by this- I was shocked you managed not to cry all day in front of people. . ." Jarred said softly as he reached for my hands, but I kept my head down.
"I have a role to play Jarred, and I can't show weakness right now- not ever in fact" I swallowed finally looking up at him.
"Okay fine. . . I won't argue with you on that, Rickey I'll have Seth get your things- make a list" Jarred let go of my hands and went back to eating his food.
"I can get my own things" Rickey grumbled in response.
"I wouldn't, the press is itching for as much information as they can get about finding that rotting piece of merda downstairs" Jarred spat his last words out with such venom I could tell he was still just as angry.
"How come my brother gets to leave then?" Rickey huffed.
"Your brother doesn't know a damn thing about any of this- I will admit mostly my own doing, but more so because he's not the one in line for the throne- trust me Seth has already been harassed, though I think we both know the real reason for that"
I looked at Jarred with a big look of confusion on my face I'm sure. I kept hearing this Seth be mentioned, but I never met him. . . Clearly they were close though given they were now being bothered for information.
"He's next to Rickey in terms of working for me."
Jarred simply responded after I kept eyeing him for a while. His answered seemed rather short though. Which I found rather odd to his normal long explanations. Though I knew he preferred to keep that part of his life more to himself still seemed odd. I could feel the tension radiating off of him and I rolled my shoulders trying to shake it off. Something was bothering him- or it was just the same stress we were all feeling today.
Jarred groaned in annoyance as his phone started ringing.
"What?" he snapped as he answered, getting up and taking his bowl of cereal with him.
"I don't give a fuck, do what needs done we have the bodies, use them" he sounded more angry this time, but he was out the door before anything else could be heard.
"He's in a peachy mood. . ." Rickey mumbled.
"Can't say I blame him though" he quickly added.
"So. . . what are we doing tonight you think?. . ." I asked looking over at him.
"What do you wanna do, love?"
"Can we try sleeping in there tonight?" I bit my bottom lip.
He nodded.
"I think we can agree though, just sleep for tonight yeah? baby steps?" he gave me a small smile.
"You think it'll be okay?" I was in a way shocked by his response. Though I understood his line he wanted to draw for the time being.
"Luna, it's not like his ghost is haunting it, but yes I am hopeful we will eventually have it be a room for all of us" he quickly flashed to behind me and lifted me off the stool scooping me up into his arms.
I smiled up at him as he walked us out of the kitchen and back to my room.
"Do you uh, want me in the bed too or?" he shut the door behind him and looked down at me still carrying me in his arms then over to the bed.
"Whatever makes you feel most comfortable doing"
He walked over to the bed and laid me down carefully.
"This is going to sound really cheesy and sappy, but honestly ever since we did that bond everything just feel so perfect and calming with you- especially when we're touching even just like this" he reached down stroking my cheek and I closed my eyes pressing my face against his hand as I felt it warm my cheek.
"I know what you mean. . ." I said softly my eyes fluttering back open to look up at him.
"Umm. . . what side did Jason sleep on?"
"The side closest to the door, so the left- you know the gentleman way" I let out a small laugh remembering him always complaining when we would travel and I'd try to switch places.
"What's so funny?" he looked at me confused as he got into the bed on the right side of me.
"Nothing I was just remembering something, you can sleep on that side if you want- I mean you usually do the-"
"I like it this way, it's kind of like he's there in a way you know? The bed is big enough, speaking of remembering things. . . I remember when the three of us slept in my room that night, we hardly were able to fit, honestly I'm sure he was hanging off the side a bit" he laughed.
"What were you thinking about?" he changed the subject.
"I uh, when we would travel, he always insisted especially then to sleep closest to the door- even though there were always guards he always wanted to be another wall of protection for me, I used to try to sleep on the other side anyway though" I smiled looking up at he ceiling and pulled the covers over me.
"Why doesn't that surprise me?" he chuckled and shifted pulling up the covers.
"Jesus, why are these sheets so slippery?" he looked at them confused.
I giggled.
"They're silk silly"
He looked at me with a raised brow, but then shook his head.
"What? they're comfortable, do you not like them?"
He pulled me against him tucking my head underneath his chin and I found myself smiling against his chest.
"Mmm, no I do- I just, I'm not used to things like this I guess?"
"I get it, thank you for tonight by the way"
"What do you mean, love? Oh you mean for distracting you for those few hours?" he chuckled.
"Mhm" I rubbed my face in his chest breathing in his warm scent.
"You really are the cutest thing sometimes" he kissed the top of my head.
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"So we get to go on a full manhunt now?" Eric's voice almost sounded too excited at the thought of finding Zadicus.
"Capture him yes. . . on your ends, but no one is allowed to give that final blow" Jarred clarified.
The meeting started with the obvious question of what were we going to do when we found Zadicus. It seemed so far that no one at least in our inner circle doubted that he was in hiding, which was a huge advantage.
"Cassie and I will cover Europe- keep an eye on his normal spots there when we return after this week" Eric offered.
"Good, Sierra I want you to go with them and help them with whatever they need"
Her eyes widened and she looked over at Jarred almost for a reason she should stay.
"You know French and some German so I agree I think you'd be good for the job."
His response seemed to be directed to her obvious discomfort and she nodded her head.
"Security will be on a very high alert for Rickey's ceremony, but I do urge you all to watch carefully to those around you" I reminded everyone as I shifted through more of my notes.
"Alexander we still haven't heard any threats to the event correct?" I shifted my gaze over to him at the other side of the table.
"Not as of right now my Queen, rumor has it he's hiding for good now that he has fulfilled his part"
Times like this I wanted to just grin with the feeling that I had won finally, but no one else could know that. . . not yet.
"Is that so? Well I wouldn't complain if that were the case, but I don't trust it. . ." I admitted.
"I have a handful of our best people watching things back home while we conduct our business here- but rest assured when I return I will continue the search- I will admit I figured he would contact us first" Giovani spoke up clearing his throat.
"I don't think he'd risk bringing trouble back there. . . he knows it wouldn't make him better in my eyes it would only make things worse, though I do apologize that the arrangement seemed to not have worked out quite as I imagined. . ." I looked over at Giovani.
"If I must come home then so be it, but we will figure all things out rest assured."
Jarred added with confidence.
Giovani nodded.
"You all are free to go, we will see you at the ceremony."
I cleared my throat.
Everyone bowed their heads and started filing out but suddenly Sierra stopped and turned around.
"Is there any way I can stay?" she looked at Jarred with saddened eyes as she clutched her bag.
At this point, the less people we knew being around the better. It just happened to pan out she had some other skills for such a task.
"Sierra it wasn't a choice."
He responded calmly as he crossed his arms. She bit her lip looking at him for another moment before speaking.
"I understand but what if-"
"Sierra, there is nothing you can offer me to change my mind."
His words came out harsher this time and I could feel him losing his patience. I could easily end this myself, but I could tell there was a more personal side of this, though maybe not appropriate we were alone so there wasn't much to fuss over.
"What about Jeffrey?" she shook her head.
"So I move in with him, or he moves in with me until you come back or whatever. That's a personal issue figure it out Sierra."
He snapped.
"Bu-"
"I don't care that we have a so called past Sierra, you were a fuck and that was it and I have made that very fucking clear, and you bringing that into this room is not in any way acceptable so you can leave now or I can make things much worse."
The venom in his words were harsh and I raised my eyebrow at him as he spoke. I glanced back over to her and her eyes quickly sank into darkness as her jaw clenched before she marched out of the room.
"Puttana psicopatica. . ." he huffed.
(Psycho bitch)
"Jarred!" I slapped his arm and scolded him.
"She is! I'm sorry, but it is true- and you know I was right with what I said she was out of line"
I shook my head.
"I won't disagree with you there, but that last comment was just rude." I pointed out.
"Are we really going to go home?" Joshua asked stepping up from out of the corner of the room unfolding his arms.
"Perhaps. . . though I would hate leaving Luna behind so I am hoping we find another solution- I want us all to be together, however while we continue this act we need to be separate at times. . ." Jarred looked over at me for a moment then back at Joshua.
"How long is Erin staying?" Joshua looked over to me.
"I'm not too sure, I haven't talked to her since that moment at the funeral"
"She's at a hotel in town- she said something about it being new so she wanted to use her stay before coming to the house" Alexander commented.
"Always such an adventurous one" Joshua chuckled.
It was nice to have someone around like Erin. In many ways I suppose she was like a mother or an aunt to me when I needed it most. . . When she had done her job to help prep me for my new life I had requested Alexander to let her go and live her life. As sad as I was to see her go, back in those times I was terrified to have anyone be close to me.
"Jarred and I are heading out tonight- we'll stop by and see if she needs anything" Joshua offered.
"I would appreciate that, thank you" I smiled.
"You've done a really good job Jarred- I really mean that, if you want to continue to-"
"Oh no" Jarred cut off Alexander quickly.
"I don't mind sitting in and- and helping out and all, but really I do think Rickey has this- besides as much as I enjoy juggling jobs I think it's best if I allow things to stay as they were intended" Jarred continued.
"Well, I agree with Alexander, if you want an amendment in the future all you have to do is ask." I shrugged.
"So onto more casual business- what are you doing tonight?" I changed the subject.
"Jeff's leaving tonight to go help Sierra, so I'll just be hanging out in my room" he shrugged.
"Then I guess we shall all see each other tomorrow for the ceremony" I took one last big gulp of the remaining blood in my glass and headed for the door.
"Luna. . . is that, is that Jason's?"
I stopped in my tracks and swallowed.
I had hoped no one would ask about it. I had a very limited amount of his blood. It could last for months in the fridge though, and as fucked up as it may have sounded it was one of the rare things that could give me some comfort through everything.
"Jarred. . ." Joshua whispered quietly.
"Luna." Jarred said again.
I turned around and looked at him.
"I don't see why it matters, what am I supposed to do? Pour it down a drain? You make it sound weird and unsettling okay, I just- it brings me some closure and comfort" I tried to shake off the uncomfortable feeling that started to grow.
Even Rickey knew, but he didn't say anything- maybe because to him it gave him some comfort too. I had always drank Jason's blood so I'm sure when I had switched my scent, or something about me would surely changed just as it did when Jason and I had changed our diet.
"I'm not judging Luna- just checking my own sanity" Jarred chuckled and suddenly I felt a wave of relaxation wash over me.
"Sorry- sometimes you know gets a little hazy up there" he gave me a small smile.
"No it's uh- it's fine" I turned back around and headed out the door.
Talk about awkward.
I thought to myself as I shook my head walking up to my room.
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