剛洗完澡，電鈴就響了。有人今天沒帶鑰匙？390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ02nd9PhMyE
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我開門，花豹站在外頭。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxMscF8zU4s
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我先是一愣，趕忙開門讓牠進來，進到我擁擠的小房間。花豹沒有坐下，牠開口：「我拿這個來跟妳交換。」邊遞出了一個緞帶綁的蝴蝶結，我接過來，滿臉疑惑。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH111z0Rhbc
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「我要妳幫我保管的東西。」牠提醒。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphggQQUcST
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「啊！喔…好，等我一下。」我翻找自己放飾品的小盒子，拿出牠的領結。自然又順手的就幫牠繫上，調整好位置。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0ASWzuq3s
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牠盯著我，幾秒後，牠垂下頭，摸了自己的領結…然後是好長一陣沉默。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6dSZlF2y1j
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這個動作……390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6fzjFw13O
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我瞬間明白了牠來找我的原因。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztQwCjh4zb
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等牠抬起頭時，我忍不住擁抱了牠。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfe1Dr7aSdZ
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQLrYS18sP
然後牠說「妳記得『哀悼的原因』嗎？」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIG2opbrZEm
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVX0ver2T2x
「我記得。逝去的不會重生，所以哀悼是為了…感謝他們曾經出現…」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQezLZwOxxE
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwdqJoA4Adn
花豹對我微笑。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfkHO7EFfsk
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然後牠在我旁邊坐下，和我說了那條緞帶蝴蝶結的來由。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhip0ma5Ra
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「幾個月前我不想再繼續哀悼了，就去做別的事。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡunFum42cYu
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWfPISxSrI
「『哀悼』如果是一份工作，那『慶祝』就是另一份工作。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJbRMjITPoG
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBP3lz5F9ZR
「這條緞帶，就是『慶祝』時必須用到的。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJmOHTE6hi
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「『慶祝』的內容是什麼呢？」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4pVlJgEx8T
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZECIhSprLu
「哀悼為失去，慶祝則是為收穫。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgtGNmxy4gn
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyVIjl4gmrS
牠說牠為懷孕的母親慶祝、為考滿分的孩子慶祝、為成為新嫁娘的女孩慶祝、甚至只是幫一隻餓壞的流浪貓得到晚餐而慶祝。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgf5UvkPVpo
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「然而，不是每種收穫都值得慶祝。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAaIp9hX9bS
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZkDOaiTAY
牠為分到遺產的人慶祝、為詐騙集團得手而慶祝、為走紅卻變壞的藝人慶祝、為一個吵鬧不休而得到玩具的孩子慶祝…390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOCCQYSUMWY
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「『慶祝』根本不管收穫的原因、得到的是好是壞…『慶祝』只為了當下的『得到』與『擁有』。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOB3KqIf09F
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「有時候我才剛慶祝完，就看見負責『哀悼』的在外頭等了…」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNq2RdIEjKL
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我聽牠說完，點點頭，手中捏著那個蝴蝶結。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ37neXFdDEd
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl9MfqZUuJh
「所以，我也許不適合『慶祝』。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX68sgB8AvT
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「那你為什麼要把這個給我呢？只是為了換回你的領結嗎？」我問。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1HQ06f04bb
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花豹搖搖頭。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIU0g4OCMk0
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「我拿回領結，重回我負責『哀悼』的身分，回來第一個哀悼的對象，就是妳…」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQbdRiNHGL
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「但是，妳應該收下這份『慶祝』。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3zPL9UoGt
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「妳得到了些什麼，對吧。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzU83tyAahA
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……我點頭。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJc0rPI6PC
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前幾天，一個重要的傢伙過世了。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcvBY1YfRAj
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我在失去的同時，得到了……390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFEaPFK4Bt
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我想，花豹想說的是，390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXSHtcHcdeM
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有時候，不是「得到」或「擁有」，只是「學會」罷了。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjJtktJBGHm
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT9oJm0lraK
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難怪我們常常覺得快樂很假、難過很真，因為慶祝不分快樂的來源，只為了當下的快樂，而哀悼卻不是為了當下的難過。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5hRNOexzV
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390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2V4OekMWk
「逝去的，就不會再重生，唯一能做的就是哀悼，感謝他們曾經出現。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjLBA0puOag
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcpZvsol8rG
花豹走後，這句話還在我腦海裡繞。
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