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記得曾看過一部訪問紀錄片裡這樣說。58Please respect copyright.PENANAT0bfqF9O8V
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『幸福美滿的家庭是什麼模樣?』58Please respect copyright.PENANAaj4xe92JQP
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主持人端坐在與攝影機同側的沙發開口問道,58Please respect copyright.PENANA7cEW2310of
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『我想可能是在一場美滿婚禮之後,跟自己愛的人共度餘生……就像誓約裡說的那樣吧?無論貧窮富貴、生老病死,都陪伴在彼此身邊——』58Please respect copyright.PENANAnywGA0rNrk
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一名約高中年紀的女生在鏡頭前如是說。58Please respect copyright.PENANAAyULmBVoRT
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『嗯……希望有個愛自己的丈夫、好相處的婆家……可以的話,未來不一定非要有孩子……雖然身邊不少人說小孩能為生活增添趣味跟快樂,但先決條件是結婚雙方的經濟狀況承擔得起、還有身為女性的自己想要生.…我希望保留選擇權;有機會不被家庭綁住所有未來與事業可能……』58Please respect copyright.PENANAD1XO5fo243
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一名剛訂下婚約的女性在鏡頭前如是說。58Please respect copyright.PENANAxYFwxQYH9d
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『……前面的人這麼說嗎?啊……年紀比較小,這樣啊……那怪不得了。』58Please respect copyright.PENANAYDD79PkxnE
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第三名受訪者結婚剛滿八年,採訪當天正好是他們的結婚紀念日。58Please respect copyright.PENANAau6tLKfLnS
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『沒關係嗎?』插播的採訪前花絮裡,拍攝的工作人員詢問道,畢竟採訪在大多數情況下,本就是配合受訪者時程為主。58Please respect copyright.PENANAX0fMvJFXtG
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『嗯,不用在意……反正他不會記得,我也懶得每年像討債似的逼他想起來。每個人在意的事物不同嘛,我很能這麼說服自己。』58Please respect copyright.PENANAVC4xKwKkZm
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她笑得漂亮溫和,畫面再次切到了正式的採訪畫面,同樣問題再次重複提出……宛如一捲毛線,交由每人手上自由編織,結果自負。58Please respect copyright.PENANAY00piH3WZp
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『我認為這個問題的答案跟人數無關,哪怕只有一個人……能有著自己心目中理想的生活,就能稱作幸福的家庭。』58Please respect copyright.PENANAA5eUVJ0aFo
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『那能請問妳理想的生活是什麼樣嗎?』58Please respect copyright.PENANA1I1lbCFKTa
『不記得了。』58Please respect copyright.PENANAKZphyUSuyO
『不記得?』58Please respect copyright.PENANAx8FUrjIJqd
『是啊。』58Please respect copyright.PENANAUAPy6Fxrje
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對話至此,她再次勾起了同樣的笑容。58Please respect copyright.PENANAlCPwdwxnn4
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『就是因為忘了,所以才無法幸福啊。』58Please respect copyright.PENANA4RYNAnapIX
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那再之後呢?該如何續寫?58Please respect copyright.PENANAh4rwDO0BqE
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對我們這些讀者而言茶餘飯後;卻是一個人近乎耗費大半人生的故事。58Please respect copyright.PENANAK0bgo3zHtE
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約定代表什麼?58Please respect copyright.PENANA9SSM9lXenb
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是拚圖缺失的一塊;是撕毀照片的一隅;是畫作的最後一筆;是長篇小說結尾的標點……而你親手將這些交付到了另一個人手上,將一切成敗取決於對方是否會將其歸還、把它填補。58Please respect copyright.PENANAQPMmowNiM5
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「對不起。」線上放榜的當天,我們約好了晚間六點在高中校門口碰面,作為一個完美結束與全新開始……卻以他的這句話作為了開場。58Please respect copyright.PENANA5KNw5BZIrK
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「……?不是,道歉是什麼意思?」雖然一時有不好的猜測閃過腦海,但就如某種保護機制被大腦自動屏蔽了。58Please respect copyright.PENANAnbPrp3hfU8
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「還能有什麼意思?」身為拋出震撼彈的當事人,林道潤倒是顯得若無其事,甚至像困惑我的問題般反皺起眉心。「我沒考上韓國大學,就這樣。」58Please respect copyright.PENANA1BwiQyAGjy
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就這樣?58Please respect copyright.PENANA65R8FafKON
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那時的心情到如今依然記憶猶新,但仍複雜到此刻的自己也無法清楚解讀。58Please respect copyright.PENANA5XzG3zlQQw
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是對約定的藍圖被一筆劃過的錯愕;還是對於被眼前人不重視的滋味……又或擅自作為目標的未來憧憬剎那變樣的無法接受?可能第四個答案以上皆是吧。58Please respect copyright.PENANAcbpHSYWQph
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「……所以,你是要分手嗎?」問出口了,平淡的感情恰逢此刻語氣卻比我預想還要顫抖。58Please respect copyright.PENANA0hZnonZaZf
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「我沒這麼說。」58Please respect copyright.PENANA7XhGueGzKt
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「不然你要表達什麼?」下意識咄咄逼人的字句緊貼在對方語尾,我不想損失形象地保持平時說話的音量。「就算沒考上,你還是要跟我一起去韓國嗎?」58Please respect copyright.PENANArPxMY0hFPs
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其實的確,還有很多方法能待在一起——我暗自希望他能從中選出一個作為回答。58Please respect copyright.PENANATAZfckgx0S
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「不,我打算留在臺灣唸完大學。」58Please respect copyright.PENANARji2jPcilW
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但他沒有,總是沒有。每次有關我提出任何問題的答案,他總有預想、總有他的一套說法,試圖與我背道而馳,就連共同面對討論的時刻也不例外。58Please respect copyright.PENANAQ790M2heay
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「就算那樣,我還是會一個人去韓國。你應該很清楚沒考上是你的問題,我沒必要為了你放棄自己的大好未來。」58Please respect copyright.PENANALuQ6KQ04Sh
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不想這麼說的。但不倔強一回彷彿對不起自己高中那段時光的在意一樣,哪怕在未來是沒有意義的後悔。58Please respect copyright.PENANAb1yAL0bE34
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「我知道。」他抬手輕抓了抓自己後頸,似乎和我解釋是一種無奈跟麻煩。「我也沒有要妳留下的意思,可以遠距離聯絡,但分手也是一個選擇……」58Please respect copyright.PENANAd7PMocCQyn
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「那就分手吧。」58Please respect copyright.PENANABK6i6V14Jo
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扔下一句口是心非,我緊抓背包肩帶便頭也不回地轉身離開,無論回家抑或前往未來的腳步都沒有猶豫地踩踏著遠離。58Please respect copyright.PENANA7U75y2Y82x
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他當時並沒有追上來。58Please respect copyright.PENANAh3mc5ugUSY
我以為在未來也該是一樣的。
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TBC.