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一輩子抑鬱

唐平 唐平
Jul 22, 2022 248 2 Mins Read
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No Plagiarism!MkARKZm61zES7npHSBsyposted on PＥNAＮＡ

《一輩子抑鬱》

我有一個好多人都知嘅小秘密，

就係我有抑鬱，而且都幾嚴重，

所以朋友成日都好擔心我傷害自己會出事。

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但如果佢哋知道我嘅大秘密，佢哋可以一定放心：

我係實驗體018號﹐係史上唯一一個擁有不死身嘅人。

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你話，我可以有咩事？

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我試過用刀大力切開自己嘅手腕，

但係血都未流，傷口就已經埋咗口。

252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM3TIxaBc4Q

我試過用成樽水啪咗一樽安眠藥，

結果係尿屙多咗幾篤，連眼瞓嘅感覺都冇。

252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡClsNXYmQRs

我試過買咗一個爐燒碳，

點知聞聞下覺得幾香，仲加多咗幾包當香薰。

252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQSFk17KQD

一直以嚟，我都好羨慕啲人可以自殺，

起碼佢哋仲有得選擇。

252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQmLokKnXio

而我，只可以一直痛苦咁生活落去。

－

然後某日，喺討論區遇到一個有自殺傾向嘅人傾偈。

252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGQb2PS3AR

雖然佢覺得我痴咗線唔信我有不死身，

但佢都好認真咁分析講一大段說詬，去講其實有不死身仲好。

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「你話自殺嘅人有得選擇去死，呢樣嘢冇錯。」

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「但你明唔明，其實自殺一定係一個人嘅Last Choice。」

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「每個人嘅初衷都係喺世界上開心地生活落去，我哋嘅First Choice一定係開心咁生存。」

252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtxzcU3HJbZ

「但就係我哋生活得好唔開心冇得揀開心生活，所以先有人選擇死呢個Last Choice。」

252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9q49u1bmj3

「而你冇咗死呢個Last Choice，你就得返開心生存呢個First Choice，又或者其他努力生存嘅Choice，雖然你未做到，但你會努力去做。」

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「有目標有動力去令自己開心生存，點聽，都好似好過我呢個人，得返死呢個志向。」

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「你話有得揀死好幸福？我寧願好似你咁，有誘因去尋找快樂。」

－

一百年後嘅今日，抑鬱間中都會出嚟攻擊我。

252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvoF1AwhdTy

但當主動尋找快樂，仍然都畀到我感受到人生意義。

252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlA9PbV6Nol

而呢一百年嘅經歷話畀我知，

就算我唔係不死身，

我應該都會選擇去盡力Achieve我嘅First Choice，

252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEOenBdtxIo

尤其係我發現，

其實死，唔係我必然志向。

-

IG: @tong_ping_ 

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Table of Contents
#0 Intro
#1 愛你，呈陽性
#2 報應
#3 賤人
#4 Mr Wrong
#5 時光倒流一句話
#6 做人好難
#7 天賦
#8 放棄成本
#9 每個人都會有逃避嘅時候
#10 成熟
#11 請不要道歉
#12 我同佢做嘅嘢同情侶冇分別
#13 躁攰
#14 靈魂做愛
#15 睇人
#16 一輩子抑鬱
#17 愛的天賦
#18 敏感配搭玻璃心
#19 自High式浪漫
#20 暗戀那回事
#21 唔想同你嘈
#22 需要被Blame的Victim
#23 真愛
#24 廢村
#25 未Ready
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