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資料一:

文體:記述抒情文 (考試作文慣例,朋友的名字用一心替代)

桎梏的羽翼,洇鮮血淋漓。

我有一位朋友,從孩提時期,也許生活給她的是痛楚與恐懼的雙重煎熬。我們常聊電話,一心向來拿着神秘大佬的劇本,例如會多國語

言,強大的自學能力;或故鄉是軍閥世家,學習跆拳道等。有天她饒有興致與我聊起黑客打

術,我對電腦、程式什麼的一竅不通,捺不住她喋喋不休地聊。一心提起在她六七歲時,如嘗試過拿家中的舊電腦,說是弄追蹤程式。一

開始我不以為意,畢竟一心在多個範疇亦展現出天賦。少傾,一心翻出那部塵封多年的舊電

腦,一番操作後居然弄開機了,開機記錄定格在十二年前。一心只是平淡地隨口一提,六七歲的她弄追蹤程式,是為了追蹤她爸爸的手提

電話,知道他的定位,但技術上差了一點,此事便無疾而終。我一直知道一心是單親家庭,曾經歷家庭暴力,便瞬間明白小一心的目的了。

步入少年時期的她,飽受焦慮和抑鬱的煎熬。

用她的理解,既停濟過往的傷痛,亦憂將來的未知。倒是沒能活在當下。有次我去她家休

歇,她翻鑰匙開鐵閘時,提起往事。初中時她

還是不敢自己一個人放學回學,她每當聽到鑰匙開動的聲音,腦海中回放的是父親晚上回家的開門聲,把她的母親推倒的前敍。後來因她的媽媽工作需要,實在不能陪伴她放學,才过於克克服此事。

一心對婚姻一詞不信任和抵觸,或許是父母的婚姻,以及生長的家庭的分崩離析;以前甚至

避卻與男同學交談,近些日子才接觸同學朋友間的社交。有的時候,我覺得人是沒法抹掉生長的痕跡的,甚是絕望。

不過一路種種苦楚倒沒有把一心撞個面目全

非,現在的她正翱翔於天呢。

前些天上一心家,她的媽媽最近迷上了種植小盆栽。一心房間窗邊的床頭櫃,擺放著一枺向陽花,現在長勢正好。盛夏斑駁陸離,殘陽穿透進房間,夏花正向陽而生。

我從人間走過。以前看過這樣子的影片,每個人都可以有階段性的死亡,向以前的自己道

別。這就是一心燦如夏花的死亡,扉頁的第一章。

資料二:【【原创】冥冥【淮上《破云2·吞海》原创同人曲】-哔哩哔哩】 https://b23.tv/iivWCxl

資料三:

An unworthy eassy

Am I trembling?

When others suffocate me,I am no longer alive.I am weak and worried.I suffered from severe unease and frustrated.The future pillars of Hong Kong,which write terrific English lyrics,can voice up their thoughts with courage and wisdom.I admire them from the bottom of my heart.Yet,I am as temperate as a sheep.I will be killed without refuse.

Is stay alive a pleasure or a penalty?

I believe that human are unique and complicated as well.For instance,their persuit,their aspiration,their personality,their thoughts.Human,one of the living things,are alive with a life.If we should obey the rules of nature,staying alive is a pleasure.

Am I a dumb?

I use the word tragic to describe my English Language.I feel nervous wheneven I speak English.I have no interest in native drama or novels either.Boosting up my English likely be the root of being anxious.I has heard an idiom since I was a child.Every roads leads to Rome.I shall find an outlet with faith.

Is the world peculiar?

My vocabulary is limited.In order to boost up my English,I started to listen the English songs which is produced by locals or related to my homeland.I listen to the anthem.For instance,I listen to Glory be to thee, Speechless,Do you hear the people sing,defying darkness.It is a peculiar circumstance.While the protesters,their blood rage afield.Maybe we are living in fantasy,”wonderland”or “cocoon”.Back to the reality,I am just hidding beneath the blanket.I had fallen into the abyss.

Am I getting lost?

I am not sure actually. Including the textbook,the cirumstance leads us to be seen and not heard.In order to stay alive as well as chase the glory.Personality,I would nither defy nor obey.Yet,it does not equal to just sit on the sideline.I am waiting.

資料四:

Hi Daisy,

Thank you for your letter.How are you recently?


I wish I could back to delighted life as normal adolescents.Nevertheless,this seems to be a castle in the air.I lost my wings.Despite that I may tear and escape out of the cage in bygone days.I could never soar evermore.


My life is tragic as I written.Owing to the suffocated circumstance,I believe that my birth was just a massive blunder.


I am a nightingale.Although Nightingale is just a tiny creature,it likely to be fearless,undefeated and unstoppable.However,human shoot at me.I was overwhelmed with blood. Obviously,my faith is unworthy.My wings were tear into pieces.I wish my blood could immerse the land.Despite that dream would never comes alive.


I am a daydreamer.My body is fading.There shall be a hot debate between being killed from hunger or being killed from sleeping pills.Certainly,it is just an unworthy research. 


Maybe I should conclude something.Being the case,I am a rubbish.I am a speechless creature as well as a disability person.At the moment,I have a clear self recognition.I live in abyss.


No matter how the world is going on,I had been killed.I lack motivation to take a shot once more.I am just lying on abyss.I am look forwards to shut myself down.


I wish I could soar.Yet,it is anything but an unreachable wishes to me.


I am fine.I have no interest to commit suiciude.Moreover,I am just a dust.I am not going to persuade others.Turning dust to gold would not happen.


Although human would not extinct at the moment,I can still hear your echo.                       

Best wishes,

Chris


希望這次能釋除你們的疑慮,以及我的困難求助。

1、資料一是我參加網絡寫作挑戰「請給我燦如夏花的死亡」

文中的一心是我現實中的朋友。因為題目要求描述死亡,我本打算取三個時序,以死亡為結尾。我認為三件事件(真實發生)挺有關聯性,巧妙。但後來突然想起阿姨(朋友的媽媽)可能會看到這文章,雖然機率不大。最後加了一段自圓其說,既沒寫到死亡,又能扣題。

我在想梁先生可能因為覺得我黑心才欺負我,我很難過。希望能釋除你的疑慮,並公開致歉。


2、資料一亦可見我的中文挺好的。因為我這個人沒有什麼興趣愛好,只喜歡看BL小說、廣播劇、同人曲。我在學校聽B L同人曲時,梁先生跟我說(我當時在聽資料二的同人曲,是我很喜歡的歌之一)這些是與學習無關,我沒有反駁,只是安靜地離開,但他一直咄咄逼人,希望梁先生能公開致歉。他認為只有聽英文歌才是學習。

的確,我也應該看更多類型的中文和英文文學作品。我一直只躲藏在原耽圈子,對英文科置之不理。

我口才不好,當時也沒能清晰地說明。我認為原耽作品是雅俗共賞。我也不清楚(資料二)聽這些能不能提升中文科的成績,大家可以集思廣益。


3、我從來沒有說過自己的英文好。我自己也從來沒有這樣認為。可能我太敏感,學校的一部份老師認為我自恃英文好。如果你們今天稱讚我的中文、數學(現在也疏於操練)優秀,我會承認,因為這是事實。但事實也是,我的英語有幾年沒正式接觸,我的英語事實的確很一般。(觀點也是平平無奇,因為我從來不看新聞,天天只會看多啦A夢),我也從來沒有因為英文自傲。

4、承接上文,我的英語水平堪憂。資料三一講述我最近Boosting up my English likely  be the root of being anxious. 以及我最近一個月的學習方式。資料三和資料是我最近一個月的作文,看着還可以,但部份詞語只是一知半解。我在學業方面感到十分無助,我需要在DSE拿到28分,因為我需要拿到一個身份。鍾老師大概會把天上的星星摘給我。她有雪白的羽毛,鐵骨錚錚的支架,滾燙的脈落,她得帶我飛。

我的學習情況是,因為我也沒有上學,跟同學一起上課、考試才能看清自己的水平。現在什麼都不清楚,也沒動力補習或自學。因為自己很在意英文科的成績(比重×2),現在只補習英文科。那個老師和我的智力正常,也是一些正路的基本的學習內容。可是因為她經常給我作文功課,所以我也經常裝作很忙,不找她補習。有的時候,我們還會討論如何盡快吃掉鍾老師,比較影響學習進度。

其他科目也沒有進度,一來只有學校老師跟進才正式,學校測驗考試有結果才安心;二來我常晝伏夜出,腦袋又有毛病,可能突然不想補習,但雙方約好時間,會造成極大不安。

學業很煩惱,要一個斷腿的人跟健全的人比長跑,很困難。望學校能提供援助。

5、鮑博士交給學校的那封信沒有rely on (someone)的直接字眼或相關意思。

我不依賴鍾老師。我也理清了需要她什麼。大概是,我要鍾老師憐憫我。就好比神愛世人,但神不愛我,所以得讓鍾老師做這份工作。憐憫,不指可憐,而是慈悲。

我不依賴鍾老師,我只依附着她生存。

雖然我對鐘老師的愛意異常地狂悖。但她的確也做了一件傷我心的事兒。由於她非常地可惡,某天我得與她拙劣地撕咬在一塊,咬死她。(此處運用了修辭手法,並沒有觸犯法律的意圖。)

請願:希望鍾老師能牽我一起找梁先生,以及找一些老師之類的生物作為觀眾,能撐到讀完上述的內容。

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