假日,街頭偶遇,擦肩而過,匆匆一瞥,瞥見餘光。她眼藏憂思。是甚麼令晶瑩湛藍眸子黯然無光?是甚麼令淺金長髮被破舊頭巾覆蓋?是甚麼令氣質脫俗的她渾身低俗脂粉味?127Please respect copyright.PENANALQbMrrJEYH
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日落月不來,無邊黑夜不過襯托紅燈霓虹的布景。人慾橫流,世衰道微。有人認為是戰爭產物,有人認為是人性本惡,有人認為是人生無謂。我沒意見。即使有意見,亦改變不了甚麼吧。127Please respect copyright.PENANA9khwOxLCHe
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兜兜轉轉,尋尋覓覓。怕找不到她,又怕找到她。想見她,又不想見到她被壓在他人胯下嬌喘呻吟的情境。妖媚淫邪,勾人心神,欲斷難斷。127Please respect copyright.PENANAfeCZRUDguy
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離開大街,拐進小巷。既然大街各店老鴇不曾見過她,她很可能是來自東國的難民。近年戰事頻仍,大量東國難民湧入西國。不少女性難民聚居紅燈區小巷賣身賺錢。127Please respect copyright.PENANADxPYkORb5x
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尋尋覓覓,兜兜轉轉。有人說她正在某單位接客。我在門前等了十分鐘左右,等到一身酒氣的骯髒胖漢離開,目光自然而然瞟入單位,一絲不掛的曼妙身影在我毫無防備之下映入眼簾。127Please respect copyright.PENANA9w1cJRpnJ2
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心動。127Please respect copyright.PENANAvtXcgrmA7u
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她看出我不是嫖客,一邊梳洗穿戴,一邊問我來意。我謊稱來自東國的朋友託我秘密尋人,根據線索尋找至此。她說不知情,又問協助尋人會否有報酬……她問我答,我問她答。問答問答,來往來往。127Please respect copyright.PENANAESyv6kByMR
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假日,街頭碰面,並肩而行,四目交投,相視莞爾。她眼中有我。是我令晶瑩湛藍眸子水靈動人?是我令淺金長髮光澤柔順?是我令氣質脫俗的她容光煥發?127Please respect copyright.PENANAcm1soziSWq
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日落月不來,無邊黑夜不過襯托男女情愛的布景。繾綣纏綿,翻雲覆雨。雲雨間,我問她會否疼痛,她問我有否盡興。笑。高潮,忘我,倦極,相擁入眠。127Please respect copyright.PENANA11L1PTssl0
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明目張膽以情侶姿態把臂遊玩。光明正大以偽造身份出席宴會。堂而皇之以軍眷名義出入宿舍。127Please respect copyright.PENANARnSNFz5FC3
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日落,我下班回到宿舍。她不在。逛街?月出,她未歸。遭遇危險?127Please respect copyright.PENANADOLbQy17IX
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我問鄰人,鄰人說元帥命人帶走她。我問為何無人告訴我,他說一切都是元帥命令。127Please respect copyright.PENANA50OlHtF4BD
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夜訪元帥府,問她下落。元帥笑問我以中將或兒子身份發問。我無答。他又問我知否她西國公民身份造假。我坦言是我主意。他又問我知否妓女的最終歸處。我情急再問她下落。127Please respect copyright.PENANA4Trfh5Y7mR
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「你與上將們熟稔嗎?知道他們住處嗎?」127Please respect copyright.PENANALjV9tCg6YN
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「哪位上將?」127Please respect copyright.PENANAydt4wXV8BE
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「住處有床的上將。」127Please respect copyright.PENANAmKQTTvI2Kg
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糟糕!他在拖延時間!我唯有由近至遠、策馬親訪每位上將。可恨我當初太遲起疑,變相給予他們更多時間……127Please respect copyright.PENANAdks8Apq6DJ
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「元帥命令我告訴你,我是名單最後一位上將,執行『懲罰』後要派人將她送去難民營。」127Please respect copyright.PENANAIvurlf7eKU
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痛心疾首,悔恨難當,馬背上的我不得不咬牙忍淚。只怪我太天真。系出名門的元帥怎可能接受妓女做媳婦;國家情報機關怎可能被我的小把戲蒙騙;我怎麼遲鈍得對她遲遲未歸不生疑竇!127Please respect copyright.PENANA4DkApli67q
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誰料難民營管理者說我所講的馬車尚未到來。我苦等數小時,等不到馬車,卻等來另一驚人消息——元帥和名單上的上將全數慢性中毒身亡。127Please respect copyright.PENANAnvWV5uIJik
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我被裭奪軍銜,遭嚴刑拷問。後來證實我是被利用的笨蛋,終因「偽造身份」等多項小罪遭罰。繼承父業的兄長將我逐出家門後,我徹底成為一個無依無靠的窮困平民。127Please respect copyright.PENANAnvMJ998W9u
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五年後,兩國和解,兩地人民漸漸恢復正常往來。許多時候,我會想起她。她還活著嗎?她有想起我嗎?我們有機會再見面嗎?重遇時我會對她說甚麼?問她可曾付出真心?127Please respect copyright.PENANAoKj8iaO6rD
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及後,我經過某新開張的花店看見她——她是老闆娘——她也發現不遠處的我。四目交投。頃刻間,時間彷彿凝住,我像個傻瓜那樣愣在路中心,無法言語,無法思考。反倒她的驚訝表情一瞬即逝,曼妙身影翩翩而至。晶瑩湛藍眸子、淺金長髮、脫俗氣質,一如往昔。無可否認,我仍然十分在意她。127Please respect copyright.PENANAtSYRzQhq6d
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我開始在她的店打工,與她同居。有人問我們是否夫妻,我否認。當晚我將她壓在胯下,幻想自己是個一身酒氣的骯髒胖漢,毫不憐惜地糟塌她、蹂躪她。完事後不禁問她可曾付出真心。她說感情是真,工作也是真。127Please respect copyright.PENANACX2ncYu0vO
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生活不變,日子不變,日復日,年復年。再有人問我們是否夫妻,我沒答話。當晚我們做愛,解決生理需要。完事後,我們在床上閒聊,談及許多當年細節。她說東國派出大量女間諜扮成平民,在西國多名軍官身邊潛伏,她只是其中一個——在她之前,曾有二十四個女間諜企圖與我在街頭「偶遇」。我問她如何肯定自己可以單憑匆匆一眼就收獲我的心。她眼見其他女間諜出盡法寶亦無法完成任務,乾脆在我身邊逕自走過罷。127Please respect copyright.PENANAvM2IJx1Ogh
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「所以是『意外』、『偶然』……『緣份』?」127Please respect copyright.PENANAtRt7WAnO7L
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「這些字眼有分別嗎?選用令自己感到幸福快樂的字眼就可以。」127Please respect copyright.PENANArLVDyLc1vs
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生活不變,日子不變,日日復日日,年年復年年。又有人問我們是否夫妻,我笑而不答。當晚我們相擁無語,安然入睡,無性無愛無恨無慮。有人認為人生無謂。我沒意見。即使有意見,亦改變不了甚麼吧。倒不如順流而行,隨遇而安,珍惜可以擁抱入懷的人事物,放下早已遠去的一切。
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