我同阿軒嘅關係時好時壞,但大家繼續若無其事地相處,同時我愈來愈唔明白佢諗咩。喺阿軒等成績嘅期間,佢去咗一間屋邨藥房做散工,每日都要搬貨,唔止搬到身水身汗,仲成日整損手腳。坦白講我唔明點解佢會鍾意做搬貨,返工辛苦之餘,晚晚收工仲群埋啲同事食煙飲酒,而佢以前係一個因為氣管敏感而煙酒不沾嘅人。有時我放學見到佢一身煙味、不修邊幅咁嚟接我,真係咩mood都冇晒,不過阿軒唔鍾意人哋管佢,我唯有唔出聲。258Please respect copyright.PENANAzArW4zhNmY
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阿軒嘅成績不如理想,冇辦法升讀傳統大學嘅學位課程,所以我提議佢報讀私立院校,好彩最終佢都入讀到心儀嘅電影系。佢開學嘅同時,意味住到我迎戰A-level,我哋兩個經常陰差陽錯地各有各忙,佢忙於上莊、Ocamp、適應新生活,我就要獨自備戰考試,開始習慣咗冇佢喺我身邊。好多時候阿軒應承咗話會見面,但最後都係會遲到甩底,或者提早離開。我由一開始嘅失落、失望,逐漸變得麻木。258Please respect copyright.PENANAwHuoyub9n6
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「我今晚陪唔到你食飯,拍嘢唔知要拍到幾點。」阿軒又一次打嚟話我知要爽約。258Please respect copyright.PENANAfJLUoQ1OPQ
「唔緊要,你做嘢啦。」我忙於喺屋企寫essay,下星期就係模擬試,我仲要讀最多嘢記嘅中西史,啲時間根本都唔夠用。258Please respect copyright.PENANAl7tajFOwO8
「真係?你唔嬲?」阿軒驚我口不對心。你知啦,女人要嬲你一向都係收收埋埋架嘛。258Please respect copyright.PENANATxxHt62Qrl
「係啊,你返屋企話我知啦。拜拜。」但今次我真係冇嬲,甚至可以話冇感覺。唔駛出街仲好,我多啲時間溫書。258Please respect copyright.PENANACx7KfFdLqm
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基於經歷過考兩次會考,對於今次要面對大佬級嘅公開試,我係出盡力去準備,我甚至冇計劃過入唔到大學嘅話有咩後路,唔想因為有其他選擇而令自己放軟手腳。喺我備試期間,阿軒好間中會嚟搵我,最多都係喺附近食個飯兜個圈就各自返屋企,我亦都冇多餘嘅心力去關心佢校園生活,或者最近佢識咗咩新朋友。258Please respect copyright.PENANAcJTE8rJ1aO
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最後我嘅高考成績比我預期中好,喺從來冇聽過書、上堂傾偈傾到俾人鬧嘅中化科居然拎咗個A,獲得中化老師同全班同學嘅掌聲,仲入咗傳理系,係我夢寐以求嘅乞食科。258Please respect copyright.PENANA5VSjStYvp2
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「我有大學offer喇!」我滿心歡喜打俾阿軒,想同佢分享我嘅喜悅。258Please respect copyright.PENANAuukeRUVCmw
「哦……好叻喎……」阿軒嗰邊好嘈,我完全聽唔到佢講咩。258Please respect copyright.PENANAvmp7KFgRpI
「喂?我聽唔到啊……」我掩住耳仔,提高聲量,但淨係聽到吵耳嘅雜音。258Please respect copyright.PENANAmv5UbUjDvx
「我拍緊嘢啊,夜啲打俾你啦。」阿軒嘅聲線被噪音掩蓋,好快就收咗線。258Please respect copyright.PENANA1p9a05mSIK
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一班同學約咗夜晚慶祝食飯,亦係大家正式入學前嘅最後一聚。同學們其實都唔捨得走,最後玩到一兩點先各自返屋企。258Please respect copyright.PENANADrXgeImUR4
「你去咗邊?」我返到屋企樓下,阿軒嬲爆爆咁上前問我。258Please respect copyright.PENANAR8hzjTMcSg
「我去咗同學度慶祝,我有sms你架。」點解一見到面又要咁樣對我?258Please respect copyright.PENANAfY2Ieecykq
「我打過俾你,你又唔聽。」阿軒示意我睇返電話,的確係有未接電話嘅紀錄,但可能係喺同學屋企收電話有問題,所以電話完全冇響過。258Please respect copyright.PENANAicb7GM81Wp
「我都唔知有響過,而家我咪喺度囉,你擔心啲乜啫?」我已經分唔到佢係懷疑我出去溝仔,定係擔心我安全。「我今日搵你同你講我有offer,我想同你分享,你有聽到咩?」我唔理街上面有人旁觀,我只係想發洩最近有男友等如冇男友嘅失落。258Please respect copyright.PENANAG33gmWeZZS
「我忙緊啊,你估我係你啊?日日出去玩?」阿軒覺得我唔體諒佢,淨係識埋怨扭計。我知道再嘈落去係冇結果,亦都唔想俾人屌三更半夜製造噪音。258Please respect copyright.PENANAuHntOAxXvr
「你而家走我就唔再搵你!」我轉身想走,但阿軒叫停我。我冇選擇留低,因為我認為大家都需要時間冷靜下,好好思考下我哋之間應唔應該繼續。258Please respect copyright.PENANAHYClpakiPV