Dear friend of nearly twelve years,
I love you. I really do, and I know you have a very different definition of love than I do and that's alright. Love isn't romantic to me. And I stopped saying "I love you" because I knew it was different for you and I knew it hurt you to think I was lying or manipulative or something.
I know you're gay. And I have zero problems with that. I don't think it changes our friendship at all, but constantly needing to remind you that I'm not looking for romance leave me exhausted. I love you, you are literally one of my reasons for staying alive (I made a list for when my head goes to bad places, you were one of the first bullet points). 664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAwWvRplMKl
I love you. You have a heart of gold and a smile that has conditioned me to want to copy it and keep it going. Your laughter feels like home, and your presence makes me warm. You're not the only person that I can share things with, but I feel that you are one of the only people who will actually tell me what I need. You knock sense into me when I get anxious and paranoid and want to die, you reassure me that you need me and I need you so we may as well both live. We balance each other out, and I do need you. Just not in that way. Not in a romantic way. You are a reality check, but I feel that sometimes you need a check yourself. 664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2tAMdJKEpu
And I know I'm going to have people tell me that I'm homophobic or that I'm friendzoning you, and I hate myself everyday for hurting you. But I can't change it. I don't have those feelings. It hurts me too, when I have to look at your eyes that for a fleeting second loose their happy crinkles. I notice, and the sadness shouldn't be there. You don't need to date me to be able to love me. You don't need to worry about competition.
You are my best friend. There is no competition, because there is no one else I have a bond so strong with. Friendship will always be more important to me than a romantic relationship will, because you are someone special in my life and you will always be closer to me than any guy I find. Always, I promise, you will always be important to me. I will never leave you because I cannot live without you. I love you, and I think about you every day, and I want to protect you, and I will follow you to the ends of the earth. I really couldn't bear for this to ruin our friendship, because our friendship is too important to me to let it slide over something so trivial.
I'm sorry. I love you, I just don't "like" you. 664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6bdNIzoEtG
