國小二年級的我是一個很受歡迎的孩子。
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「大家快過來看!」101Please respect copyright.PENANATif5cwIVyi
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只要我一個號令,同學們就會像嗅到甜味的螞蟻般一窩蜂圍上來。101Please respect copyright.PENANAc7EcxlUuax
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「什麼什麼?」101Please respect copyright.PENANAzLMb5nO6RM
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「楠楠我也要看!」101Please respect copyright.PENANAPYWTQzZdUG
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我回過身看向聞聲而來的同學們,故作成熟的清了清喉嚨。101Please respect copyright.PENANA661xw8wDMs
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「你們看我!」101Please respect copyright.PENANAUKJAkX7vZa
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我亮出掌心約兩個指節長的小紅花,捏住尾端後吸了一口。101Please respect copyright.PENANATlt1JEhp7p
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隨著蜜香在舌尖擴散,同學們紛紛爆出驚叫。101Please respect copyright.PENANAUGLrUIr6xx
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「楠楠!」一個女生忽然拉住我的袖子哭喊,「老師說吃小草會死翹翹啦!」101Please respect copyright.PENANAFg3dYDNjQo
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「嘔…」幾名試圖模仿我的男同學瞬間臉色大變,爭先恐後吐出一堆不知名的草本植物。101Please respect copyright.PENANA7OUX5xKqIw
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我不哭反笑,「吃這種紅紅的花不會死掉哦!」101Please respect copyright.PENANAMsBSWOdf5U
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我指著一叢由幾十朵紅花組成的半圓球體「這是矮仙丹花,和糖果一樣甜甜的。」101Please respect copyright.PENANAVsx8T1ST2H
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我邊說邊遞一朵給方才的辮子女孩,在她小心翼翼地輕啜一口後,臉上的恐懼瞬間被驚喜所取代。「好甜!」101Please respect copyright.PENANA4hGPkdt2qt
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「對吧~」我勾起嘴角比出一個勝利的V字。101Please respect copyright.PENANApTpQUcH2L8
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周圍的孩子見此情景漸漸放下心,各自跑開採花去了。一節下課就在眾人的歡聲笑語中度過。101Please respect copyright.PENANAEHRpY9attD
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鐘聲響起,我宛如率領羊群的牧羊犬,走在眾人的最前頭。101Please respect copyright.PENANAZVDclXXUUV
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「楠楠我們下次玩什麼?」一個女生發問。101Please respect copyright.PENANACCEuAaqdCQ
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我笑著回答:「我想玩躲貓貓!」101Please respect copyright.PENANA3OhEYiheP8
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「好啊!」101Please respect copyright.PENANAt8hh0U5I49
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沒有人反駁我的提議,大家的臉上只有期待和欣喜,以及對我的順從。101Please respect copyright.PENANAN39PuVsA51
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國小二年級的我位於人際關係金字塔的頂端,不僅對自己很有自信,也深得大家的喜愛。101Please respect copyright.PENANA1APjGnBhmV
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無論從哪個方面看來都是個無比幸福的孩子。101Please respect copyright.PENANA16VmbtpIzl
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「爸爸!」我邁開步伐朝校門口那個西裝筆挺的身影撲過去。101Please respect copyright.PENANAQnhDvktZsO
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爸爸張開雙臂把我擁入懷中,雙手支撐我的腋下將我高高舉起。101Please respect copyright.PENANAJJIol3MbAl
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我高聲歡呼享受雙腳懸空的快感。101Please respect copyright.PENANAwuCiH8tCXJ
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「爸爸今天怎麼這麼早下班?」落地後,我甩開遮住視線的瀏海仰頭看他。101Please respect copyright.PENANAR2zhRsV1Wy
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爸爸溫柔地揉揉我的頭髮:「想給我們家小楠一個驚喜就提早回來啦。」101Please respect copyright.PENANAMF5tCsyDRt
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我興奮地跳起來,蹦蹦跳跳走向路邊銀色的小轎車。101Please respect copyright.PENANAI3sPzJrb2N
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坐上汽車後座後,爸爸一如往常放了一大把糖果在我的裙子上。101Please respect copyright.PENANAu5ZF4IZXnX
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車內的燈是亮著的,五彩繽紛的糖果紙閃著誘人的光,讓人目不暇給。101Please respect copyright.PENANAbteU5gNhly
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猶豫再三,我拿起扁平的琥珀色棒棒糖,拆開透明包裝紙放入口中。101Please respect copyright.PENANA9te6y5zJn8
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「又選棒棒糖?小楠這麼喜歡棒棒糖啊。」101Please respect copyright.PENANAQm8mhzRvve
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「嗯!」我笑得燦爛,「但我更喜歡爸爸!」101Please respect copyright.PENANABFvZlH56m5
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前座的爸爸溫柔地回應我:「爸爸也好愛妳。爸爸全世界最愛的就是妳跟妳媽媽了。」101Please respect copyright.PENANAkfChYnwpJf
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「嘻嘻爸爸最棒了!」101Please respect copyright.PENANA4sxn5Xrr19
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我舔著白色塑膠桿上的麥芽糖,麥香伴隨濃郁的甜盈滿口腔。101Please respect copyright.PENANAXFU8i9zzPn
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如同我的小學二年級,甜美且純粹。101Please respect copyright.PENANAruA9Nv8kf1
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升上四年級後,我的綽號從「楠楠」,變成了「棒棒糖」。101Please respect copyright.PENANAnBHmG8uDtf
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因為爸爸是糖果食品公司的員工,我們家的零食櫃裡從來不缺吃的。無論是未上市的還是熱銷款,爸爸都可以輕鬆拿到。101Please respect copyright.PENANAi4yGyxiRMI
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而總是把棒棒糖帶來學校的我也因此得到了一個新綽號——棒棒糖101Please respect copyright.PENANABqOWodCPhA
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「棒棒糖,你有沒有喜歡的人啊?」101Please respect copyright.PENANA5QB9ycRNxX
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同班四年的好朋友靜琳雙手環抱籃球,像往常一樣談起戀愛話題,對前幾分鐘體育老師的警告置若罔聞。101Please respect copyright.PENANAuSYqIAZe4S
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「沒有,而且談戀愛不好玩,我不喜歡。」我用樹枝在沙地上畫起無意義的愛心符號,再給它打上一個大大的叉。101Please respect copyright.PENANAOo8s6fNc7R
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靜琳嘆氣:「妳最近變得好無聊啊,以前三年級不是都聊6號有多帥嗎。」101Please respect copyright.PENANAJ8ckyFIJLF
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「他一次喜歡好幾個女生,很噁心。」我抿唇。101Please respect copyright.PENANAQKTKQ6U6x1
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靜琳鼓著單邊臉頰鬧起彆扭:「我不管啦!我五年級就要轉學了,再跟我聊一些好玩的嘛!」101Please respect copyright.PENANAx7rOFJQV2o
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靜琳要轉學?!101Please respect copyright.PENANAwBPezYiaan
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我驚訝地看著她,呆了好幾秒,最後怔怔地吐出一句話。
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我們就這樣有一搭沒一搭地聊著戀愛話題,消磨掉一節體育課。
坦白說,靜琳轉學的事情並沒有讓我掉一滴淚,甚至連一點悲傷的情緒也沒有。
我說不定其實是個冷血的人。
今天的家裡格外不安寧,雖然自三年級後半起爸媽的吵架頻率就越來越高,但從來沒有出現過當前的情況。
「小楠,如果爸爸跟媽媽離婚的話,妳要跟誰一起住?」爸爸的語氣沒有以往的溫柔。
我低下頭,不想對上面前兩道冷冽的目光。
「離婚」這個詞我曾在跟媽媽一起追劇時看到過,但我從沒想過有天會在現實生活中聽到「你要跟爸爸還是媽媽」這種經典臺詞。
我以為爸爸媽媽很溫柔,不會當著我的面問出這種話,逼我在兩個最喜歡的人中做選擇。
但顯然並非如此。
「我不想選。」我的口氣異常冷靜,平淡的情緒表達連我自己都不敢置信。心臟仿佛覆了一層霜,除了由內而外的冷以外什麼都感受不到。
沒有人回應我的話,四周的氣氛降至冰點,陷入一片安靜的死寂。
「就說不要在未楠面前提了。」過了半晌,媽媽率先發難。
「她遲早要知道啊!」一向溫文儒雅的爸爸吼了回去。
「張未楠已經不是小孩子了,怎麼可能看不出來?」媽媽的聲音比平時高出不只一個八度。
我默默退到床鋪和牆角連接的角落,小手拽緊床單。
在他們的爭吵中,我只是個局外人。
我把目光投向媽媽,她棕色的長髮如綢段般細緻,額前的碎髮把巴掌大地臉襯得更加小巧,美麗的五官更是絲毫沒有被歲月摧殘的痕跡。
可儘管如此,爸爸依然選擇了另一個女人。拋下了媽媽,還有…我。
爸爸是騙子,大騙子。爸爸說他全世界最喜歡的就是小楠跟媽媽,他說謊。
我的呼吸一窒,左胸似乎有什麼東西摔落在地,碎得徹底。
後來,靜琳果然離開了,去了南部的學校。爸爸也離開了,不知道去了哪裡。可能是那個女人的家?
我不清楚,也不在乎。
我果然是個冷血的人。
之後的日子我彷彿變了一個人。我失去與人交流的熱忱,只是拼命地想考上城裡最好的國中。甚至沒跟任何一個同學說超過五句話就從國小畢業了。
當時唯一能勾起我興趣的只有一套我從小追到大的連載漫畫——<平行悖論>。
而我之所以會如此熱衷於那套漫畫,也僅僅因為那套漫畫的第一集是爸爸送給我的七歲生日禮物。
我有時候會想,如果<平行悖論>中的平行時空真的存在,會不會有另一個我正跟爸爸媽媽幸福快樂地生活在一起呢?
瀏覽著書中的情節,我撕開藍色棒棒糖的包裝紙。
濃烈的薄荷味,好冰、好涼、好苦。
我不喜歡。
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