The next two weeks after I recovered from my last anxiety episode were filled with happiness and peace. Deepavali was just around the corner, and my husband and I started preparing for the festivities. We bought new clothes for the family, decorated the house, and made plans to visit relatives. It felt so good to experience life as "normal" again, with laughter, joy, and the warmth of family around us. I was able to feel the excitement of the festival and get involved in the preparations without feeling overwhelmed by anxiety. The celebrations brought a sense of calm and happiness.
However, just as I was looking forward to the Deepavali holidays, something unexpected happened. A day before I was supposed to head to my hometown, I began experiencing some stomach pain. I initially thought it was just the usual menstrual cramps, but as the day went on, the pain didn’t subside. Then, the worry set in when I noticed blood in my urine. Panic started to rise inside me. I quickly told my husband, and we rushed to the clinic.
The doctor conducted a urine test, and while everything seemed okay, there was still a lot of blood in my urine. The doctor couldn't identify the exact cause but suggested it might be a urinary tract infection and prescribed some medication to clear up the issue. Despite her reassurance, I couldn’t shake the feeling of worry. My stomach still felt heavy, and I was scared. My mood was definitely off as I prepared to leave for my hometown.
Once I got to my family’s home, I felt a little more at ease, surrounded by loved ones. The anxiety didn’t spike as it usually would because I was in a familiar and safe environment. Still, I couldn't completely push the fear aside. I tried to hide it from my family, putting on a brave face, but deep down, I felt scared. I would sometimes feel the urge to cry, but seeing my family and spending time with them made it easier to manage my emotions.
Over time, the physical symptoms started to subside, and I was able to enjoy Deepavali celebrations with my family, even though I still had traces of anxiety lingering. But for the most part, I managed to find joy in the little moments, holding onto the happiness that came with being surrounded by the people I love.
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