" You have sick ? " Must be some reason to let you became different . As I say , I went there again is trying to prove I am move on about my sisters die , but some part of me he is going sick ,maybe some part of me think everything is I making . Its me make they die , I going mad . 

" I am sick ." They say I got Major depressive disorder . They is all that doctor had talk me , they give me , Anti-depressant , that can heal Major depressive disorder for using add more Serotonin . But as well , that treatment method have many or just say more than the new of side effect .

" You happens to much things and that isn't your fault ." You have no choice .

I saw people think that is 

Dissociative Identity Disorder aka DID , 

They like the doctor , a mistake that totally can change your life , they think you re mad .

"You didn't see having one . "

I had seem their patient who having whatever you call that disease , they didn't look what you now and always . They don't remember what they have done they will be a totally different people

" You could happy to not used Electroconvulsive therapy aka ECT . " That is Physical therapy way to the treatment of severe depression and schizophrenia .