I really didn't know why but I just liked him so much that I didn't even care when people were asking me why. I asked them "Why not?" and they said, "He's different." And as a girl who has always been weird and adventurous my answer was "That never stopped me from loving myself, why would that stop me from loving him?"232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHeWFXF5J65
So I asked him out and he was confused too. I told him that for me love is fluid and that I like girls sometimes too. Not that I would date them. It's more of knowing ladies are too much for me to handle. I have way too many close friends who are always a mess and I have to be there for them. I think put me off dating them. There is also an underlying fear because when I liked a girl in high school she rejected me. Then when a girl liked me who was also a friend of mine, it gave me pause. My actual short-lived relationship with a girl who was a friend of mine didn't pan out well. But it wasn't because we didn't like each other. But it was because she liked my best friend more than she liked me. She just wanted to get closer to my bestie through me. Harsh, I know. Teenagers are crazy like that.
Anyway back to my story, he was my first everything and it was a rollercoaster dating him. He's smart and nerdy which I love. But the best thing about that was when he takes his glasses off he is quite fetching. Loving someone without caring who they are is what I was going for and I got what I wanted.
He became my lover and my friend too. Most of the people around us found us cute but a few found our relationship incomprehensible. It's mostly because of how people feel uncomfortable around LGBTQ+ people even though they say they are woke af. As previously mentioned, no fxxks were given by moi. So I just kept on dating him.
For me loving him as my first great love helped me become a better person and a better girlfriend. I dated a few more men after him but we always remember our first fondly, I think. Even if the end wasn't so PG or nice. 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYbAtAoSRfv
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I was seventeen when I loved him but it didn't matter that he was older. 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC1AlwPAFYP
A few years after we lost touch and had already moved on to dating other people, I met him on the street while I was walking with my then-boyfriend (he's an ex now too) and I felt so happy to see him and his partner. I felt like we had come full circle. 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ2bZlCUzol
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For me, romantic love ends but it doesn't have to be so sad. The youth we spend with that person, the moments when we felt like love indeed makes the world go round are worth all the somewhat darker moments. 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWoafR8yDm1
He inspires me to this day not to look at a partner based on what gender roles people want me to play. I broke up with the boyfriend I was with when I met him because he was rude to my gay ex (and his partner) and I didn't want to be with someone who would be a homophobic dad. I had one of those already. And uncles to boot. I wanted to be with someone who would be accepting of who I am since I don't exactly feel all that cis female but not totally ready to be bisexual. So if I have a child with that man, and he would reject our child for being different from the rest then I would have regretted that life with him and removed myself and my child from his toxicity's range.
I miss being in love the way I was when I was seventeen. We would have picnics in the school park. We had sex under the moonlight. We did charity work and volunteer work together. We learned a lot from each other and helped other people at the same time. It was fun and new. 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGQPHAfiyhi
I think I never felt that adventurous with my other lovers because they were all sub-par in understanding me as a whole. 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhOiOpECm8
I always hope for people around me to find a liberating love like that. Because it's one for the books indeed.
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