As crazy as it seemed, I wanted to go back inside. Even after all I went through, going back was looking more and more appealing. The outside world was just too different for me to handle. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO5uCC4DJTg
My cube is all i'd ever known.
There was so much. Just too much. I couldn't deal with it. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7hD2hZ7kx
My body froze up and I looked around for any sign of danger. My senses became more sensitive as I grew more parenoid. I had no idea what I was getting into. And I had no idea how traumatizing it would be. I just had to be free.
I had no idea there would be crisp white snow that painfully recalled memories that I had buried deep inside my mind. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlahao3s0L
Memories of perfect white lab coats. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvH6vSPrPHu
'White cloth walking just out of reach from my bound hands, coldly looking at me from afar.'860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhUQspJ127C
Memories of blue gloves that smelled of the unpleasant combonation of rubber and disinfectant. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6NGeYIv7ij
'Blue fingers reaching out to me. Hope that I will be saved, right before the betrayal and torcher.'860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCGCNmOHdyn
Memories of white masks covering things unknown to me.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMB1ZR33q63
'The smooth curve of cheek, the unexpresive porceline mask. Never knowing white lies under there.'860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWn9bohHWhB
Trees that's ragged branches that lurked with dangerous unfamiliarity.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYV4WkNDcKy
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Skies that spread out endlessly making you feel as small and insignificant as the stars that shone above without purpose.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE91Y2XQ8aZ
'Uselessness'860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZdxXuwz2t
And gusts of wind that felt like daggars piercing through your skin out in the cold November air.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcHNu4nRr3j
And I was only wearing a thin brown covering. Nothing decent enough to wear out in the middle of the winter.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwS9LKrUyfI
I sat down and brought my knees to my chest, hugging them close to my body out of shock and in reaction to the unpleasant change in weather. Trying to process everything I was taking in at the time.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPhW3r3c7k
After a few seconds I jumped back up again, glaring at the pure white that covered the ground, momentarily distracted from how scary the outside world was.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbfuuYVQXjt
I laughed bitterly at how similar snow was to the Bleach Coats I had known so well. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCy75NtQEB3
They were both perfect. So, so, untainted. As if mocking my dirty, scruffy apperance. And they were both so cold and emotionless. A perfect match.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtP7IOAPwye
But then my eyes grew wide with realization. I was outside. Finally. After all this time, I was free from my confinement. From my safe cell. My cube. I knew every nook and crany. It was so... familiar. Was I sure that I wanted to leave that and explore a world of danger and recklesness? 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjYQkxH8Cqh
I took a step back due to my second thoughts and twirled around to face the cement building I just escaped from.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlKXl39k6KB
I saw a blurr of boring grey in the shape of a large square through the misty evening air. It was the same bland colour as I grew up with, but it was broken.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwh2Vr2jBJn
It had cracks and dents. It had chiped paint and dry, Autumn leaves scattered here and there. It had old cigarette buds and the distinct smell of urine. To put it simply, it was beautiful.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjMgV6TA1Mh
Was this what the outside world look like? Was everything imperfect? My face strtched into a smile at the thought of broken, run-down buildings.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEVC7RTANH6
And with that, I ran. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSWixbJR3E
I relished in the feeling of the wind wipping my hair around, despite the the chattering of my teeth or the numbness in my bear feet.860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡidwcqut2Qb
I ran and ran and ran until stopping before a wire gate. The gate separating me and my freedom.
You may think that I was free the moment I stepped out of that building, but I wasn't free from myself. I was still trapped in my insecurities. Even though I knew that even after passing through that gate, I would still be cautious and paranoid, I could be free. Truly free. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe0tZHIgKom
And with a smile I oppened the gate to my new beggining.
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Eh? Eh? I rewrote it per LDF's extreemly awesome constructive critisism, now I hope it's a bit more realistic. I know its shorter than before, but I started and it ran away from me. Because of my inspiration, I might make this multi-chapter, but it will take a long time. 860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPrVS78dhNT
See you next time!860Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD0uRGWt7Nb
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