As crazy as it seemed, I wanted to go back inside. Even after all I went through, going back was looking more and more appealing. The outside world was just too different for me to handle. 832Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSMpU9ldAAw
My cube is all i'd ever known.
There was so much. Just too much. I couldn't deal with it. 832Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNlX7OhUjry
My body froze up and I looked around for any sign of danger. My senses became more sensitive as I grew more parenoid. I had no idea what I was getting into. And I had no idea how traumatizing it would be. I just had to be free.
I had no idea there would be crisp white snow that painfully recalled memories that I had buried deep inside my mind. 832Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4PFbrHygTE
Memories of perfect white lab coats. 832Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRn1xBX8IM
'White cloth walking just out of reach from my bound hands, coldly looking at me from afar.'832Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1FMP2EE1pr
Memories of blue gloves that smelled of the unpleasant combonation of rubber and disinfectant. 832Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiKYCDO2KJk
'Blue fingers reaching out to me. Hope that I will be saved, right before the betrayal and torcher.'832Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡufkO4dHUfG
Memories of white masks covering things unknown to me.832Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwhyo6xkXmM
'The smooth curve of cheek, the unexpresive porceline mask. Never knowing white lies under there.'832Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKqIZChzaxD
Trees that's ragged branches that lurked with dangerous unfamiliarity.832Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5qzivc9aK
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Skies that spread out endlessly making you feel as small and insignificant as the stars that shone above without purpose.832Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0JeQB5YTJr
'Uselessness'832Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡULl6SKeIbn
And gusts of wind that felt like daggars piercing through your skin out in the cold November air.832Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSuourgYWqU
And I was only wearing a thin brown covering. Nothing decent enough to wear out in the middle of the winter.832Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWigtpIYqyI
I sat down and brought my knees to my chest, hugging them close to my body out of shock and in reaction to the unpleasant change in weather. Trying to process everything I was taking in at the time.832Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrurCiQXQOW
After a few seconds I jumped back up again, glaring at the pure white that covered the ground, momentarily distracted from how scary the outside world was.832Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOnF6NlHvRD
I laughed bitterly at how similar snow was to the Bleach Coats I had known so well. 832Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8MnEX7a8dI
They were both perfect. So, so, untainted. As if mocking my dirty, scruffy apperance. And they were both so cold and emotionless. A perfect match.832Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjynkKKWwGZ
But then my eyes grew wide with realization. I was outside. Finally. After all this time, I was free from my confinement. From my safe cell. My cube. I knew every nook and crany. It was so... familiar. Was I sure that I wanted to leave that and explore a world of danger and recklesness? 832Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6SqpbIwWa
I took a step back due to my second thoughts and twirled around to face the cement building I just escaped from.832Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRx1gyj8ViY
I saw a blurr of boring grey in the shape of a large square through the misty evening air. It was the same bland colour as I grew up with, but it was broken.832Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiV7PFhTJOB
It had cracks and dents. It had chiped paint and dry, Autumn leaves scattered here and there. It had old cigarette buds and the distinct smell of urine. To put it simply, it was beautiful.832Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7AN9mmhewz
Was this what the outside world look like? Was everything imperfect? My face strtched into a smile at the thought of broken, run-down buildings.832Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmsSsO8ULe5
And with that, I ran. 832Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0XNnQj5nmU
I relished in the feeling of the wind wipping my hair around, despite the the chattering of my teeth or the numbness in my bear feet.832Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ27nhZ5zdDe
I ran and ran and ran until stopping before a wire gate. The gate separating me and my freedom.
You may think that I was free the moment I stepped out of that building, but I wasn't free from myself. I was still trapped in my insecurities. Even though I knew that even after passing through that gate, I would still be cautious and paranoid, I could be free. Truly free. 832Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIlNHiZDqUK
And with a smile I oppened the gate to my new beggining.
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Eh? Eh? I rewrote it per LDF's extreemly awesome constructive critisism, now I hope it's a bit more realistic. I know its shorter than before, but I started and it ran away from me. Because of my inspiration, I might make this multi-chapter, but it will take a long time. 832Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6fXGtJ0R5n
See you next time!832Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkSmaNP8cMh
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