As crazy as it seemed, I wanted to go back inside. Even after all I went through, going back was looking more and more appealing. The outside world was just too different for me to handle. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM92bSPGknj
My cube is all i'd ever known.
There was so much. Just too much. I couldn't deal with it. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5iDXmFEeY
My body froze up and I looked around for any sign of danger. My senses became more sensitive as I grew more parenoid. I had no idea what I was getting into. And I had no idea how traumatizing it would be. I just had to be free.
I had no idea there would be crisp white snow that painfully recalled memories that I had buried deep inside my mind. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXp4ZMG7vdQ
Memories of perfect white lab coats. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDFqAmJuInt
'White cloth walking just out of reach from my bound hands, coldly looking at me from afar.'814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNtJaceIsrM
Memories of blue gloves that smelled of the unpleasant combonation of rubber and disinfectant. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCxBj0F5for
'Blue fingers reaching out to me. Hope that I will be saved, right before the betrayal and torcher.'814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI6sM0KDPtZ
Memories of white masks covering things unknown to me.814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWoWkG5bQXM
'The smooth curve of cheek, the unexpresive porceline mask. Never knowing white lies under there.'814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrKuDzFa9m
Trees that's ragged branches that lurked with dangerous unfamiliarity.814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWhhBNP1Sbp
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Skies that spread out endlessly making you feel as small and insignificant as the stars that shone above without purpose.814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIBaggg9uYF
'Uselessness'814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmv18k73rpO
And gusts of wind that felt like daggars piercing through your skin out in the cold November air.814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfjNFeaV8EY
And I was only wearing a thin brown covering. Nothing decent enough to wear out in the middle of the winter.814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvefeOzeSqu
I sat down and brought my knees to my chest, hugging them close to my body out of shock and in reaction to the unpleasant change in weather. Trying to process everything I was taking in at the time.814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9LtbK046K
After a few seconds I jumped back up again, glaring at the pure white that covered the ground, momentarily distracted from how scary the outside world was.814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe0FAoLVyuP
I laughed bitterly at how similar snow was to the Bleach Coats I had known so well. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTp9RoR7lnK
They were both perfect. So, so, untainted. As if mocking my dirty, scruffy apperance. And they were both so cold and emotionless. A perfect match.814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxF4idHuQLK
But then my eyes grew wide with realization. I was outside. Finally. After all this time, I was free from my confinement. From my safe cell. My cube. I knew every nook and crany. It was so... familiar. Was I sure that I wanted to leave that and explore a world of danger and recklesness? 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEBY1snK2MP
I took a step back due to my second thoughts and twirled around to face the cement building I just escaped from.814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1r14kCBh3Y
I saw a blurr of boring grey in the shape of a large square through the misty evening air. It was the same bland colour as I grew up with, but it was broken.814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPldcu9SX7I
It had cracks and dents. It had chiped paint and dry, Autumn leaves scattered here and there. It had old cigarette buds and the distinct smell of urine. To put it simply, it was beautiful.814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡycTdxyOWR0
Was this what the outside world look like? Was everything imperfect? My face strtched into a smile at the thought of broken, run-down buildings.814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBrB1N1d5Gs
And with that, I ran. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaWm3HKayfl
I relished in the feeling of the wind wipping my hair around, despite the the chattering of my teeth or the numbness in my bear feet.814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYetDbjxFl
I ran and ran and ran until stopping before a wire gate. The gate separating me and my freedom.
You may think that I was free the moment I stepped out of that building, but I wasn't free from myself. I was still trapped in my insecurities. Even though I knew that even after passing through that gate, I would still be cautious and paranoid, I could be free. Truly free. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJDZuUZXHU
And with a smile I oppened the gate to my new beggining.
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Eh? Eh? I rewrote it per LDF's extreemly awesome constructive critisism, now I hope it's a bit more realistic. I know its shorter than before, but I started and it ran away from me. Because of my inspiration, I might make this multi-chapter, but it will take a long time. 814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvY04sQ6qS
See you next time!814Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFsPNEBDlg9
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