As crazy as it seemed, I wanted to go back inside. Even after all I went through, going back was looking more and more appealing. The outside world was just too different for me to handle. 833Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJ9iVa5YYZ
My cube is all i'd ever known.
There was so much. Just too much. I couldn't deal with it. 833Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFzN5mwYtHS
My body froze up and I looked around for any sign of danger. My senses became more sensitive as I grew more parenoid. I had no idea what I was getting into. And I had no idea how traumatizing it would be. I just had to be free.
I had no idea there would be crisp white snow that painfully recalled memories that I had buried deep inside my mind. 833Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhVTJ562UVC
Memories of perfect white lab coats. 833Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXmA9Y4ekq
'White cloth walking just out of reach from my bound hands, coldly looking at me from afar.'833Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeXMb8RllXs
Memories of blue gloves that smelled of the unpleasant combonation of rubber and disinfectant. 833Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡffZvExp2mt
'Blue fingers reaching out to me. Hope that I will be saved, right before the betrayal and torcher.'833Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbPKooqit0D
Memories of white masks covering things unknown to me.833Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSg5kv27tQD
'The smooth curve of cheek, the unexpresive porceline mask. Never knowing white lies under there.'833Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXoXMVqqYVv
Trees that's ragged branches that lurked with dangerous unfamiliarity.833Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfY3atYZPn4
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Skies that spread out endlessly making you feel as small and insignificant as the stars that shone above without purpose.833Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwR0UuUNvPT
'Uselessness'833Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0kZarUxqa
And gusts of wind that felt like daggars piercing through your skin out in the cold November air.833Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZmjINrwfPv
And I was only wearing a thin brown covering. Nothing decent enough to wear out in the middle of the winter.833Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwMbE5y7gir
I sat down and brought my knees to my chest, hugging them close to my body out of shock and in reaction to the unpleasant change in weather. Trying to process everything I was taking in at the time.833Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgyUL5NGb6i
After a few seconds I jumped back up again, glaring at the pure white that covered the ground, momentarily distracted from how scary the outside world was.833Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlW3RJiTmeY
I laughed bitterly at how similar snow was to the Bleach Coats I had known so well. 833Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw0ppLPhSw5
They were both perfect. So, so, untainted. As if mocking my dirty, scruffy apperance. And they were both so cold and emotionless. A perfect match.833Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGYVXHQzCiB
But then my eyes grew wide with realization. I was outside. Finally. After all this time, I was free from my confinement. From my safe cell. My cube. I knew every nook and crany. It was so... familiar. Was I sure that I wanted to leave that and explore a world of danger and recklesness? 833Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzHFpi4oYsJ
I took a step back due to my second thoughts and twirled around to face the cement building I just escaped from.833Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8gfT3q4QlX
I saw a blurr of boring grey in the shape of a large square through the misty evening air. It was the same bland colour as I grew up with, but it was broken.833Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXPuEvHDAQ
It had cracks and dents. It had chiped paint and dry, Autumn leaves scattered here and there. It had old cigarette buds and the distinct smell of urine. To put it simply, it was beautiful.833Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2q8gw6lVww
Was this what the outside world look like? Was everything imperfect? My face strtched into a smile at the thought of broken, run-down buildings.833Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPNATMn2zr
And with that, I ran. 833Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr5deNUZTPu
I relished in the feeling of the wind wipping my hair around, despite the the chattering of my teeth or the numbness in my bear feet.833Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGd6wBlMvT
I ran and ran and ran until stopping before a wire gate. The gate separating me and my freedom.
You may think that I was free the moment I stepped out of that building, but I wasn't free from myself. I was still trapped in my insecurities. Even though I knew that even after passing through that gate, I would still be cautious and paranoid, I could be free. Truly free. 833Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEIg8yTqDko
And with a smile I oppened the gate to my new beggining.
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Eh? Eh? I rewrote it per LDF's extreemly awesome constructive critisism, now I hope it's a bit more realistic. I know its shorter than before, but I started and it ran away from me. Because of my inspiration, I might make this multi-chapter, but it will take a long time. 833Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Fv9I8bAmA
See you next time!833Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7Z45ZJSpY
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