As crazy as it seemed, I wanted to go back inside. Even after all I went through, going back was looking more and more appealing. The outside world was just too different for me to handle. 756Please respect copyright.PENANAByxKz95jVa
My cube is all i'd ever known.
There was so much. Just too much. I couldn't deal with it. 756Please respect copyright.PENANABuihRS3q8e
My body froze up and I looked around for any sign of danger. My senses became more sensitive as I grew more parenoid. I had no idea what I was getting into. And I had no idea how traumatizing it would be. I just had to be free.
I had no idea there would be crisp white snow that painfully recalled memories that I had buried deep inside my mind. 756Please respect copyright.PENANA9d5cpKEtwb
Memories of perfect white lab coats. 756Please respect copyright.PENANAammRT6KRc7
'White cloth walking just out of reach from my bound hands, coldly looking at me from afar.'756Please respect copyright.PENANAUoWdXWS4AN
Memories of blue gloves that smelled of the unpleasant combonation of rubber and disinfectant. 756Please respect copyright.PENANAfiCWHOoZxY
'Blue fingers reaching out to me. Hope that I will be saved, right before the betrayal and torcher.'756Please respect copyright.PENANAuQQjfP0Gbz
Memories of white masks covering things unknown to me.756Please respect copyright.PENANAxLxKTZGSXN
'The smooth curve of cheek, the unexpresive porceline mask. Never knowing white lies under there.'756Please respect copyright.PENANAI4h3n8niG7
Trees that's ragged branches that lurked with dangerous unfamiliarity.756Please respect copyright.PENANAmFT5XUSFfJ
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Skies that spread out endlessly making you feel as small and insignificant as the stars that shone above without purpose.756Please respect copyright.PENANAaC5S3uhhAj
'Uselessness'756Please respect copyright.PENANAp9yxw2PkHj
And gusts of wind that felt like daggars piercing through your skin out in the cold November air.756Please respect copyright.PENANAF4UgyKCqoe
And I was only wearing a thin brown covering. Nothing decent enough to wear out in the middle of the winter.756Please respect copyright.PENANADhE1lUAsQi
I sat down and brought my knees to my chest, hugging them close to my body out of shock and in reaction to the unpleasant change in weather. Trying to process everything I was taking in at the time.756Please respect copyright.PENANAz8yIBU5B6C
After a few seconds I jumped back up again, glaring at the pure white that covered the ground, momentarily distracted from how scary the outside world was.756Please respect copyright.PENANAgdeM1qVhqN
I laughed bitterly at how similar snow was to the Bleach Coats I had known so well. 756Please respect copyright.PENANAjWVkFdCQ9T
They were both perfect. So, so, untainted. As if mocking my dirty, scruffy apperance. And they were both so cold and emotionless. A perfect match.756Please respect copyright.PENANAyPkrBs4EKB
But then my eyes grew wide with realization. I was outside. Finally. After all this time, I was free from my confinement. From my safe cell. My cube. I knew every nook and crany. It was so... familiar. Was I sure that I wanted to leave that and explore a world of danger and recklesness? 756Please respect copyright.PENANA7cJtZq7zRv
I took a step back due to my second thoughts and twirled around to face the cement building I just escaped from.756Please respect copyright.PENANAQmn5jQMDvI
I saw a blurr of boring grey in the shape of a large square through the misty evening air. It was the same bland colour as I grew up with, but it was broken.756Please respect copyright.PENANAtxIvmrcI4b
It had cracks and dents. It had chiped paint and dry, Autumn leaves scattered here and there. It had old cigarette buds and the distinct smell of urine. To put it simply, it was beautiful.756Please respect copyright.PENANAcDblu5qYbE
Was this what the outside world look like? Was everything imperfect? My face strtched into a smile at the thought of broken, run-down buildings.756Please respect copyright.PENANA6Q7S97srld
And with that, I ran. 756Please respect copyright.PENANAN0K8iOXcQQ
I relished in the feeling of the wind wipping my hair around, despite the the chattering of my teeth or the numbness in my bear feet.756Please respect copyright.PENANArpfTE3VmN5
I ran and ran and ran until stopping before a wire gate. The gate separating me and my freedom.
You may think that I was free the moment I stepped out of that building, but I wasn't free from myself. I was still trapped in my insecurities. Even though I knew that even after passing through that gate, I would still be cautious and paranoid, I could be free. Truly free. 756Please respect copyright.PENANAR3KiJh9EuK
And with a smile I oppened the gate to my new beggining.
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Eh? Eh? I rewrote it per LDF's extreemly awesome constructive critisism, now I hope it's a bit more realistic. I know its shorter than before, but I started and it ran away from me. Because of my inspiration, I might make this multi-chapter, but it will take a long time. 756Please respect copyright.PENANAk6aXAmC7j2
See you next time!756Please respect copyright.PENANAhtx3Z4IIPH
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