As crazy as it seemed, I wanted to go back inside. Even after all I went through, going back was looking more and more appealing. The outside world was just too different for me to handle. 861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrW1BwCHqj
My cube is all i'd ever known.
There was so much. Just too much. I couldn't deal with it. 861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsvcnnlYJD
My body froze up and I looked around for any sign of danger. My senses became more sensitive as I grew more parenoid. I had no idea what I was getting into. And I had no idea how traumatizing it would be. I just had to be free.
I had no idea there would be crisp white snow that painfully recalled memories that I had buried deep inside my mind. 861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxcSILC1TQ
Memories of perfect white lab coats. 861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjZ5Ezvxjq
'White cloth walking just out of reach from my bound hands, coldly looking at me from afar.'861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDGfuYTmewU
Memories of blue gloves that smelled of the unpleasant combonation of rubber and disinfectant. 861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRk74PzaMYs
'Blue fingers reaching out to me. Hope that I will be saved, right before the betrayal and torcher.'861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvwUpdHpkkJ
Memories of white masks covering things unknown to me.861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZwh1whHahF
'The smooth curve of cheek, the unexpresive porceline mask. Never knowing white lies under there.'861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQ2xTRAbE0
Trees that's ragged branches that lurked with dangerous unfamiliarity.861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNBoWgw2hs
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Skies that spread out endlessly making you feel as small and insignificant as the stars that shone above without purpose.861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobMRNIgYNx
'Uselessness'861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡggI94xck1o
And gusts of wind that felt like daggars piercing through your skin out in the cold November air.861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡugMupjVRHR
And I was only wearing a thin brown covering. Nothing decent enough to wear out in the middle of the winter.861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZB1GPt1CN3
I sat down and brought my knees to my chest, hugging them close to my body out of shock and in reaction to the unpleasant change in weather. Trying to process everything I was taking in at the time.861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQsDkCM0NTE
After a few seconds I jumped back up again, glaring at the pure white that covered the ground, momentarily distracted from how scary the outside world was.861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmO2iq34V4e
I laughed bitterly at how similar snow was to the Bleach Coats I had known so well. 861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstDMStqPCm
They were both perfect. So, so, untainted. As if mocking my dirty, scruffy apperance. And they were both so cold and emotionless. A perfect match.861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUDZnAOOw7s
But then my eyes grew wide with realization. I was outside. Finally. After all this time, I was free from my confinement. From my safe cell. My cube. I knew every nook and crany. It was so... familiar. Was I sure that I wanted to leave that and explore a world of danger and recklesness? 861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhnRqBmiWjK
I took a step back due to my second thoughts and twirled around to face the cement building I just escaped from.861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaiNmwHlxx8
I saw a blurr of boring grey in the shape of a large square through the misty evening air. It was the same bland colour as I grew up with, but it was broken.861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapVXdaeSby
It had cracks and dents. It had chiped paint and dry, Autumn leaves scattered here and there. It had old cigarette buds and the distinct smell of urine. To put it simply, it was beautiful.861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMIKHuxc07g
Was this what the outside world look like? Was everything imperfect? My face strtched into a smile at the thought of broken, run-down buildings.861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIIuO8D57oM
And with that, I ran. 861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20gU6doCCl
I relished in the feeling of the wind wipping my hair around, despite the the chattering of my teeth or the numbness in my bear feet.861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgbtD8AnPG
I ran and ran and ran until stopping before a wire gate. The gate separating me and my freedom.
You may think that I was free the moment I stepped out of that building, but I wasn't free from myself. I was still trapped in my insecurities. Even though I knew that even after passing through that gate, I would still be cautious and paranoid, I could be free. Truly free. 861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpI3HzFoZvE
And with a smile I oppened the gate to my new beggining.
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Eh? Eh? I rewrote it per LDF's extreemly awesome constructive critisism, now I hope it's a bit more realistic. I know its shorter than before, but I started and it ran away from me. Because of my inspiration, I might make this multi-chapter, but it will take a long time. 861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0apCMDeqW
See you next time!861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkYlI1oyOYO
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