方詠維似乎是第一次來汽車旅館,等待的過程中,他表現得有些侷促不安。雖然他面不改色地看著Instagram,我可以從他鏡片的反射裡看到他不斷地刷著那些限時動態,每一則都沒有細看,他就只是眼神渙散,任由那些光影迅速滑過眼前。三不五時,他會抬手撓撓癢。他緊張時習慣摳他下顎稜線上的痘疤,已經是很久的習慣,我一看就曉得他的心理狀態。29Please respect copyright.PENANA3zPFTArCDN
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他坐在床緣,我走到他面前,伸手將襯衫的鈕扣一顆一顆慢慢解開,再來是皮帶和褲頭。直到我全身赤裸著,只穿一條內褲,站在方詠維的面前,他仍然沒有抬頭。29Please respect copyright.PENANA5v1pqFo7VZ
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「方詠維,把衣服脫掉。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAf5c59zvIe0
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我察覺到自己快要按捺不住耐心,對他語氣不善。29Please respect copyright.PENANAWmWTohRwIX
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「我也要脫?」29Please respect copyright.PENANACCuvJR1icM
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方詠維滿臉疑問。我深吸一口氣,揉了揉太陽穴,我需要acetaminophen。29Please respect copyright.PENANAPzeVAN4ibh
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「⋯⋯求你了。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAPAaxE9OSrU
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這是請求,雖然被我講得有點像威脅。認識他超過十年,我從來沒求過他。29Please respect copyright.PENANAzHMk0BQpk5
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我和方詠維從還在醫學院時就認識了。剛入學沒多久,前室友就偷帶Omega回寢室過夜,於是我與前室友在雙人房大打出手——其實只有推搡,然後釋放費洛蒙針鋒相對。我和前室友都是級別高的Alpha,濃烈的費洛蒙不只噁心了彼此,也順帶噁心了整個五樓的Alpha,很快我們就被檢舉,並在交流版被公審了三天三夜。29Please respect copyright.PENANAUZWFR6Vt8B
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方詠維被調了過來,宿委會的學長放話,方詠維是全年級脾氣最好的Beta,如果再跟他起爭執,我就準備被退宿。29Please respect copyright.PENANAIWEXxIt8oc
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我早就知道方詠維,只是跟他不太熟。他是我們這屆醫學系的系代,在系上是個享譽盛名的老好人。29Please respect copyright.PENANAwkEWCGdaCZ
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「段昕,你回來啦。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAY3sgII7gnn
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我一回宿舍,就看到方詠維拉著堆滿紙箱的推車。他很矮小,大概不到一米七,抬著那些裝滿書的箱子進房間,似乎非常費勁。我沈默地繞過他,坐回自己的桌前。29Please respect copyright.PENANAJBnIimDZJA
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「之後就是我跟你住了,你有什麼雷點嗎?」方詠維一邊拆紙箱,一邊向我熱情的攀談。我掛上抗噪耳機,調大音樂,徹底把他的噪音隔絕於外。29Please respect copyright.PENANAKbOmg1X6y1
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得不到回答,方詠維好像也意識不到——我壓根不想跟他做朋友。畢竟這整個醫學院,大概沒有人不想做方詠維的朋友,連我們系上那幾個沒人想靠近的怪咖,都會在方詠維靠近時給他騰出座位。29Please respect copyright.PENANA1saJleSLws
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方詠維收拾完行李後,點了點我的肩膀。我不耐煩地轉頭,他轉著鑰匙,一臉笑容。他永遠都在笑,我實在不懂他在笑三小。29Please respect copyright.PENANAOp4z95R7wO
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「等等我們一起去吃飯吧?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAXrarRWQEXn
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「不用了。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAD3ZY5FRmHS
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「你有機車嗎?在高雄沒有車很麻煩吧?你是哪裡人?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAbD9aTOznfj
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「沒車。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAmuOLUdrsJY
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「喔,那我載你去晃晃啊。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAieQCm8fXmX
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方詠維的車鑰匙上掛了史努比的吊飾,在我面前不斷旋轉。29Please respect copyright.PENANAXsn9a8qXZK
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煩人的狗。29Please respect copyright.PENANAEtmMvRjnDg
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我承認最一開始不想跟方詠維做朋友,或許有點幼稚,我討厭那些萬人迷。沒錯,方詠維人見人愛,他做對一切事情,來映襯我這種人的不對。29Please respect copyright.PENANAgytv4sPfQn
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自從我跟前室友不合、上了交流版,加上前室友煽風點火後,全系對我的評價就是——一個脾氣很差的Alpha。在人際圈逐漸成形的過程,我就先被排除於外,沒人想跟我社交的結果是——我非常快樂,真心地,非常快樂。就連去學餐吃飯,旁邊都沒人想坐,非常幽靜清閒。29Please respect copyright.PENANAkrCZXEnyNO
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必修課前,我趴在教室後排想補眠,前面卻聚集一小群人,正在嘰嘰喳喳八卦系上的事,吵得我無法休息。29Please respect copyright.PENANAnsIVqNigQ9
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「段昕是在跩什麼啊?」29Please respect copyright.PENANA0jMV0UUTPJ
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我的名字鑽進耳裡。29Please respect copyright.PENANA2ENrfcGrTP
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我覺得正好,他們都是一群俗辣,只要知道我剛好在教室裡,八成就會尷尬得鳥獸散。我決定釋放一點費洛蒙,提醒他們這群軟跤蝦。29Please respect copyright.PENANA6UoPjF8Jnm
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「詠維你不是他室友嗎?你受得了他?」29Please respect copyright.PENANA0slV5RGIG8
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「我覺得沒有啦,不要這樣講,他就只是比較喜歡安靜。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAMmKGygn0gW
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熟悉的聲音傳來,我才注意到方詠維也在其中。我抬眼,恰巧與他對視。他抬手向我打招呼,似乎不在意與我牽扯上關係,他的社交評價會跟著降低。29Please respect copyright.PENANAkfSzTJbciD
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方詠維那種爛好人,被我在宿舍無視了幾天,熱臉貼我的冷屁股,他也能替我講好話。29Please respect copyright.PENANAY23HdVkSMJ
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下課後,方詠維甚至主動走到我座位旁,依舊是笑臉盈盈。29Please respect copyright.PENANACBlsynA88a
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「一起吃午餐?我載你去校外吃。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAhOcd2QmHMu
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這傢伙對載人到底有什麼執念,他不會覺得會騎摩托車很了不起吧?29Please respect copyright.PENANAnFMAIsYqj0
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我懷疑他會沒完沒了地邀請我。29Please respect copyright.PENANAoiq183tRrs
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我開始懷疑方詠維有Saviour complex(救世主情結),他把我當沒有朋友的邊緣小可憐,他想拯救我,從而獲得某種滿足感。他不曉得我最煩他這種自戀型人格障礙,他要扮瑪莉亞是他的事,但別在我身上找人生意義。29Please respect copyright.PENANA17I0jVTGll
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但是他也不是只想救我,他想救全世界。他是我見過最努力的Beta,也是最聖母的,他把筆記整理到雲端硬碟上,然後分享到班級群組裡,一整排訊息都在「謝主隆恩」。29Please respect copyright.PENANA3pVwEfGJI9
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我倒是覺得方詠維有病,我跟他都很在乎成績,經常挑燈夜戰。他就這樣讓其他人蹭他的筆記?這事關我的排名,我當然討厭他的聖母行徑。29Please respect copyright.PENANABBIAMnSHoy
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為了保持名列前茅,我只好更加努力熬夜苦讀。然後在期末考當天,光榮病倒。29Please respect copyright.PENANA6iO9SkwPnu
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我高燒不退,卻不願意成績被打折,拖著病體上戰場考有機化學。剛出考場,眼前一片暈眩,下一秒我便倒在走廊上。聽到巨響,方詠維急急忙忙跑出教室,矮小的他抬不動將近一米九的我,只能喊人幫忙。29Please respect copyright.PENANAZ80Llz9TgV
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「段昕⋯⋯」29Please respect copyright.PENANAPQmSzDco8f
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再次醒來,我已經躺在我們學校的附設醫院,方詠維緊握著我的手,終於沒了笑容,滿臉都是擔憂。29Please respect copyright.PENANA1xSdXY9xYP
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「都是你。」我忍不住埋怨,但方詠維不曉得前因後果,聽不懂我在說什麼,只當我在胡言亂語。他認真地坐在病床旁削蘋果,然後將叉著切好的、一口大小的蘋果,直接遞到我的嘴邊。29Please respect copyright.PENANAjrcyqszseX
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「你要注意身體,以後是要當醫生的人,怎麼可以先病倒。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAc4NFXotfjI
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我閉上眼睛無視他,只希望他趕緊滾。滾離我的病房,滾出我的生活。29Please respect copyright.PENANAcFWu8L2wb5
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然而,方詠維沒有如我所願,相反地,他佔據了我整個青春。29Please respect copyright.PENANAxGjgJQJmi8
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方詠維雖然老愛碎念我的生活習慣不健康,但基因優勢擺在那,我其實身強體壯,隨便鍊都有肌肉。29Please respect copyright.PENANAl1yF7LRBk6
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方詠維才是缺乏鍛鍊的人,他在宿舍換衣服時,我瞥見過他的身材,骨瘦如柴。我從來沒見過他這麼瘦弱的人,他的皮下脂肪很少,肋骨非常明顯。29Please respect copyright.PENANAcfFh0OALhK
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主流審美的確喜歡纖細的人,但他屬於瘦到很難看的那種。29Please respect copyright.PENANAsqmQpXh3ci
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從外貌、性別到個性,都完全不是我的菜。方詠維還讀O性主義,他書架上都是性別相關的書。我大學的時候,真的有點討厭O性主義者。29Please respect copyright.PENANAgmV91pVAwN
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他佔據了我的生活,純粹是因為他死纏爛打。我以為他頂多撐一個學期,但他撐了十年,這件事始終是個謎。29Please respect copyright.PENANAPptaNh3DKc
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我對自己很有自知之明,我是個爛人。29Please respect copyright.PENANA8LzAqJaLG2
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與我相反,方詠維是個做對所有事的人,雖然我講了這麼多他的壞話,但我承認,他就是那種你不得不為他鼓掌的人。他出身貧寒,一路拿獎學金讀書,還兼職家教,供養他讀美術班的妹妹,他考醫學院是為了階級翻轉,但同時也胸懷懸壺濟世的理想。他是個醫科生,但他關心性別議題,甚至在平權NGO當倡議志工。29Please respect copyright.PENANA8lSx3ESK2d
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我不知道他幹嘛對我好。29Please respect copyright.PENANA1HzhqIfjMJ
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我能確定他對我絕對沒有企圖。雖然我個性很爛,但憑藉著臉、身高、頂級的費洛蒙,也被不少Omega或Beta追求。我知道他不是在追我,他看我的眼神清澈無比。29Please respect copyright.PENANAaH2ZCvNodj
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真的是個謎。29Please respect copyright.PENANAKJyNOrLRkQ
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這種不確定性讓我抗拒。其實我寧願他對我有所圖,我就可以順其自然地厭惡他。我就可以無視他會幫我帶早餐、借我筆記、幫我佔座位、轉發好笑影片逗我、載我去忠烈祠看夜景、邀請我去看他彈貝斯、跨年拉我在校園裡偷玩仙女棒。29Please respect copyright.PENANA2d94YRZOig
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方詠維三十歲當上了小兒科的主治醫生。29Please respect copyright.PENANAcJaxkEQu8i
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他還是樂此不疲地約我吃飯,即使我們的經濟水準提升不少,最常吃的還是醫院的地下美食街。但方詠維不用再騎小綿羊載我了,他買了車,雖然是個Beta,副駕駛座的手套箱拉開,擺滿氣味中和劑跟抑制貼片,不知情的人或許會以為他有交往對象,但就只是他有個Alpha好友。29Please respect copyright.PENANALtxbkwdiOp
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那天,我們又去地下美食街覓食。一群嘰嘰喳喳的不分科住院醫生也在,我皺起了眉頭,社交達人方詠維看到認識的學弟妹,眼神發亮地湊過去。我只好端著餐盤,跟在方詠維的後面。29Please respect copyright.PENANAvCTmuLculd
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「方學長怎麼樣?他不是對你很好嗎?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAFEB3l1VKil
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「他是個Beta,而且他五五身、又長得⋯⋯不怎麼樣。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAqnfC17B1Ao
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一個有病的Omega和周圍的朋友正巧談論著方詠維,方詠維肯定是聽到了,他腳步一滯。然而,那個Omega恰巧抬起頭,和當事人對上了眼。29Please respect copyright.PENANAxiFNvNSbsN
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方詠維卻笑得跟沒事一樣,將餐盤放在了Omega身旁的空位。29Please respect copyright.PENANAiCEkoqWRzA
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「你們在說誰啊?這麼巧,我也五五身。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAYbVsGXSfjr
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「矮子到底要怎麼穿搭?你們能不能教教學長,我上次看你們出去玩的限動,每個人都好會穿搭耶。」29Please respect copyright.PENANADj8RnmhqAh
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許是方詠維表現得太過自然,原先面帶尷尬的眾人,臉色都漸漸緩和。很快,大家你一言我一語地聊著穿搭。29Please respect copyright.PENANA0Y3fL6gjaa
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方詠維什麼時候在乎穿搭了?我認識他十年多,他就算三十歲了,私底下也只穿帽T棉褲,還是大學就開始穿的那幾件。而且,那個有病的Omega才剛說方詠維五五身又不好看,方詠維還在對他笑臉盈盈,一聲聲溫柔地喊「文里學弟」。29Please respect copyright.PENANAkrD62A6zja
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不知道是「文里學弟」,還是社交模式的方詠維,哪個更倒胃口。總之我沒心情吃飯,隨便扒個兩口就上樓了。29Please respect copyright.PENANAUydffhJe9C
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宋文里來我們科的時候,我當然沒給他好臉色。客觀來說,他是一個長相不錯的Omega。他輕易得到所有人的喜愛,包括方詠維。29Please respect copyright.PENANAdY9YJLThdk
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方詠維開始送咖啡給我跟宋文里,不知道誰是順帶的那一個,但他給兩個人都貼了便條紙,還一天到晚畫圖在上頭,非常有閒情逸致。29Please respect copyright.PENANAt6L019gCdi
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那天方詠維臨時有手術,所以托了小兒科的林醫師送咖啡來。29Please respect copyright.PENANAwyUkcc4uzE
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一杯咖啡上畫了貓咪,另一杯咖啡上畫了狼。林醫師很自然就將前者給了宋文里,後者遞給了我。29Please respect copyright.PENANAbuAPDioyHe
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「老方好有才!小宋是貓咪,段醫師是狼,真可愛。」林醫師端詳著便條紙上的塗鴉,掩著嘴輕笑。29Please respect copyright.PENANAFFsiLgnnWg
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宋文里喝了一口熱咖啡,結果像個白癡一樣被燙到。29Please respect copyright.PENANAmyx82HdlIf
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「小宋小心點啊,原來你有貓舌。」29Please respect copyright.PENANA6o1WK4o2Au
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「謝謝。」29Please respect copyright.PENANA9shPT8zdKP
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林醫師友善地拍了拍宋文里,又延續著動物的話題:「不知道老方會覺得自己像什麼動物?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAq8lxfPl05b
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「嗯⋯⋯學長像⋯⋯狗狗?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAp9u29cs49Z
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宋文里認真思考這個蠢話題的樣子,令人看了煩躁。方詠維又不是你的舔狗,我在心裡咒罵。29Please respect copyright.PENANAW91TNJR2xu
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「狗貓絕配,好可愛啊!」29Please respect copyright.PENANAXwy3AkeYjw
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林醫師合起手掌,笑得瞇起雙眼。我知道這傢伙又在腦中意淫方詠維跟宋文里的配對了。我撕掉便條紙,塞進白袍的口袋,冷冷地打斷他們:29Please respect copyright.PENANAoF49lvd3y9
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「好好當個人吧。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAs2dGuw1nTO
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我以為宋文里對方詠維沒有意思,才沒有接林醫師的話。直到晚上,我上了方詠維的車,發現車裡一股香味。29Please respect copyright.PENANAoZvhScUwaM
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我的嗅覺很靈敏,自然聞得出,英國梨、小蒼蘭、琥珀、廣藿香⋯⋯這麼複雜的味道自然是人工香精,不是人體的費洛蒙,因此噴費洛蒙中和劑是沒有用的,我只能任由這股氣味肆虐。29Please respect copyright.PENANAbLN7mvNn4e
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「噴香水了?」29Please respect copyright.PENANApvEgJE7pMb
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察覺到我的不悅,方詠維搖下車窗,讓風吹進車內散味。29Please respect copyright.PENANATKUs9MQ7qi
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「對。」29Please respect copyright.PENANACsuDfbEEBM
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「為什麼突然噴香水?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAhEY0KFH6vD
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「喔,別人送的。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAw6KgtVykrZ
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我馬上想起宋文里,雖然不知道他費洛蒙的具體味道,但我記得是花香調,八成會是小蒼蘭。29Please respect copyright.PENANAPUiqohBhn4
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「停路邊。」29Please respect copyright.PENANA7gropgxEuo
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方詠維訝異地轉頭看我,「這不是費洛蒙,你也有排斥反應?」29Please respect copyright.PENANA6oAfrdQKeE
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「停到路邊,放我下車。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAfvEIBITk6D
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「你不喜歡這味道,以後載你就不噴了。」29Please respect copyright.PENANArZWBzyKNuz
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方詠維好脾氣地哄我,我自己也知道我沒道理,純屬易感期鬧脾氣。29Please respect copyright.PENANARkqBoByn3K
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但我去他媽的小蒼蘭。我仍舊冷著一張臉,什麼話也沒說,方詠維嘆了一口氣。29Please respect copyright.PENANAIHAZZ1nGAA
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「至少載你到捷運站,現在尖峰時段不好叫車。」29Please respect copyright.PENANANdJpGYgxDI
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方詠維把我放在捷運站入口,我甩上車門就走了。29Please respect copyright.PENANALPV82zBZOL
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我只想狠狠做愛,咬爛別人的脖子,把陰莖插進某具身體,把精液射進去。29Please respect copyright.PENANAqbkLTgbbys
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打完手槍之後,我的腦袋終於不再只是那些白花花的、豐腴的肉體。29Please respect copyright.PENANA1Fja1MrUyl
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我打了一通電話給方詠維,我知道不用跟他道歉,找藉口請他吃個飯,他又會跟我和好如初。29Please respect copyright.PENANAgPTJgbjy9K
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「喂,你在哪?要不要吃宵?」29Please respect copyright.PENANA99pkwGTHyt
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「我在醫院。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAxSqIFaKcgF
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畢竟方詠維也是醫生,他在醫院沒有什麼好奇怪的,我接著開口:29Please respect copyright.PENANAqMzYYgPpwp
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「我去找你?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAdJiwQXhMzp
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「文里住院了,我沒心情。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAAjGHsmn3Bq
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「什麼?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAehfUkoVAVf
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方詠維語氣很低落,我隔著電話都能想像他憔悴的樣子。方詠維向我解釋,宋文里發情期來了,因為注射抑制劑,引發嚴重型皮膚藥物過敏。29Please respect copyright.PENANAnu2IUpdplB
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「他長這麼大不知道自己抑制劑過敏嗎?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAdVeakR5YEY
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我沒那個意思,但話語一出,就像在譴責宋文里。29Please respect copyright.PENANAUj0xcmjajT
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「你別這樣講話,他真的不知道,他之前一直有Alpha男友。」方詠維難得的不開心,他頓了一下,最後還是坦白:29Please respect copyright.PENANA9hQMCNwyOz
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「他是因為跟我交往,只好靠抑制劑。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAAHEKKw0S8h
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我其實並不是沒想過這天,方詠維三十了,總要成家立業。29Please respect copyright.PENANAzSdfGI7iWA
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他作為我唯一的朋友,我的確是對他有些,稍微不太正常的獨佔欲。但這也不能怪我,只能怪我的基因。29Please respect copyright.PENANAvkDLv6BESn
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對方詠維有獨佔欲實在是最蠢的選擇,方詠維會借所有人他的筆記,他的後座也可以載任何需要的同學,甚至連那些搞笑影片,他都是群發。在蛛絲馬跡裡尋找自己的特殊性,是我倖存的方法。29Please respect copyright.PENANANJxrO0OOc8
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或是乾脆就怪罪他的殘忍,然後把身為一個Beta,卻交了一個抑制劑過敏的Omega男友這件事,當作上天對他的懲罰。29Please respect copyright.PENANASBl8P9BtDh
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「所以你們沒分手?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAkx93h6HuNI
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宋文里住在我們科的病房,方詠維天天都上來探病,我終於忍不住把他堵在樓梯間。29Please respect copyright.PENANArszGSyyDcV
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他的黑眼圈很顯眼,整個人似乎又變得更加消瘦,連臉頰都凹陷下去。29Please respect copyright.PENANAagArXp5uQj
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「⋯⋯大概會吧。」29Please respect copyright.PENANA9LfwScZBWp
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還沒分手,但大概快分了。我不知道他們在堅持什麼。我倚在牆邊,手指摸進白袍口袋,搓著一張摺好的白紙,努力按捺自己的煩躁感。29Please respect copyright.PENANA7X9Rue2TFb
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「你們申請Alpha社工了嗎?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAGMQJgid5r7
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「嗯,但不知道要排多久,你也知道,社工供需不平衡。」29Please respect copyright.PENANA4ESG9JiXY4
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方詠維一屁股坐在樓梯上,將臉埋進掌心,他的聲音因此變形:29Please respect copyright.PENANAjLOXjF7kc0
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「段醫師,告訴我吧,我到底該怎麼辦?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAGfR6EFuVni
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我深吸一口氣,煙癮突然泛起,要知道我可是很久沒抽了,我忍不住抖著腳。29Please respect copyright.PENANAKNMpCF9ADd
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「兩個辦法。一,分手,讓他去找一個Alpha。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAL35i1EAHLz
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方詠維顯然思考過這個辦法,只是淺嘆了一口氣。29Please respect copyright.PENANA7Ow55ukMjO
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「第二個呢?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAy0GI0SNOsC
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他八成是在等我提出什麼先進的療法,沒有。很遺憾這方面也沒有邁入臨床試驗階段的新藥,甚至連抑制劑都是近年剛上市的。29Please respect copyright.PENANAYAfs2qf0gB
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「二,考慮我。」29Please respect copyright.PENANABwop0DGnxr
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我把口袋裡的白紙掏出來,在他面前甩開。29Please respect copyright.PENANAgS2cGfenTW
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——宋文里和我的費洛蒙檢驗報告,兩人適配度90%。29Please respect copyright.PENANAPvk7X99PbD
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如果方詠維跟宋文里不想分手,我或許不是唯一的選擇,但絕對是最好的。我身強體壯、定期體檢、跟宋文里適配度極高,我們可以做比較少次的性接觸,就達到相對高的費洛蒙融合度。29Please respect copyright.PENANAfZhJPvX5v8
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再者,Alpha標記Omega之後,會因為費洛蒙的融合產生依賴現象,這也是為什麼這麼少人投入社工這行。但我絕對不會愛上宋文里,我分得清楚本能跟真心,其他Alpha倒未必。29Please respect copyright.PENANAUwIp6u2E12
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當然對宋文里來說,跟方詠維分手,再去找個Alpha交往,是最快、最安全的方法。所以聽說是宋文里說服想分手的方詠維後,我感到十分訝異。29Please respect copyright.PENANAiOwCAJP2Mn
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我們可能都發瘋了。29Please respect copyright.PENANAzrJolbmLKS
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方詠維似乎是第一次來汽車旅館,我懷疑他是個處男。我刻意走到他面前脫衣服,居高臨下地盯著坐在床緣的他,將他的侷促不安盡收眼底。29Please respect copyright.PENANA3auaRYsorX
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「方詠維,把衣服脫掉。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAMLmPcucrcu
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「我也要脫?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAVmOtofWGnC
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他滿臉疑惑,我只好開口求他脫。但他似乎今天要徹頭徹尾當個局外人,只是坐在原地不動。29Please respect copyright.PENANAcHaC2Cwdod
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「你難不成打算衣冠楚楚地坐在一旁,看我跟你男朋友,像野獸一樣做愛嗎?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAaTUhcCmDVR
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我講了狠話,方詠維愣住了,半晌才開始動作,他顫慄的手指按上鈕扣,花了很久才解開最上面那顆。29Please respect copyright.PENANAvkStcz21Di
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「阿昕。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAxWxkAw3Bc7
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他叫喚我,我還是心軟了,屈膝跪在他面前。29Please respect copyright.PENANA57XAT6RVHx
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「方詠維,現在還來得及後悔。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAjT6621r4Ek
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他沈默地解開所有扣子,用行動表示,他不後悔。29Please respect copyright.PENANA05T5lA4Ioh
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他的身體還是骨瘦如柴,我用手指輕輕觸碰他的肋骨,他嚇了一跳,卻還是任由我觸摸。29Please respect copyright.PENANAwFHopeQrbo
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「你太瘦了。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAazuVcQ07U1
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他轉頭看向打開的浴室門,我追隨著他的視線,宋文里穿著浴袍出來,露出白皙纖長的腿。29Please respect copyright.PENANAFEu5h1POkf
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宋文里爬上了雙人床,從背後將方詠維解開的襯衫褪下,然後環抱方詠維。方詠維好像到了極限,緩緩閉上雙眼,顫抖的眼睫濕潤。29Please respect copyright.PENANAQs96dMYJJU
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「對文里溫柔一點。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAxMffGqUrFN
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宋文里隔著方詠維的肩頭盯著我,與其說是挑釁,更不如說是憐憫的眼神。要不是方詠維在場,我可能會揍他。29Please respect copyright.PENANAzCPG4Rn1ej
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其實我知道方詠維不會喜歡我做愛的方式——又dom又S。29Please respect copyright.PENANA0yVXf8CuyR
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跟他認識十年多,他滿口宰制與權力不對等,我當然知道他信奉什麼想法,他會覺得,我把施虐情色化不能改變支配與暴力。我不會在他面前提自己的性癖以供他批判,也沒想過有天會跟他上同一張床。29Please respect copyright.PENANAj2uoINBNFJ
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現在是他需要利用我。29Please respect copyright.PENANAo3x3zSc5p4
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方詠維靠在床頭,宋文里趴在方詠維懷裡。宋文里其實也偏瘦,背脊骨很明顯,他跟方詠維像兩把柴禾疊在一起。29Please respect copyright.PENANAYYqqwOEnHo
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宋文里翹高渾圓的屁股,那是他身上唯一有肉的地方。29Please respect copyright.PENANAdAoVOXIAD7
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「進來。」宋文里命令式的語氣令我不悅,所以我扇了他的屁股一巴掌,很快留下清晰的掌印。29Please respect copyright.PENANAEXlHgrqwfx
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「阿昕,不要欺負他。」方詠維抓住我的手。29Please respect copyright.PENANAUQ47JIlQmv
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方詠維一邊討厭我的宰制本能,一邊利用我的身體,但我還是將手指插進他的指縫,跟方詠維十指交扣。29Please respect copyright.PENANA9QbIhVH7Rf
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我拿他真的沒辦法。29Please respect copyright.PENANARCfzzKuUIV
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宋文里倒是很快進入狀況,他掰開自己的臀縫,語氣放軟。29Please respect copyright.PENANAs4uHiLUiY7
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「學長,請進來吧。」29Please respect copyright.PENANA47d6LvWUHw
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我沒有繼續為難宋文里,在方詠維面前對他男朋友dirty talk,方詠維絕對會崩潰。29Please respect copyright.PENANAdIuN9wiGay
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另一隻手扶著宋文里的腰,我從背後插入他,他身子一直顫抖。我感受到他其實不夠濕,就要我插進去。29Please respect copyright.PENANAvq5I36Ybib
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我意識到,方詠維把我的屌當一根按摩棒,宋文里把我的屌當成——自殘的兇器。29Please respect copyright.PENANAc2WeG6MWN1
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「文里、文里⋯⋯」29Please respect copyright.PENANAMBUJ2Cbfxu
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方詠維察覺懷裡的宋文里在顫抖,不斷以吻安撫著宋文里。29Please respect copyright.PENANAY8daqyjezF
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「文里⋯⋯」29Please respect copyright.PENANAmQ1GZi1iJW
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「詠維哥⋯⋯」29Please respect copyright.PENANAnVdoJpIC9K
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「文里,痛不痛?」29Please respect copyright.PENANADRPBpzO0Q2
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「不行了詠維哥⋯⋯」29Please respect copyright.PENANAY15j9oiSqn
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對宋文里施暴式的猛插最終還是得到了Omega身體的接納,他的小穴逐漸濕潤,他被逼上了高潮,腸道一陣收縮,將深埋其中的那根陰莖死死絞緊。他後頸的腺體被咬破,威士忌和小蒼蘭的味道在汽車旅館內交融。29Please respect copyright.PENANANeD2mJeC86
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這一切就這樣完成了。29Please respect copyright.PENANATtY5OK9HPI
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即使我好像,不覺得自己在這裡。29Please respect copyright.PENANAEgS0FhRyBB
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被退房的電話鈴聲喚醒,已經是隔天的中午。方詠維跟宋文里都要回醫院上班,我一個人躺在旅館的大床上。29Please respect copyright.PENANAm1pnPQOtoW
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我輕輕撫平床單的皺褶,明白那裡已經沒有餘下的體溫。29Please respect copyright.PENANARS5kTMGOLf
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陽光照進網膜,微微的刺痛感讓我生理性地分泌淚水。床緣是兩雙紙拖鞋,一次性的、可拋棄的。29Please respect copyright.PENANAMKAdg02nT3
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新的一年打算寫五個ABO短篇,並帶來性別不同的幾種配對,這次是AB!29Please respect copyright.PENANAR7KzFuwltG
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希望能在段昕沒有一句喜歡或愛的狀況下,描寫出他對方詠維的情感與痛苦迷惘29Please respect copyright.PENANAGWrk7hnIGh
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