我知道他會叫我的名字,然後在課堂上要我念出第一篇課文,這樣他便馬上能知道我是誰。41Please respect copyright.PENANANdrGVfvoOV
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周志明老師。41Please respect copyright.PENANAo4qxKKV8qw
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可是他頂不懂我的,我很不喜歡人們把目光放在我身上,甚至是討厭的。41Please respect copyright.PENANAKsin6Y6jjb
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可是為了避免讓其他人知道我對之前那位教中文的老師特別偏好,所以周SIR的堂,我還是有 好好的上。41Please respect copyright.PENANA2833uy9TDN
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對,我只是對文學有興趣,而不是對誰。41Please respect copyright.PENANAmiAhTlMNip
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騙誰呢?41Please respect copyright.PENANAMpzTGEYmFj
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只是,我把時間更加集中在拜庭上,對別人可有可無的態度更加明顯。41Please respect copyright.PENANA3xnwTBOUm8
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盛放的桂花,年月中消逝。41Please respect copyright.PENANAaGuZtGwjyS
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直到遍地金黃,天凝地閉。41Please respect copyright.PENANASsui9w0oqj
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足球同好會的課外活動依然持繼著,但老師好像知道我目的一樣,這年,安靜的垂立在他的位置裡,不來不往。41Please respect copyright.PENANATrQHukloML
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跟前世一模一樣。41Please respect copyright.PENANAyyjRUJPrGH
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我知道為什麼跟老師會在這年生疏了,因為他沒再理我,不再對我說笑,也不再主動問我情況。41Please respect copyright.PENANAAoq112p5Vr
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我對一個會冷待我的人,同樣是不會接近的。41Please respect copyright.PENANAUenBuoK21y
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就彷彿對我一切曾經的照顧和包容,都不過因為我是他當年所教的學生。41Please respect copyright.PENANAMsERHkTvhT
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當他不是了,我也就什麼都不是了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAuOz36cBpAO
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前世的我,第一次被他無視。41Please respect copyright.PENANAG2jBKN1W75
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所以他不會理解,我今年拿的最佳進步獎,全部的原因都是他。41Please respect copyright.PENANA6Y05Bunya4
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頂諷刺的。41Please respect copyright.PENANA9I0W8FdCqT
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那天范老著我去找他,說有人要介紹我認識。41Please respect copyright.PENANAgthy9AI1qs
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我問是誰,他電話說到了就知道。41Please respect copyright.PENANABhvDFW9BG5
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在我到達研究室時,他的助教說桑同學正在跟范老談話。41Please respect copyright.PENANAcEzCaZBrmG
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哦,原來是他。41Please respect copyright.PENANAuXAVDMzNcT
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我說知道了便坐在一旁等候。41Please respect copyright.PENANAJVRMQqtbiI
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不久後,助教便說教授讓我自己進去。41Please respect copyright.PENANAUw9bTpvugt
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這是我第一次見到他,雖然在前世我已經知道他的名字。41Please respect copyright.PENANAvt4wiqJXTy
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他是桑梓。41Please respect copyright.PENANAVbEECtb6av
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長著一副桀傲不馴的強悍。41Please respect copyright.PENANAyAIvniaeZI
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伏貼而清爽的短髮,精瘦且結實的身形,剪裁緊緻的黑色裇衫,貌似已經30歲左右。41Please respect copyright.PENANAOIgqH76ppE
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他有一雙像獵豹一樣的眼睛,跟他現在顯示的年紀格格不入,算上來他還比我年輕,可眼神都是久經風霜的沉澱。41Please respect copyright.PENANAczjH5w8G9V
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我不算一臉不解,畢竟大家都不約而同的來自同一個地方,只是我比他來得後。41Please respect copyright.PENANAOyKkPv8UeP
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范老說想我們雙方了解一下對方。41Please respect copyright.PENANA7rhsomuVN0
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【你是想牽紅線嗎?】桑梓瞪著我,一臉無解。41Please respect copyright.PENANA3MOL9S5EVT
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雖然這也是我想說的話,但我說不出口呀,畢竟我的未來都掌握在教授手中,萬一他糟心了,我就麻煩了,正好桑梓說了出來,我反而鬆一口氣。41Please respect copyright.PENANAMPT5N2udS1
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從小這樣,不高興不說話不拒絕,形勢比人低,只能沉默是金。41Please respect copyright.PENANAOWT80rBhya
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【發神經!】范老不理他,續說:【你們,我今次在這裡的20幾年來就只見過你們2個人,都算我掛名徒弟,外頭的人都認識你們倆,日後如果我突然走了你們都能有個照顧……】41Please respect copyright.PENANAQ9NRXcUtmb
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【什麼走了,范老你身體健壯著。】我說。41Please respect copyright.PENANABjGgsZbKih
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【我指我隨時都會回去!】他認真的道。41Please respect copyright.PENANALApAZLhVtC
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【回來都應該能見到我們的。】我脫口而出。41Please respect copyright.PENANAgiajyCYA4j
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【別傻,】范老說:【所有選擇都會影響下一個結果,或者我再回來也會遇到妳,但又或者是另一個時空正等待我的妳,這樣我不是我,妳也不是妳。所謂回到過去不是真的回到一模一樣的過去,因為只有過去是永恆的,而永恆本來就不存在,因此過去也是不存在的。】41Please respect copyright.PENANAmuNWwKfvC2
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【但那個實驗還沒準備好吧,】桑梓也坐了下來,似乎在書桌找著什麼文件資料:【怎樣看最快都要差不多30年,妳覺得呢?】41Please respect copyright.PENANAfwBxGZIoHs
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桑梓問我,我知道他問的是我的記憶。41Please respect copyright.PENANAu3yxJxFR6i
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我認真的去想:【不是在我快50歲的時候嗎?那個時間線,的確是差不多30年後。】
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【你們知道的都是已經成功了的了。】范老沒好氣:【在你們實驗前,我已經走了,明白嗎?走了,又回來了,所以才有人體試驗。】41Please respect copyright.PENANAu1btJehAjj
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你老來了又走,走了又來,三生三世,還打算繼續回去直到完全成功或者意外失敗那天嗎?41Please respect copyright.PENANA6SjL0Gdqog
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我知道我不可能阻止他。41Please respect copyright.PENANAghu8LbH7u4
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他的一生,就是為了這個實驗而存在,他配受人景仰,他配享萬年留芳。41Please respect copyright.PENANAMHslh11Ch2
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日後的科技成就表裡,范炳乾的名字一定會首屈一指。41Please respect copyright.PENANAEpToB1AzWb
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可是我這個人,一旦用情,即使是親情、友情,就會不捨得。41Please respect copyright.PENANArKzsoZPTJS
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范老看到我的樣子,歎了一口氣,向著桑梓道:【所以我才要把這丫頭交給你照顧。】41Please respect copyright.PENANA4oOul83EWu
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【你什麼意思?】桑梓挑起眉。41Please respect copyright.PENANAkkYupMtQ8V
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【因為你們都一樣,重情。】教授淡然的說:【你們2個都選擇了一條最痛苦的路,而這丫頭,始終是女生。】41Please respect copyright.PENANAncVJmv2Yzf
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始終是女生。41Please respect copyright.PENANAuAuv0ejIet
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我抿嘴。41Please respect copyright.PENANASzOr7Nv3Yo
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對,這世界,我最懷疑的就是支持男女平等的女人。41Please respect copyright.PENANAkO2XnmZl5r
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雖然我不至於是君為女蘿草,妾作菟絲花的程度,但女生天生感情細膩,如何能跟粗枝大葉的男性相比,也許某些行業女性的細心可以跟男性媲美,只是那真是很小眾的情況。41Please respect copyright.PENANAXuEa9g6UWh
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女人天生喜歡被照顧,被寵愛,慕強是女人的天性。41Please respect copyright.PENANAWG3h6uYzwe
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的確,我現在已經可以目空一切,可太傷情是最大的缺點。41Please respect copyright.PENANAXEqF39Ui6O
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心底,我最大的渴望的始終是能夠待在強者身邊,成為他的刀,成為他的劍,為他殺敵三千,為他擋兵三萬。41Please respect copyright.PENANAFHdxtveWqb
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岡生說過,我就像沒有刀套的村正,在尋找主人。41Please respect copyright.PENANAyYDiRWyLzw
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對強的追求很難形容,我從不主動近人,你若選擇靠近,如將來用我的認同來反傷害我,那就會成為出賣、背叛,會被反噬。41Please respect copyright.PENANAclpzbia8Gt
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因為經歷過,所以我很清楚。41Please respect copyright.PENANA6Un1kMTR0C
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沒有女人天生希望做女強人的。41Please respect copyright.PENANAfck35UqUga
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【或者您老走了,隔2、3天又死而復生回來了,像耶穌一樣,誰知道呢?】我覺得。41Please respect copyright.PENANAJKESjMPi8V
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【耶穌是時間旅行者的事,不是已經大家都知道了嗎?而且,回來的那個我,妳們又如何知道是這個我呢?可能是另一個平衡世界的另一個又或者是完全沒有經歷過你們的第一個。】范老說:【反正我說的是這樣,你們2個互相照顧就好,不要看桑梓正正常常,他的情況其實比妳繁雜很多,日後有機會,妳應該也能幫他一下。】41Please respect copyright.PENANAyQDe3zTtCl
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就這樣范老說了一點之後大概的情況便揮揮手叫我們離開。41Please respect copyright.PENANAIYiebKc9Tl
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我望了男人一眼,他什麼都沒有反駁。41Please respect copyright.PENANAQMeX4ZyarF
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離開大學後,桑梓親自開車帶我去他的「公司」。41Please respect copyright.PENANAzxlfv9x2vq
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灣仔,是我一直不想再接近的地方,桑梓把車駛入地下車庫後,示意我跟著他走。41Please respect copyright.PENANAPhQCmwB8S5
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我認得這地方,是木生之後工作的分店附近,桑梓直上20樓的酒吧,門竟然沒有鎖。41Please respect copyright.PENANATxXqREeE9y
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我小心翼翼的跟在桑梓背後,我曉得他開的車叫林寶堅尼,標誌的品牌螢光綠,很顯擺。
所以他很有錢。
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電梯一打開,他推開門讓我先進去。41Please respect copyright.PENANAECp8nevmzd
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我呼了一口氣。41Please respect copyright.PENANABws0AW6OMz
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普入眼,便是紅色跟金色的主調裝潢,中空樓底,內含副樓。馬蹄椅妥妥的立於主廳,四周三三兩兩的桌椅,眼看裡面應該還有一間間的私人房間,霧黑色的吧台長長的橫在側邊,還有那個圓形的舞台,將來放的是應該是鋼琴吧?41Please respect copyright.PENANAW2Bxm2P4Gk
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完完全全是我最入眼的審美。41Please respect copyright.PENANA9lwpovRQT7
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但這裡還沒有完全裝修好,店名仍然沒有掛上,甚至連一個員工也沒有。41Please respect copyright.PENANAZO34ebCl6n
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【這裡叫什麼名字嗎?】我問。41Please respect copyright.PENANA0sww147lA5
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【還沒想。】桑梓熟練的側著頭點煙,坐了在馬蹄椅內,他看了我一眼,指著旁邊的座位示意我隨便。41Please respect copyright.PENANAIHZtEu5x8Z
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我便坐了在他的對面。41Please respect copyright.PENANAKGz6pQGO5C
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他欣賞的點點頭,說:【自我定位還不錯。】41Please respect copyright.PENANAa00v1VumZ4
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我只能給予問號。41Please respect copyright.PENANA35fCIsyUaj
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【洛清璇第一次來這裡的時侯,她很刻意的坐了在我身邊……】桑梓抬起頭,呼出一片白霧:【她說她叫施璇兒。】41Please respect copyright.PENANARXwyRLwxZF
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我靜靜的聽完他的故事。41Please respect copyright.PENANAOazk4SmQFw
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而對方則自己去倒酒了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAul40d1bNg2
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隨著他的移動,我才看到雖然這裡還沒有完裝,但吧枱內的酒水卻離奇充足。41Please respect copyright.PENANABVH25jXqv5
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桑梓應該很多時都會躲在這裡懷緬吧?41Please respect copyright.PENANARFs8LefGXm
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或者,他的故事的確是沒有我的愛恨交織。41Please respect copyright.PENANAj0OuUDmL8Y
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但對於當事人而言,又或者對男人而言,愛情並非他回來的主要原因。41Please respect copyright.PENANAvjbW1tbfvO
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這就是男人和女人的分別,面對一個自己愛的人,會作出的一個不一樣的選擇。41Please respect copyright.PENANAj6cqQ3an6s
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女人選擇同生共死,而男人卻選擇推開對方。41Please respect copyright.PENANAjGkhvETJOx
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所以當我說了我的2個故事,他倒很老實的說:狗血。41Please respect copyright.PENANAkd0GmgKbzH
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電視劇都編不了,但若果真的發生在人身上,的確蠻辛酸的。41Please respect copyright.PENANAzJnYwL6Qk4
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桑梓說,一個人不肯接受別人對他好,一是因為他知道這個世界上再沒有人會無條件愛他,所以他比較會傾向等價交換作為交往條件;而第二種,是因為從來沒有人曾無條件愛他,所以他不理解什麼是表現愛的方式。41Please respect copyright.PENANAmXlmj5OumI
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桑梓問:【妳是那一種?】41Please respect copyright.PENANAEQYvDl7UWX
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【我二種都不是,】我想了想:【我完全不知道別人在對我好,他對我好?他對我怎好了,怎麼我自己都不知道?不是每個跟我相熟的人都是這樣對我的嗎?】41Please respect copyright.PENANAyExhKP4Cid
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【妳頂悲哀的。】桑梓感嘆:【妳難道沒有發覺每個跟妳相熟的男人,如果沒有利益關係,都是因為喜歡妳嗎?】41Please respect copyright.PENANAorcG1YvG8Y
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【那人也太多了吧?】我懷疑。41Please respect copyright.PENANAH6ap9oQgvI
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【喜歡妳不代表愛妳。】他澄清:【但非常相似。如果愛不只應用在男女感情上,那麽喜歡妳的人有嗎?】41Please respect copyright.PENANANNSa5iuZ54
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【沒有。】我說。
桑梓不解:【家人?】
【除了木生。】我低下頭:【連父母都覺得我應該可以為任何人犧牲,所有人都要我乖要我遷就別人。】
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【所以還是有人喜歡妳的,他那麼愛妳。】他沉默了一會,繼續解釋,但似乎更多的是安慰:【而妳說妳不知道以前其他人喜歡妳?真的嗎?】41Please respect copyright.PENANA9S1LDdxArc
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其實沒什麼好懷疑的,在那個人的時期,不是都盛傳了只有接觸過阿芙就會被她牽引的傳聞嗎?41Please respect copyright.PENANAV7PbWh6fF7
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甚至岡生,光明,永樂,ZZ,藍紜,闇影,小公主等等等等都說了,阿芙就是太陽本身,整個宇宙都圍繞著旋轉。41Please respect copyright.PENANAGAOwrcltiU
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除了GM,在那個FORUM中,沒有人比阿芙更有震撼性。41Please respect copyright.PENANAAcDEtvtEk1
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桑梓馬上指出重點:【問題就在這,妳不相信別人喜歡妳?】41Please respect copyright.PENANAauw4Qj4j1l
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我點頭。41Please respect copyright.PENANAfuwlhZnBV7
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【那為什麼這樣想?】41Please respect copyright.PENANAX5ls47yGFP
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【因為……】我放開了瞳孔:【因為他們最後都離開我了。】41Please respect copyright.PENANAesQbJGXZCF
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如果喜歡我,便該一直對我好。41Please respect copyright.PENANAqs9OxNQrI6
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如果沒有一直對我好,那就是不喜歡我。41Please respect copyright.PENANAGJpbcPUxcF
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喜歡我的人,他們最後全部都選擇離開了我。41Please respect copyright.PENANA3WSsoY1h1O
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我喜歡的人,結果最後依然全部選擇了別人。41Please respect copyright.PENANAlDXebZLfoB
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然後答案便出來了,他們最終都不是真的喜歡我。41Please respect copyright.PENANAKjcjlP14wK
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最後等於,本來喜歡我的人,最後都會不喜歡我,所以一開始,他們也不是真的喜歡我。41Please respect copyright.PENANAGpzZtXeX4o
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【所以妳本身首先就拒絕了人們喜歡妳的感受,妳覺得他們對妳的好是會消失的,因此妳會避開他們對妳的好,下意識直接無視和切斷這些感覺來保護妳的靈核免受傷害。
妳討厭去讓,但現實妳又不得不去讓。從前妳討厭自己活得卑微,卻又無法獨善其身。
當然,問題的最開始明顯是在妳老師身上的。】41Please respect copyright.PENANA06HOP65LNu
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對呀,因為他,所以我回來了。
【不想做老好人便不要做。】桑梓抬起頭:【妳其實很清楚妳回來是做什麼的。】41Please respect copyright.PENANAX2e49h1Cie