Paul and I met on line of April of 2008 and we had a lot in common from both having older parents well i just had a older dad but the funny thing he also had a sister named Karen and i am like what are the fucken odds of that happening well we spent 8 hrs talking on the computer and he was suppose to go with his parents to the gambling boat well the funny thing of it all was he fell asleep at the machines lol so we had are first date he picked me up and at the time he was living in Troy IL where he was basically from so he drove to my house and i gave him his first kiss in my parents drive way. Paul hide me from his parents and his ex wife for while from his ex wife and 4 and half years from his parents.5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡltJW508CD4
Then his ex wife was having problems in her marriage and what was fucked up about this shit was he had her move in with him with their kids and she was seeing someone on the side and i couldn't deal with it cause to me who in the fuck would let there ex wife move in with them with there kids so we broke up for 6 months cause he really did not spend anytime with me so 6 months went by and my mom dog had puppies and we had to get ride of them so my mom had me call around to see if anyone wanted a free puppy so his ex wife got one and Paul came to my mom house and he say me and he said he was sorry for what happen and my stupid ass for gave him and he told me that his ex wife moved out and went back to her husband and we got back together, I was working for home health care place and it was base out of Edwardsville it was that faraway from him so i would go and visit him from time to time but about 2 yrs of dating did pass and i asked him what about us moving in together and his reply was he could not afford it but yet he would drive to my house every other weekend or every weekend but things started to show he would call me up and play this game like i need to clean my house and put a guilt trip on me and my stupid ass would have him come and get me to clean it and i got tired of that bull shit i said you make me feel like i am only good for is to clean your fucken house but yet we can not live together then we took his kids and my son to a park close to my house and he met my son tho and i will never for get this he told me since my son was a big stocky kid and tall he told me that you really did not get to enjoy your kid i said what in the fuck does that pose to me and he said cause your kid is big i said my son was over 8lbs and my son was a bigger kid than your kids where and at this time i lost my shit on his ass by then and I will never for get when my son accidentally step in mud in the park Paul lost his fucken shit and was yelling at my kid and said hold up your getting pissed over mud it was a accident and i said we can wash it off some where and i pulled Paul aside i said you ever talk to my kid like that again and lose your shit over something stupid as that again we are fucken done. As time went on i was not sure about this relationship but then he gave me a fucken STD and thank fucken god it was cure able i am like i know i was getting tested and shit and i know i did not have nothing and i got medication to get ride of it and his ass was to fucken lazy to get medication so i had to get it from my doctor to cure him to and let me tell ya after that i did not trust him i started to get condoms cause after that when i dated someone new i always used protection after that shit. Then we was together 4 and half yrs in and i said look when are we getting married cause i said if this is not going any where i want to know so i can move on cause i am not wasting my time in a relationship and well he hits a deer up the road from my parents house in Alton IL and his parents asked him why was he doing up there and then he had to tell them who i was then and there was no fucken way getting out of it now. Well the deer busted his radiator and it was leaking antifreeze so he had to park his truck at my parents house and stay the night and call a wrecker to come to my parents house then after that he had to take me to his parents house so they could meet me and that was so uncomfortable than ever and his dad asked me where i was from and his dad when i was i had a older dad he was 21 yrs older than my mom and my dad was a retired military veteran that he served 21 yrs in the United States Airforce and he was in when it was Army Air core and my dad was a fireman in the military and at Mcdonnell Douglas they made planes but my dad was a fireman so if the airport caught fire they was the only place that can put out jet fuel and diesel fuel and Paul dad was really impressed with that. Then I asked Paul when was going to get married so he calls the family preacher and the preacher asked Paul when you guys want to get married and the preacher said how about Jan 10th 2012 and so we did we stayed married for 9yrs than we got divorced and the first time was for his anger issues and I will never forget him making a fist slamming it down hard on the computer desk and i was setting on the bed and it scared the shit out of me and i filed for divorce cause he was getting pissed and he was very controlling I could not talk to any men at all and most of my family where all men and i had 3 brothers so to me it was very normal and where i worked there was alot of men there to and i am like but its ok for you to talk to women and i do not say shit but if i talk to men than its a whole different story all together and i said fuck that shit i will not have no man control me and we spilt up for about 6 months and this happen 3 more times after that but there was dark secrets that i did not know about parentally he was getting money from his parents to pay some or all of his bills even tho he had a job but they was also paying for his truck payment and his insurance on it and also paying for food in his house and the only thing he was paying for was water and lights and his parents where paying all the rest but i did not know anything about this until after we was married but he swore i knew i was like hell no why would i look at you all kinds of stupid for dumb ass he thought he knew everything.5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4oBgUJUWwd
He had a basement in his Duplex he was living in and O my fucken god this was a nightmare from hell it stunk so badly there was a cat that his ex wife had down there and lets just say i cleaned it up and he told me there was no way in hell that i could turn that down stairs in to a bed room and i said ha ha ha ha do not ever estimate a woman when she is on a mission and i said i can get it done in 2 days and he thought i was full of shit well i got it done in 2 days and turned it in to a big spacious bed room that had alot of room in it from a queen size bed to a sofa to a desk 2 dressers and 2 end tables and a tv that set on top of the tall dresser and i made him feel stupid lol. Then we had flying termites in this duplex and the fucken land lords fucken sucked it took them for ever to see where they was coming from and then we moved in to a house that one of his friends he knew had and that was a fucken nightmare to that fucken house was full of mice in the crawl space and we killed like 26 mice and you could see them eating threw the carpet from the floor and i am like o my fucken god we had the washer and dryer in the fucken bath room and there was only one bathroom it was a fucken nightmare then we get a phone call saying his mom fell and she laid on the floor over night and his dad did not call a ambulance or call us until the next day and a week later she passed away Jan 30th 2019 and this where everything goes to shit I thought Paul truly loved me and i thought he would be by my side through death do us part but i guess those marriage vowels do not mean shit and i thought he changed but i was so wrong on that to when his mom died we was already in the process of looking at a house when she was alive and i asked her did she want us to keep on going with it before she died and she said yes but ill never for get telling his dad tho he really loved his wife but sometimes i truly wondered tho cause she could be a handful and say mean and hateful shit and yep she said it to me when she would tell me that i wish Paul would stayed with his first wife and she said that to me more than once and i said Paul you need to tell your mom t o stop saying that awful shit and then she would tell me that if you guys could not afford it than you should not of gotten married and i am like we did not have a costly wedding we got married in front of your preacher how is that costly .5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstUcem1NDq
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When his mom died it cost us $13,000 and i put in a her in a beautiful dress she never got to wear and having to deal with her family was a fucken nightmare to cause they wanted organ music to play before her services and i was like no cause we can no afford that and they wanted to talk to his dad about it and of course these bitches got there way and the whole time this old women did nothing but talk through the whole damn services and that was a fucken waste and so disrespectful as hell and i did not stay to eat i went back home i did not want to stay around fake as people anyways i had enough of bull shit from them so after Paul mom died we went through everything and she hide money around that house i know i found like over $2,000 in cash and i asked Paul dad what he wanted me to do with it and he told me to keep it and use it to go to the store for him and so i did and i wrote out a list of things he wanted and we put a bid on the house where Paul lives at now and we gave them the asking price and we put Paul's childhood home on the market and it sold in 2 days and we got a cash officer and we moved in April and that was a beautiful house i picked out for us to live in cause it was going to be me and Paul and his parents cause i was so afraid they was going to fall down those step ass steps . Then 2 yrs later he passes away when Covid broke out and he was dealing with Parkinson disease that he was battling over 20 yrs with and he had to go to the ER and he had to have surgery and they put him in a nursing home to get better and he got Covid there and they gave him the Covid shot and they was not suppose to give him the shot while he had Covid but then Paul dad just went down hill so fast and his dad was bed ridden and i made a room for my father law and i made it to where he could see the flowers and the sky so when his time came he could go right up to heaven and my father in law did die at home and of course i had to come back from work when i just got there tho to call the hospice nurse cause Paul did not know how to do that lazy ass so i went back to the room where my father law was and sure enough he had to of died in the middle of the night and it broke my heart cause he was a sweet old man .5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi8lshmdm2A
My father law was so sweet and so kind and its a damn shame his son is a fucken asshole . Paul got the rest of the money that his dad left and Paul got into drinking making every excuse there was he spent $700 on just bourbon alone and we went on vacation and i was having chest pain and he didn't take me to the ER he got are things and took me home and i took my self to the ER and then i starting having issues with my mesh and they had to replace it and i had complications with it and i was in and out of the hospital with it and had to stay 3 nights both times and he told me when i got released that i better me out before he gets off of work cause he was not going to make a second trip.5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMVGAM74QL
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Paul was so much changing for the worst he was so not loving at all he was more worried about his needs than mine when it came to my health he would ask me when are we going to have sex again and he was just got off and that is it and there was no romance or anything like that and there was no more trying at all and i started to see it was just over, i am a cold nature person and he had a central air unit that sat on the floor and it was on my side of the bed and i would get so cold i would ach so badly and i would have a heated blanket on me and it got to the point i just made me a bed room at the other end of the house and i would set there and cry and he did not care at all cause i had some kind of bacteria in my stomach that no matter what i ate was going through me and then i was having alot of test done to going through doctors like underwear and thank god one dr. believed me and he knew something was not right at all then i made a fucken promise to my self that i would divorce Paul cause he was becoming a alcoholic he would make excuses to drink and he would drink a 32 oz glass of bourbon and coke and he would seat and drink from 3pm and until 3 AM with his friends if they was over but when it was just him he would still drink alot and he would drink from 3pm until 11pm some night some times it was until 9pm and he would give me excuses like o i am stressed i need a drink or he would promise me that he would not drink of this day of he drank today and then he would tell me damn i wish i would not of drank that day so i could drink today and then i would set there and cry in front of him cause me made me a promise not to drink and the more he did this and broke promises to me the more i would distance my self and close my self off and he did not care once so ever cause i told him if you loved me you would of not be doing this shit at all and i said i am so tired of your lies and broken promises and he would shit talk about people if they was not up to his standards and so when i got my health back into some right order i went back to work and then i started planning the process of divorce papers and i went to the court house and i filed for divorce and i handed him the papers and i said i am done you do not want to save what we had your to worried about your self and you truly don't love me and another thing i got so tired of besides his broken promises was his story about how he got out of the military and to me this so fucken bull shit he was in the Unites States Navy and he went to a bar and got drunk of his ass and he got into a car with 2 other drunk people and he was the only survivor in the crash and he has a rod in his leg due to that accident so he acts like the way he says it it makes him look like he got hurt like on duty or some shit and i am like what the fuck ever and he does not like a strong woman that calls out his bull shit lies and broken promises either and he takes credit for work he does not do cause he took credit for the land scaping i did in the front yard and my step daughter boyfriend help lay the red mulch down for me while it was starting to rain and the only thing you hear Paul say was i have to set down my back and legs hurt. You know i wish i could go back in time and not of wasted my time with his man cause to me he was not a real man at all he was a biggest pussy i have ever met for someone being in the military and the son of bitch never open a car door for me either until i got on his ass and he said to this was i was never taught i am like what the hell ever if you have two eyes you can see what actual real men do and they open the doors for women and they are called gentleman , Let me tell you tho Paul is the fakest man i have ever met and i am so glad i moved on but you know he is not sorry for what he has caused me i lost one dog cause his big dog killed my little dog and that looked like a crime seen like no tomorrow cause he told me if i got ride of lady that i needed to pack up my shit and leave and he would divorce me and Lady was my dog not his but when i filed for divorce Lady became his cause i did not want a mean ass dog that would kill other dogs .5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmh8jhENudn
All I felt being with Paul was used alot and i would give and give and he would take and take but yet i raised his kids and put both his parents to rest but yet that was not good enough but yet if you call him out on his bull shit he would tell you Karen knock it off that is enough and the fucked up thing is he would do hardly anything for me like going to store and pick up things for me if i needed it he would order it on line have me pick the shit up and make excuses that his back hurts or some bull shit excuses and i got tired of it so fast cause i saw right through his shit and when you been with someone that long you see right through there true colors and i wish i would of saw this shit sooner cause i would not of wasted my life on him for sure and i would of been married to my first husband instead cause at least he is there for me and supports me and loves me and i mean truly loves me like i never been before and he is not selfish either and if i need something he makes sure i get it without any fighting or bitching and let me tell you tho it is so nice having a man that does not bitch at you or yells at you and that is very understanding. and Paul did cause me to have PTSD and he is not sorry for that either , All i know Paul from Wood River IL you are a liar and you can not keep promises and your a fake and your not a real man your just a spoiled brat 5Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXZre7xMBIF
