What can a 12-year-old girl do who is not familiar with human nature, and assumes that everyone around her is a good person who will welcome her as kindly as her parents.
The girl's joy and happiness faded away when the person she thought would stand by her side to defend her from the bad people who were doing her harm stood by the side of the villain who was hurting her without hesitation and thought she was talking nonsense.
The sense of trust within the girl simply crumbled. In her silence, she looked at everyone with a new look. It was as if she had been slapped so hard that she woke up to the fact that she had no right to speak out and no one would listen to her at all.
“Their revelation made me think that I had no one, even when I was growing up I was stuck in the thought that I would live alone all my life without anyone who would listen to my voice and realize my existence.”
I like the people who visit my house, they are friendly and kind. Sometimes, they give me a lot of pocket money before I go to school. The best thing is when the guests stay at home, because I can play with them all the time.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMBSdnFHjQ
However, other than usual, that day a man came to the house and mom introduced him as a distant relative (who wasn't really a relative anyway) who had the same clan as mom.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡluyvh0uPG8
Without asking my opinion at all, mom told me to move out of my own room and made me sleep in my younger brother's room. I, who didn't know anything, just obeyed and followed orders. 21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfoTCCglvAm
To be honest, I was happy because I thought I wouldn't be bored at home anymore and I would have someone to play with. However, as an innocent child who didn't know anything, I had no idea that my guess was wrong.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZV4YG4KagS
I remember that moment clearly, the moment when I lost all the joy inside me in a matter of seconds.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFypziBTUkf
It was Tuesday, and the weather was scorching hot, and I was stuck in front of the door feeling annoyed and sulking at my mom who was going back to work just before the lunch break.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSjPMsVDXHh
Incidentally, my class started at 1pm and I, still sulking, chose to skip school and lock myself in my room. 21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8gZ38SIibT
At that time, mom chose to ignore my sulking and went to work with a note that she gave the villain the task of taking care of me while at home. In a fit of rage, I banged on my bedroom door repeatedly and made a lot of noise. I threw my books on the floor one by one.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVhWnvzog01
From behind the door I heard him call out to me in a soft voice at first, and then knock lightly on my door. “Don't sulk anymore, if you sulk like this then your mom won't listen to you anymore,” said the bastard while looking at me intently who opened the door.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ByYMp7Ni1
When he opened the door, I didn't greet him at all or listen to what he had to say. My first response was to run away from him as soon as he grabbed my hand tightly.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfx8UPF8T14
“Let go!” I yelled angrily, glaring at him with emotion while shouting expletives at him.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKh8LxQAMP
This time, the emotion that overcame me was no longer annoyance but intense anger. I bit his hand so hard that he released his grip, and my feet quickly stepped into the kitchen while looking for a knife.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWIt1rsnkp
I found a fruit knife lying on the table, and quickly extended it towards him. “Don't come any closer, or I'll kill you!” I threatened in a voice trembling with fear.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnvmHYF0vKf
But do you think a 12-year-old girl's strength can win against a 23-year-old man? Of course not. He grabbed the knife in my hand so easily, and he quickly pushed my body to the floor so hard.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxi8OD3KeGD
As my body fell to the floor, his gaze was fixed on me with a lot of bad things. Without any hesitation, he pressed both my shoulders with his hands and quickly sat on my stomach. His dirty hands rubbed my cheeks, making my body instantly petrified without being able to resist.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY8efctRxJC
“I'm going to kill you, I'm going to kill you!” were the only words I could utter in my mouth as the bastard slowly pressed my neck so hard.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9aAnnICx0b
I don't know what came over me at that moment, making me stiffen in silence as the bastard roughly guided his hands over my breasts. 21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRU4oVOpd8
My tears just flowed as the bastard lustfully squeezed my breasts, and as if possessed by something I grabbed the knife not far from me and cut his hand.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTPPga8VwCL
My memory can still vividly recall how the man's palm was injured to the point of bleeding so much that it soaked the school uniform I was still wearing.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMLMWnbR7p
Once he was caught off guard, I blindly tried to stab him in the neck. However, he quickly dodged and made the knife I was holding loose. “Bastard!” as soon as he got off my body, I slapped him hard on the cheek before running into the bedroom. 21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSRll7Wt1i
I locked my bedroom door tightly, and for the first time I cried silently. My tears flowed freely as I changed my clothes that were dirty from his bloodstains. At that moment, I felt that I had become the dirtiest woman on earth.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXrCuoJ5RaD
My mind was quickly filled with despair and suicidal thoughts. I was completely trapped in a perpetual state of fear.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3UFDAeO5RI
I immediately found myself questioning the moral ethics I had been following. The feeling of self-blame always arises within me every time I close my eyes to fall asleep, even questions that question why I should still be alive always stop by every second.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKmO0llxgH
For the rest of the day, I spent my time in my room crying. Regretting my decision to welcome him kindly and thinking he was a good person for always giving me snacks.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4sE7W1ISBX
Damn, I felt like a stupid child back then and not an innocent girl.21Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4v0PTEO7hx
