He, like the wind that blows around us. It's always there when it's sunny, cloudy, even stormy. Maybe just blow, and keep blowing. Blow things around, and take them away to the infinite. Sometimes blowing clouds away for the sun to be seen. And sometimes blowing clouds come to rain. Whether it's sunny or dark, shining or cloudy, the sky always receives it even all around it receives the coming of the wind. The wind is also like a mediator after the storms go and bring in a rainbow. Beautiful rainbow, though only for a moment. Pleasures are beautiful though only temporarily. The only visible, beautiful, can be sought after rain, but can not be achieved. And I am a rainbow for him. I know it's all temporary, I'm temporarily for him. But I can not get away from it. I always rely on him. He may for now only see me. Or it could be that he just saw me. Though there are many people around. I have to make it conscious, not only am I here. There are those present around us, them, me, and you.
When the wind unintentionally brought the storm,
"Sorry I will not be late again, I will not promise again. I realize, I can not always be there for you. ", Said Dika.
"Enough, we just not watching movie in the cinema. You're overreacting ... ", I replied. I don’t know, that my relationship with him will get this way. It starts from a sudden introduction and now walks together.
"So what are we doing?" He asked confusedly.
"Eat. There.", I replied while pointing to the restaurant across from the cinema. Approximately 20 minutes we just silent. Nobody dared to start the topic.
"You ..", "You ..", say in unison with me on the sidelines of eating.
"You go first," I said.
"I want to ask you? But it's hard. "
"What?"
"Who was your boyfriend?"
"Past?"
"Yeah, first ... but if you don’t want to tell me, it's okay."
"Did you know I do not have a boyfriend now?"
"Ha? Do not you have it, right? "
"How do you know?"
"So all this time, we went together, went home together. You have a lover?"
"I dont have boyfriend yet."
"Hahh thank goodness. I think .. you startled me. "
"You have not answered my question before, you know where?"
"Yes, I'm following you."
"Do not repeat it. You do not know if the people you follow continue to like it or not? I do not like it. If you are curious just ask, no need to follow. Not polite. "
"Sorry, I promise you no more."
"No need to promise, I just told you. Don’t do that anymore, I do not like it. "
An unpleasant opening topic. We are silent a thousand words to come home from the restaurant. No goodbye either. Stupid of him, he should know, that in order to establish a relationship he should not say anything sensitive. It's true he made sure, ascertain how the truth of my relationship is. Or maybe my feelings are being unmood.
Two weeks after that, I met again at the campus expo. Was it possible that I was meant to be with him? Or just coincidence? I have not seen him for a long time, no one is following again. Empty, feeling lost, usually always there, disappeared suddenly.
"Alya !!"
"Mas Dika? Why here? "
"It's a campus promotion. Stop by my booth. "
"But I'm with my friends."
"Yup good!! Let it look like a lot of devotees. Come on .. ", take him happy. I forgot he was a colleger. On the campus is quite famous as well. Unconsciously I looked at him, which I used to look at now changed. Seen his authority figure, his maturity, the charisma that amazed me. He said that bewitched everyone in this room, and his wide view adds to his true self. And I realized that he had a soul like that.
"After this event where will you be?", Dika whispered from behind in the middle of many people.
"Shhhh ... appreciate the person who is talking in front."
"Hhhmm, deliberately let not heard many people."528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsdQwlvInxV
"After this I want to go home."
"Let’s get a lunch, I treat you."
"Okay."
What am I going to do? Like a big rock falling right in front of me and confusing me, blocking my true path, losing my way, not knowing the other way, my mind is empty. Empty, what will happen to me and him empty. I do not expect much what will happen between us. What will I do, what will he do, I can not read it. Is this all a mistake?
"Was interest to continue where the lecture going?", Asked Dika start the conversation.
"Lecture? Hmmm .. obviously take medicine, but heavy rival heck a lot, which I admit is also mediocre. "
"What do you mean?"
"I mean... I'm not too smart like the others, and the cost is so expensive. Not to mention the task later. I do not think so take medicine. "
"Then first how can I have the same interest in medicine?"
"My parents want their girl to be a doctor, because they do not obey to be a doctor, finally his girl got hit. Yeah you know what I mean."
"So what do you want?"
"Medical."
"You girls, you said doesn’t like."
"Who says who does not like?"
"Earlier, mediocre, complicated, expensive."
"But I do not say I don’t like it!"
"Okay okay, whatever.", Dika replied accompanied by the order that came.
It is deliberately acting spoiled, seeking attention when it intends to convey a sense of longing. The excessive longing I experienced, the phase where I missed him presence, changed after him. And longing to become a bewitching empty soul. Filling in dreams that seem very inspiring, clear for the future. He expression, diverting while the bad condition that I experienced. The bad thoughts I imagined and the prejudice that I had in mind.
"So, how is it? Still want to go to medical school? Medicine is not as complicated as you imagine it,". Dika concluded on the sidelines of eating.
"How do you know?"
"I myself."
"What's wrong, do not be kidding."
"Did I tell you I'm not a medical student yet?"
"Ha? Not yet. At least also a lie, because I told you about the doctor right ?! ", I replied. Instantly Dika immediately stop the meal, took the student's card and showed a picture of himself with friends wearing a white sneli on his handphone. I blushed and managed to amaze me. His trivial behavior suddenly made me smile a little. Funny, what's wrong with me? You, it turns out that you are the one who knocked the heart that I had lock tightly. I heard your taps, slowly but continuously which made me uncomfortable. Perhaps this is called a push-pull. If I knew what he really was, what he was going to say, I might as well be frank and one step ahead of him. I like this, before the long step further I want to know what exactly the goal. Serious or not serious I hope he will be candid. No lie, as it has been, who is only hungry for malice. Just be yourself, do it yourself, do not need to be poetic, just be serious about what really is. If indeed I will start a new beginning again, I want this to be the last. Learn from what has happened, let me stay with him and let me be calm. I'll do anything, if he's the last one not to be congratulated three.
The wind consoled himself, not shown when he was crying or smiling. He was always smiling, still wanting to bring a cool breeze to all that was around him. When the wind wonders if the rainbow is always beautiful, always coveted, always shining, the wind approaches the rainbow slowly. Because the wind, the rainbow, and everything here does not know why, the wind can not take his eyes off the rainbow. Either today what day, what month, what time, the wind does not care anymore. If time permits to continue with the rainbow no second will pass.
"You ever say, if I want to know, just ask it right?", Pleaded Dika.
"Yes, why?", I replied.
"Alya, your ex ... hmmm no no, I want to know the story about your ex."
"If I tell you, what do you want? Hit my ex? Crashed into my ex? Or maybe you'll be stalking like you're stalking me. "
"I just want to compare with me. Well if you tell me the most I know what you hurt, and I will try not to hurt you. "
"If you are like this, who already let this be. No need to force yourself, let the others adapt you, adjust you as you are. "
"But if they do not want to accept me, yes I have to change right? If let's say, everyone likes to say no one is a listener. Crowd right huh, ultimately useless waste of energy. "
"Are you sure if I told you not to hurt you? Usually the comparable person will be hurt. "
"It's allright. Iam good listener. "
"So I was dating 2 times, all high school time. Probably because I never had a date before so I'm really dizzy. I had a lot of pain in my heart. "
"Dizzy why? Is not it usually if the courtship of high school kids will be happy, fun, or even lose control until the accident just want to only lust? "
"Generally it is, like those who are dating most. But I do not. Maybe if you ask to my ex, most I'm not considered ex by them. ", I replied with contemplation. Dika just wonders why it can happen like that.
"In short yes, so I used to have acquaintances. And I look at them not in terms of classes-the likes of physical, popular, etc. are all the same in my eyes. Just among all those who tried to be close to me there is one person who initially I think he used to confide the problem of his girlfriend, whose girlfriend is like this-that errr you know, yeah I listen and give the solution from a girl's point of view, right? But he shoot me tell me that he love me, but his position has not broken with his girlfriend.I have not answered, whether or not. Well, as long as I still have not given that response, it turns out he also shoots his own girl friend. And I do not know who said first if you want to go out, obviously he's his girlfriend 3 including me. "
"Your friends know, if you are dating him?"
"They know, sometimes people who reply to my chat with him is my friend, yes but I keep watch it. Then, I do not know when, suddenly he broke up with his real girlfriend, and I'm in the same position he is either he already single or not I also do not know. And I also do not know who the third person, me or his own girl friend. The next day Iam breakup with him, .. "
"You are dating the same he already how many months?"
"I do not count, which is definitely not until a year. And I do not know you know, as long as I'm going out with him if his girlfriend 3 girls at once. And when everything's been discovered ... "
"Wait, where are you know from?"
"My class sister, her original girlfriend's classmate. And my sister's class also said, if indeed her girl was drama queen hence his guy did not like it. It's true if he heard the vent that he's been saying to me. And my sister's class also justify reply that the queen drama no revenge to me, because the queen drama was knowing himself, who wants to be courteous and possessive is his own guy. Yeah I broke up initially begging so, but already just... not related at all. "
"So your first boyfriend is your senior in high school? And you cheated hahahah. The second one? "
"Not an affair, exactly impingement alone. The second? Crazy!!! More drama, severe, severe, severe. Until I'm traumatized until now. "
"Ok, start ... how the story, curious really."
"The taste in the soap opera you know. He said and all his friends said that at first he had a crush on me, I did not know it was true or not, ignore it. When the same approach he honest, the same with my first boyfriend. It's just that he's got a shot, so he's like some kind of heartache or why, I do not know anything at all since he knows I've got lover. "
"More class senior?"
"Yeah, just different class, one ipa(class of natural knowledge majors) one ips(class of social knowledge majors)."
"Who's ipa class? "
"The one I'm cheating on -_-."
"Hahaha ... what drama do you keep saying?"
"They both I hear it's fighting, do not know the fight when it's clear when I still do not love the answer yes what is. And after I was dating, the ips was silent had been finished for a few weeks he approached me again. Until I broke up with the ipa. "
"Cool. You contested, ... "
"It's called yes, it's an impingement."
"How is he shooting at?"
"Actually I was until now do not know anymore, I'm with him was dating or not. He never shoot me, suddenly I've become his girlfriend only. Initially he told everyone, if first I know where I am, find info about me, just really bucket him and plus he's a famous child in school, have lots of friends. "
"Which is good looking with the ipa?"
"If handsome, handsome ipa. But equally handsome, just the ips addition to the title of a cool kid so wrote. Finally me dating it with ips. Start many terrorize. "
"Terrorize?"
"Which they said I spelled a whore, easy, dog, ride fame, until my motorcycle seats torn, motor light broke out I do not know who the culprit. And what's worse is that my friend likes that ips. God, I'm really stupid if it turns out the guy he's been telling me for is the ips. While I'm positioned even already dating. Destroyed already, but because my friend is indeed a good friend of the best, he is not problematic. My friends are even sorry for me, because the terror is not clear like that. "
"Why do not you report it?"
"Usually bullying like that, even if reportedly not finished. And I feel it really if my friends slowly move away all since I am dating the ips. It's still new in high school, just make friends have a new friend right? Finally there is one of my friends, who she said she was also one of the ips fans told me, if I usurp someone's boyfriend. Yes I said, if the ips didn’t have a girlfriend other than me. But my friend was still angry until ya you know, that I'm like this-so not true, damaged, brazen etc. And with stupid me, the night immediately ask for breaking up, I do not want to hear explanation again, and he also like there is no intention to explain me how the actual events, and plus I was terrorized the burden really. The last thing he says is "I'm dating with you, just with you." And suddenly he tells his friends that I'm never dating with him no reason, I'm the one who wants to connect with him, chase the ips. Very brash right? Yes already, until now I still stamped the girl is not shy because of the ips. And my friends back again, I can not get terror anymore. And I also heard rumors, if the ips initial intention to approach me Just increase his popularity. Because they say I was one of the girls that many men targeted, estimated so may be called. Already completed."
"Wow. But you still contact with him? "
"No, but if we meet we still say hi. If it's the ipa, avoid it. "
Dika was silent after all that was heard. Do not know what to think, I have never seen him silent all this while looking at me seriously.528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHeMlgl2anl
