5.
Dameon's POV
I felt the cool air of the AC brush against my skin. I shuffled further under the covers, flinching slowly as I met with the warmth of another body beside me.
My eyes shot open as I turned to see her lying there. Her locks of grey hair covered her face as she shifted from my movement.
I... we... oh fuck.
My mouth dried and I blinked slowly as I carefully left the bed. Her body shifted once again, and I looked back. Still asleep.
Without more thought, I made my way toward the bathroom, grabbing my boxers and pulling them back on in the process.
I ran a hand through my messy black hair and walked towards the shower and turned on the water. I then went to the mirror and gave myself a good once over before I stepped into the warm embrace of the water.
My mind wandered as I let the water beat against my skin. I am out of my mind. I slammed my fist into the wall.
She reminds me of her and I still... Ugh! I gotta get out of here.
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Flashback
You always got what you wanted. You always said whatever you wanted to say. You didn't care who you stepped on to get there so long as you were on top.
"Dameon..."
The way you said my name. The way your hair moved when you walked. The way you'd come up and kiss me as if I was the only person in the world you saw. The only person who mattered.
"You're so special to me..."
But I wasn't the only one. There were others.
"You're not worth my time..."
I was a stepping stone in your path, used for what you needed and left behind when you were done.
"All you had to do was what I told you to, why can't you ever do anything for yourself?!"
You trapped me within myself. I was lost. Never again.
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The Next Day
"Have you talked to her?"
Letting out a puff of smoke, my eyes met with the sky. "No," I said harshly; a little harsher than I was hoping anyways.
I tried to let my high takeover, but Milaka always had to ask her questions. She shook her head at my response and turned to look at the sky as well.
"You can't keep avoiding her forever. Why would you fuck her if you knew that this would--" I cut her off before she could finish.
"I wasn't thinking, okay?! I never think things through, that's my problem remember," I bellowed.
Shit, I didn't mean to say it like that.
I took another hit, "Sorry. You know I didn't mean it."
She shook her head again and turned to look at me, "D, I know, last year was rough on you. That's one of the few times I wish you would've listened to me."
I know that already.
Without another word, I simply nodded and returned my focus to the sun as it began to rise. This was our routine almost every day. Milaka and I would come to the hill and watch the sun give way to a new day.
It kept us out of trouble, which we tended to be at times. It kept us sane when we were having issues. It was the only part of the day where both of us could feel... free.
"You know, with the way you were going with her, I just knew you'd eventually take her up here," Milaka said flatly.
This time I turned and looked at her, I scowled at her comment. So much for not talking about the past.
"This is our place, why would I bring--"
"Because you were so far up her ass, you'd want to share moments and shit with her," she spat, taking a hit of the blunt.
I laughed, "Whatever. I was stupid, that's all."
She nodded, "I was thinking about bringing Lyss up here one day. Unlike you my friend, I listened with my head and heart, not my body."
Silence.
The long air of silence settled between us as we both said nothing else. What could there have been to say? She was right, she's always right when it came to this stuff.
It continued until she let out a sigh. "Look D, what I mean is, you got to allow yourself to actually trust someone before you wrap your feelings and your junk into it. What's the big issue with your girl now?"
I lowered my head. "She reminds me of her," I said ashamed. I hated that that was a reason. "Same hazel eyes, braces, even their fucking names are similar," I continued.
"I thought..." I went on, "I thought if I went for it, it'd be just like fucking anyone. The similarities would disappear and she'd be just another girl, but..."
"But she’s not. She's your partner, she's paired with you for a reason. You felt something didn't you," She questioned.
I clenched my jaw and looked away from her. I can't get swept up in anyone again. I can't allow myself to lose like that. "No."
Milaka shook her head unconvinced. "Well regardless, you can't keep that girl in the dark forever D. It's already been a whole day, she probably thinks the worst of you right now," She said quietly.
I know that. I crashed in Milaka and Alyssa’s room yesterday after what happened between me and Carter. I don’t run- at least I didn’t before, and now I’m hiding away like some scared little kid. I’m just lucky Alyssa was cool with it, she can be iffy sometimes in my opinion.
"She'll get over it. I just can't be around her right now," I said just as quietly. Instead of shaking her head, Milaka stood and brushed off her pants.
"Distance isn't always the answer, especially right now. But Imma let you make your own decisions and whether they blow up or not, is on you," she murmured. Milaka then turned and walked away.
I watched as she walked back down the hill towards the quad and sighed. Great, now she's pissed at me too, nice going D.
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7:34 AM
I shoved it back into my pocket and stood up. I watched as some students started heading to get breakfast or go to class. Smiles and laughs could be seen and heard even from this high up.
I started the walk back when I noticed her. She had to be walking to class as her bookbag hung from one shoulder. Her grey curls pulled up into a messy bun and she wore an oversized hoodie with leggings.
She hummed along to the music playing in her headphones as she walked with the Auburn-haired girl she hangs with.
My lips curled up slightly. She looks happy, she should stay that way. I turned my attention back toward the dorm and continued to walk back.
I just wish I could give her that.
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TO BE CONTINUED...
Wheww, there's drama afoot. I hope you all enjoyed this chapter of Desire Academy. It was a long time coming but now it's here! Again, I hope you enjoyed it and see you in two weeks! Byeee~
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