「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkPzCEuv56
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXGuqg71NZ2
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQlGNzrt0Rj
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幼小我的父母就離異，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX9FiXciU7l
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLAvK4x3RFT
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對母親的記憶還是有，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ65ytOczyTv
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記得她很常酗酒，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡupN8lF1Q8Q
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後來的日子，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiI4zuooVXY
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ji2NpnWB5
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忙於工作的他，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZdxrWmvrv
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQhE0jRxUGs
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到了上課時間再直接上課，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKOW9025in
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCi1ejfUf5S
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpIA6gIAr4
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdb9RCJeK6D
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUbTjbiuD7
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbjwAHBrmN
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父親工作的地方不一定，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjajJWScH4B
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輾轉的換了三所小學，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Dd8vqOxyo
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCWmmmtCb3
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他開始會喜怒無常，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1jyILJTg9N
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2a6U5zoiY
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6OoTVnpKkw
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很小我就與異性交往，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjOfiXa5hv9
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZGmv5h8Ei
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3U9nXtSQWv
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXeRgGWzJOT
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我會睡在工地，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOOZLwMd8W
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQhQ2XAyzEZ
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5I6zEOtWIQ
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaaDzxvI8x3
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他開始會講貶低的話語，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡac6sS1YdcO
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那些原本用來工作的用具，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqjutipbZLl
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhrnYNhrJm
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3wYj0jy1UT
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmGFtm3AaGk
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkEMUdqMFwm
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要我轉告給老師，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIrqGJWEL4
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEYYBRSCqAi
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2za7U3waRQ
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡweq09xgpuv
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG4iaOMhcSq
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細細去回想每個片段，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHEUsHWqpCp
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUV5froIHI2
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEK9pIbfmNA
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp7YcQ6sGPY
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhmAnvBQ75D
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFzJELYjp0
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2T4tHTcRoC
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQOSIO7JFi
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxShSorgOQ
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEXyJyjGksw
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡadTESpFyef
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojByz4kie4
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正準備吃下第一口時，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa8PWaHAZlY
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYrwhhoqDIn
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。494Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBLQgpRall
