「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYbrabUCk4
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUs4JZpGEh
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaAB5PzpaWU
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幼小我的父母就離異，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGpuhPbSlIT
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQDISJvER6
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對母親的記憶還是有，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZJtmIoWdn5
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記得她很常酗酒，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkOHIK8trx2
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後來的日子，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyIHGQ4NykU
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3mvXyVC0g7
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忙於工作的他，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2wIDiNRka
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ2OJR0xLj4
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到了上課時間再直接上課，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZtUwYrN48
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUb6ymR5ok
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaUwiHMffFf
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KHT7tLTHk
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zz2brK6uN
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdN83CJJ1r
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父親工作的地方不一定，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkKjco3b29e
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輾轉的換了三所小學，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmqkBbMCz6I
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡChxMvltob0
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他開始會喜怒無常，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvxPjvUTgf
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjv8pInkFm
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPe0kG8KVC6
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很小我就與異性交往，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ufYDDnIXX
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYlgtfkNIEC
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAX80b4ISM9
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5k2fn9BGs
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我會睡在工地，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8ysu0utiO
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNcP59rr5FI
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxpIiHdBdjF
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtu3QjYYFIo
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他開始會講貶低的話語，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBVKXJsYRS9
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那些原本用來工作的用具，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUUaLiEb5p
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLliRsBVGT
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQRtovtPIb
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoptAdy7t6r
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeD4kKQiuuU
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要我轉告給老師，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWDDfTKPER
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7cIWVt626J
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ4oRqK039F
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkfZVQpgyqo
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCpTpdec9l
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細細去回想每個片段，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQ1Smkc9Sx
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcK3YITkOo6
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjsz9q0mj6K
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlk9uNuAIZP
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ97HN7XfKw9
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHTRDRKbXAi
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6XA9HbBstx
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEYlZsLskKm
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcG6WczSVVR
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ngUD30Dn4
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ63dKcmVjBB
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBkGal6GxR
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正準備吃下第一口時，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCxJEcLOS8
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOF0PyCOanM
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTcRJndSbDV
