「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtyvP5m5mPU
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWemrNIMFO
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4rFELr2I9i
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幼小我的父母就離異，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLY4QYVrjZ
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCKwaX2rpVM
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對母親的記憶還是有，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoePJHI80AJ
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記得她很常酗酒，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFWx2rdVrt
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後來的日子，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdytddiVmlv
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9GqvGm0OJc
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忙於工作的他，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXQUSQ6xt7s
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHiUnQ9yrp
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到了上課時間再直接上課，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDoFGg4WIwa
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCvY3NKYmQ
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcvopIjBt0c
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjr78tX5RO7
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8rxnsgUfao
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53evkbILO3
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父親工作的地方不一定，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwEVAjlLJUG
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輾轉的換了三所小學，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrOIC0sKlul
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQsGnPsZ9JG
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他開始會喜怒無常，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHUGx5zwQQ
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0AGXqKEODA
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8SaOI8ODaZ
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很小我就與異性交往，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXuz7wWauco
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzsWFNZtk6y
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJsgrV7qwaE
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6HWgXjXGn
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我會睡在工地，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiAPTE1ewSh
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0IiAWMuI7k
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9deU0nWF6T
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡamrLSE6WXC
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他開始會講貶低的話語，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLQJzi84yi1
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那些原本用來工作的用具，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4beVaBHut
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifMTvrAcU8
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMaHLcyupc
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Wxaf8UmUm
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBsbiOcToU7
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要我轉告給老師，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQFr5x1OI5F
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzE7Qm84t1i
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkyrKL0iJhX
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ5x8cy9Ccz
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJaZCCzVpfm
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細細去回想每個片段，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOXqBqwBvbM
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdx1SuYWJkg
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKRkTQQQmFp
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbaVpGsoSg
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKjyMtPyx2
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLQhNKXFk2
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn7Co6nFjA7
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQiIP2pIddl
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhCW4VgcH4C
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAyaEZqYhBo
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqAIBCkhveb
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQ656HebzR
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正準備吃下第一口時，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNgrNUFiXND
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvuueuiHAYP
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。451Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgjpHC0w7lx
