「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBHuxF5qwDU
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXQ4SymMha
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1HfoEWbej
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幼小我的父母就離異，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq6xDju8Ugw
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFuho8yX1qU
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對母親的記憶還是有，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4r7FYOGeIv
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記得她很常酗酒，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv2r5qycacB
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後來的日子，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNnXb8F4rn
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdXmMC49hJu
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忙於工作的他，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrO8UBcJkw
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3EEfplgY7H
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到了上課時間再直接上課，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOHT3bhbZJj
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0avjIQBvoN
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmczYxZwuVS
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡudSZUkQN7U
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFpDMvYhzbP
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrk9dgOZfhz
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父親工作的地方不一定，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfD96fytpU
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輾轉的換了三所小學，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXv1gacTj9
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbdZB05I4o2
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他開始會喜怒無常，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpssI6L5OoE
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO3idqDeaVJ
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5i2OIoYyRl
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很小我就與異性交往，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoKeJYC2Nls
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5JMu5COPOp
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSPlIqZMKSK
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHvzOtpyNg
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我會睡在工地，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtcuNpTJX7
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlWyQmNCH0H
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rfbhKSg09
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1hDP8N14Zi
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他開始會講貶低的話語，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ14IhkcYRa
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那些原本用來工作的用具，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaWa1coCTBo
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8LfJ2TJXyx
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLkvw3KOD8
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZiJWg4bZX
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJPWkxRAVo
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要我轉告給老師，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡONUaH3wJqH
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHbCJqvXhFq
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2NLcrDHqbh
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLB89Xv5Qy
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZ7lfgFz4p
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細細去回想每個片段，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtrkVvZ8AoS
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpo4NSgGLaA
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSS8WfL2wtA
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkcPK2hg2SS
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2DzdxH22b
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDxEscXfmG7
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShEBxcclrz
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnr5MRx1EoF
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPERXtYSnX2
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCqD6hYmic
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRSomp9LtJ8
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs3JG11aWgt
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正準備吃下第一口時，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFmGH8Sp2pW
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmuiXk83Oja
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。454Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBCdDGpcxpu
