「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1VLQZAuf4
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSxAFYR6sm0
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPyPWZIiFm
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幼小我的父母就離異，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2usvgRCDOl
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyF8sXBocUK
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對母親的記憶還是有，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDUL5VGOywY
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記得她很常酗酒，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdX8b39CD4o
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後來的日子，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0DVWuYDJE
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuUxQUFBbrg
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忙於工作的他，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJPbBN7B21E
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3odAf0oyAe
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到了上課時間再直接上課，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfrGREVcrtA
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwu5nXWmREA
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyypNPxgtFl
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGEylGKxDA4
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT50NTWmmq8
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1YVp6IZn8P
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父親工作的地方不一定，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH84KPuUBvr
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輾轉的換了三所小學，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI86Dx6k3qd
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡciUcpXPVia
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他開始會喜怒無常，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9eiY9n1qu3
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡidkGckeYtE
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyJdPW3Eu9
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很小我就與異性交往，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5AgW4kVJRr
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSn1sFOcCHg
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2x1K1w4nug
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREGRE8gXKx
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我會睡在工地，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdwC99PV0X
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5DzReqS7P
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNRd7e79vjb
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbjC5VoBFYY
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他開始會講貶低的話語，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp9EWYrFPWq
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那些原本用來工作的用具，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6GnvJH9jP
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8d5dc9EM0h
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbyhwqhh7R
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhVNyXzZf3I
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhH7gFpnZ4G
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要我轉告給老師，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY5xGc2AAVv
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWLSlsxpWR
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTM2Y9jBZU
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKy2QFf4cG
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAOofdfDQfC
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細細去回想每個片段，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYi1UWzDrus
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ44kUy2540b
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFijiEEiQK
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThtdFmLW9G
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2jHC4bkXy
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG0XiyRV3S7
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡASRaRtMoAT
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvhXKUnOH3
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeEG3onsjdV
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdEQqXcP3Ri
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJj9OpAlg6
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiAnxlTJjnn
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正準備吃下第一口時，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw33IO8yDrX
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwQC4Xxfrk
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4pmwQn6PgB
