「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlpq3VlzDdd
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl7ZWoiyQPL
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcf8ZqGOu46
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幼小我的父母就離異，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5r7hekuwO
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaUsg6qngzp
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對母親的記憶還是有，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlvpA7X7vUD
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記得她很常酗酒，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqCmSNavZ5I
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後來的日子，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUGnEPutSth
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2iGLpUI2Rq
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忙於工作的他，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlm2jOFpPNL
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGkl7wOWZII
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到了上課時間再直接上課，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf9UrxOcwhU
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9VmgLybTm
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpl9LBUeTRV
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9IUEQzvIK
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMz0sV14UIN
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeUXwJOmFzi
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父親工作的地方不一定，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC3yK994JTG
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輾轉的換了三所小學，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3yxl4ZgbeH
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE94IwIVzuP
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他開始會喜怒無常，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMveQY5q00G
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgOBbrNUfj7
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGyErFwFBSL
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很小我就與異性交往，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXZlHcaezS4
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2EJoEG7avs
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBNkkY5KtJ
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXfIKBWSCnH
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我會睡在工地，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ5l37rtjDR
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRsuB5T7KfO
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQVZsUoQ0A
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIR0CiFhXMC
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他開始會講貶低的話語，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhLYD0QgzE
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那些原本用來工作的用具，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ42emEfUBS0
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8KhQTE0RUZ
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4YT0TiJJVk
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0riGJzDAP
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0042fLCVdK
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要我轉告給老師，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmg6Wuyqcmg
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6w5bz7XZ1B
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv1yxck3I3N
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMaGWc3M2j
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF1zWcK4vis
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細細去回想每個片段，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdCGhSt7Ue
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡidJ41Y47wh
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxQd5nMpjv
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGKYpHJidd
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4F50sRqiq
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTEURgUjqK
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU8b2Vuz1sc
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3X4rDA0pUQ
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC6PGbQjmeH
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQbAb9aUyH
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8972xjJbqt
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvHX9zGIxfu
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正準備吃下第一口時，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVMDiOv9y6e
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1L0WXxw8U
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。537Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSBPKZVahz
