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那天夜晚程華首度踏進季慈的租賃處,它空曠簡單的不像有人以這裡為家的模樣,一張單人沙發座、一個很大的棕色懶骨頭、一張可以升高降低的小桌几、一席單人床、一台電磁爐、單人份餐具,唯三非單數是書,散落滿處的書籍,和放置書籍的大小書架,幾乎佔掉了兩面牆,以及鞋子。屋內擺設完全沒有規劃,一進來除了浴室沒有再多的隔間,所有物品一覽無遺。89Please respect copyright.PENANA5Bwcb29SuY
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在那一瞬間,程華洞見了季慈內心的世界,一如這房間空曠貧瘠,又想要塞些什麼進去的亂七八糟。89Please respect copyright.PENANAQFAsriX44S
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「今晚讓我留下吧,讓我陪你。」他跨步抱住了前方彎腰拖鞋的季慈。89Please respect copyright.PENANAn2IN94w4Cf
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要怎麼樣才能不遺棄,程華曾經花了好長一段時間找答案。他告訴季慈他的過去,一部分也源自想要傾吐的念頭,意外換來季慈的對不起跟謝謝,他感到受寵若驚,進而寸進尺的問能不能應徵這種話,季慈的沉默讓他回味了雲霄飛車的滋味,最後在季慈的承諾裡安穩睡覺。89Please respect copyright.PENANAoXJ4EyKH3O
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尷尬的是,隔天清晨他依舊五肢並用的糾纏住季慈,季慈仍然安靜的任他抱著,等他清醒,然後季慈一如過去非常平靜。89Please respect copyright.PENANArtD1ymFSJq
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「早安,剛醒來嗎?」程華依戀的又摸了兩把,才依依不捨的鬆手。89Please respect copyright.PENANA7Oz4ghRkKg
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「是的,剛醒。早安。」季慈掀開棉被伸了一個懶腰,程華首度看見季慈如此輕鬆自在的姿態,忽略了季慈的回答。89Please respect copyright.PENANATeMpi4DZ4H
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「我們還有一點時間可以吃早餐,不起床嗎?」季慈下床走到浴室門邊時這麼說。89Please respect copyright.PENANADG6VMKXhxM
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季慈的邀約讓他更加開心,立刻跳下床。89Please respect copyright.PENANASh6e1RLToP
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「等我一下,我借你衣服。」季慈快速的漱洗,在衣櫃裡翻找了兩套衣服,一套給他,一套他自己穿。89Please respect copyright.PENANABAFlQNFzqY
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然後依然是程華開車,季慈坐在他的副駕駛座上指路。吃完甜蜜蜜的早餐後,程華開車送季慈去上班。89Please respect copyright.PENANAQ8qMtbGs4v
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「謝謝,晚上要不要一塊吃?」季慈關上車門前問。89Please respect copyright.PENANAQ9M5e6FFUr
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「晚餐要不要跟我吃?」程華搶在季慈車門關上前問。89Please respect copyright.PENANAveSDA3GKBa
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「好。」季慈淡淡一笑。89Please respect copyright.PENANARHHJMdD67N
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「好。」程華報以微笑。89Please respect copyright.PENANAU4LoDHHHH7
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程華坐在車裡目送季慈入門工作,人影都不見了還在笑呵呵地回味起早上到剛才的事情。最養眼的莫過於季慈背對他換衣服露出的纖腰,讓他看傻了眼,口水差點沒掉下來,第五肢更是差點又要直接豎旗,只可惜季慈發現了他如癡如醉的目光,褲子是進廁所換的。89Please respect copyright.PENANAOsTJZmgkP0
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但程華相信,總有一天這機會會來臨!89Please respect copyright.PENANAmsoXEs1cds
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興奮勁頭過去,程華打了個呵欠,正發動引擎手機鈴聲作響。89Please respect copyright.PENANAJg0TjYeXsy
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他接起來:「嗨,老爸,聖誕節快樂。聖母瑪利亞愛你。」89Please respect copyright.PENANAhOkgiLd3I6
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「你媽愛你。要過年了,還不回家?」89Please respect copyright.PENANAnOjliTr2IF
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程華好心情的把引擎關掉。「我在追媳婦,你不是要媳婦嗎,今年就不回去了。」89Please respect copyright.PENANAVNiDDMsedC
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程華老爸在電話一端爆出驚呼。「真給我找個男媳婦?」89Please respect copyright.PENANANkuzjgaa3H
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「當然,女媳婦這輩子不用妄想。不過,男媳婦還要等我成功才行。」程華對自身條件有自信,但對追季慈沒有絕對把握。89Please respect copyright.PENANArKkuKiyyZ2
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「做人嚴謹點,穩重了人家才會看上你。明白沒有?」89Please respect copyright.PENANAN8NtAhCuWU
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「沒辦法,你兒子是個變態。」想到季慈可以容忍他的目光,程華又開始獨樂樂。「總之,要是追到手了會帶回家給你看的。掰。」89Please respect copyright.PENANAP40juzSp0B
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動作俐落地掛電話,彷彿預祝他會成功,雲層錯落出一道縫隙,陽光散射地將白雪染上金黃。89Please respect copyright.PENANAu7CzSjziD1
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程華的心情更好了,該來去準備準備度過這個美好假期的晚餐了。89Please respect copyright.PENANAD1Cf7TrbD0
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程華又一次發動引擎被電話聲關掉。89Please respect copyright.PENANA9tawEBI9ct
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這回是季慈。89Please respect copyright.PENANAMnAnI3x0RW
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電話一接起,季慈就說:「我父親送了一份禮物給我。」89Please respect copyright.PENANAM4nmD0TDFR
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程華訝異。「剛剛的事嗎?」他現在有衝動想要下車。89Please respect copyright.PENANAcGoB2J96F7
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「不,昨晚,我下班之後的事。」季慈發出一串意義不明的聲音。89Please respect copyright.PENANALffF9m2bc0
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「怎麼了?」程華坐不太住,抽出鑰匙正要下車。89Please respect copyright.PENANAVA276SRnSt
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「他想約我今晚吃飯,在十九樓的餐廳。」季慈的聲音悶悶的,聽得出相當猶豫。89Please respect copyright.PENANAUgDtxc6O6O
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「你不是想見他嗎?我認為這是轉機,無論你是懷著厭惡他的情緒還是其他,去吧。」程華一腳跨在車門外,鞋尖在路邊雪堆上戳出幾個窟窿。心裡暗暗可惜了晚餐。89Please respect copyright.PENANAjdnbwYgtdZ
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「謝謝。那晚餐順延到明天?」季慈講得匆忙,程華聽見來自遠方的細微聲響,應該是要集合了。89Please respect copyright.PENANAmBHnyyVe8D
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「行啊,順便拍個自拍給我補償一下好了。」89Please respect copyright.PENANAuILOKzpnr0
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「……好。那我先去忙了。」89Please respect copyright.PENANAiYRSfSYpJN
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季慈的聲音穩定下來了,這讓程華鬆了口氣,他相信季慈沒有問題。89Please respect copyright.PENANAFqcrjSnb0W
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過了一會,程華收到季慈夾帶兩張照片的訊息。一張是他父親送的禮物,一桶羽球跟一對球拍,桶子下方還壓著一張看不清字跡的小卡片。另一張照片是他要求的自拍,畫面只有季慈的一雙黑頭皮鞋。89Please respect copyright.PENANANMOKToyv6E
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「……」程華笑出聲來,季慈也變得俏皮了,居然能在這種時間點上搞笑,看樣子他今天晚上可以安心窩公司完成蹺班落下的工作了。89Please respect copyright.PENANA6eomXQzaNI
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這段日子以來程華天天駐點站崗,季慈頻頻拒絕他的邀約讓他心驚膽戰,他幾乎以為失敗了,成天苦思對策差點都要把頭髮給揪光。那陣子他苦惱到小祕書們都不敢靠上前,特地推舉撲克臉的祕書長前來關切他。89Please respect copyright.PENANAdvQqqgghuh
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面對自家人程華不覺得有什麼值得隱瞞,直接乾脆的和盤托出後,小祕書們像可怕的蒼蠅大軍一舉入侵他的辦公室,圍繞在他的身邊嗡嗡嗡的發出一個又一個鉅細靡遺到恐怖問題。問到她們爽快了,這群蒼蠅大軍又嗡嗡嗡的退出辦公室,然後異常安靜了一個月後,再度恐怖的湧進他的辦公室。89Please respect copyright.PENANAa5EJzTiJbW
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這回她們你一言我一語的提供教戰守則,還幫他分析解說季慈的心理狀態,小祕書們越說越興奮,越說情緒越高亢,他駁回了一堆完全不實際的推論,和過於夢幻小說般的劇情推測,最後她們綜合出的結論就是季慈是個痛過一次就會牢記滋味避免再次跌跤,並且矯枉過正的人。但正確解答是,季慈痛了兩次,牢記了一輩子。89Please respect copyright.PENANABeoDUgxP3x
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專業的祕書群們除了幫上司解決公事,下達正確指令之外,還有分憂解勞(愛情顧問)的功用,她們同時發揮了自己閱讀的各種小說裡頭的梗,有些非常詭異。89Please respect copyright.PENANACdyUQxvkyb
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例如天天投信給季慈,信件內容要富憂愁,要如詩人一樣表現出對愛的愁苦、歡快與灑脫。或是當個貼心的好男人,天天替季慈送早餐——這招程華確實有想過要附諸行動,最後失敗的原因是他不知道季慈住在哪間房,況且季慈的班有時在下午,他總不能買了早餐為了讓他吃還特意一大早擾民的按門鈴或傳訊息通知起床吃愛心早餐吧。或是像個傻子跟變態(雖然他不否認自己本身就是變態)站在季慈上下班的公車站牌默默送他,這種他看不見他的用心良苦的,程華也不予採用。89Please respect copyright.PENANACdRspAyNIo
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最後程華反倒是挑了一個根本變態,又能確保他能看見季慈,對方也能看見他的方法,就是站在百貨公司的電梯大廳陪他工作,每天只需要花一到兩個小時,既能健身促進血液循環,還能夠讓季慈明瞭即便什麼也不做的站在人群裡消耗時間,看他枯燥乏味一天重複幾百幾千次的行為完全不是件無聊事,這麼一石二鳥的方法程華豁出去的完成了。89Please respect copyright.PENANAyJ3HrE7olA
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雖然是個號稱一石二鳥之計的選項,程華在過程中還是或多或少的遇到一些尷尬與困難。比如第一天要去站崗的時候被小祕書們猛然冒出的新主意塞了根棉花糖,還特地交代一定要招搖的上去晃晃,出了電梯後又因為心懷不軌,總覺得站哪裡都怪。百貨公司一樓是個充滿化妝品香精味道的樓層,來來去去的人雖不見得是女性居多,但硬是卡在一堆人群裡還是讓程華稍顯尷尬,尤其是接待員見他在一字排開的八座電梯前不停徘徊上前詢問時達到最高峰。89Please respect copyright.PENANAcGNPUshvcL
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程華先用預備好的說詞打發了頭幾次的詢問,這些藉口不外乎是:我在等人。或是:我在猶豫要買什麼給女朋友,但天知道他根本就是個GAY,哪來的女朋友。當所有藉口用罄,他終於看見季慈穿戴那身迷人的新制服,一雙潔白手套揮舞著手勢,用他溫醇動人的嗓音不厭其煩地告訴客人到達一樓,或是電梯上樓、電梯下樓,程華覺得一切都值得了,就算他的手上拎著很多自己根本用不到的化妝品也一樣。89Please respect copyright.PENANACbgbKAXJa5
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題外話是,這個追求行動,讓他的祕書群們更愛他了,因為每次回去必有各式化妝品當伴手禮。89Please respect copyright.PENANAVp9VY6hYl1
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日子久了,程華的變態本性也不再被尷尬所覆沒,他瀟灑自如的站在人群裡,越過眾凡夫俗子的腦袋,筆直的望進季慈所服務的電梯,他負責大廳的同事不再上前詢問。為了季慈他忍,忍受他同事逐漸變得鄙視的目光,再忍受他們逐漸被感動的崇拜,可是季慈的反應還是深深地讓程華感到挫折,他那樣淡淡的不上前,也未曾有過任何表示。89Please respect copyright.PENANA8hKBzaaDuW
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直到昨天那個如奇蹟般的轉折出現。季慈的電梯從頂樓下來,門開的瞬間抬起的目光彷彿熟知他會站在哪個角落,筆直地朝他眺望過來,甚至給予了他一抹能稱為鼓舞歡愉的笑容。89Please respect copyright.PENANAu6i4GSJ6AW
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程華當下差點誤以為自己飛起來了,他的心情雀躍,臉上滿足的笑容連連招來季慈同事的側目,心情好看什麼都好,程華覺得他們的眼神、笑容,都像在祝福他苦盡甘來。他已經在想,等等季慈換班該用什麼藉口把他叫喚下來,他好想、好想跟他說說話,就算是找個很爛的藉口問廁所在哪裡都好。89Please respect copyright.PENANAWNX0MM3uvj
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但在交接班儀式時,季慈的臉色大變,奪去季慈專業的笑容,有如颶風刮過捲起一陣狂浪。89Please respect copyright.PENANAbnXSQCI2EM
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好在季慈傾訴哭泣過後非但沒有抗拒他的接近,他相信對於季慈而言,那八個字定如千金許諾。89Please respect copyright.PENANAOBn7syLgob
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專心工作天總是黑的很快,原本堆積在桌子兩側的卷宗已經少了大半,他貼心的祕書們在上面貼滿了標籤紙,分門別類的依照先後順序擺好,全都是個十足十的貼心小精靈,雖然是他那位小掙扎的老爸本來預計挑選出來要讓他選老婆用的,只是也不知道哪裡來的好手氣,來了一批腐女,知道他是GAY後各個都只想消遣他,不然就想當個好閨蜜。89Please respect copyright.PENANAxLzJ6dG6Zz
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程華打開手機,七點四十五分,季慈現在應該已經在跟他的父親用餐了,不知道談得如何,希望季慈不會再次受傷歸來。89Please respect copyright.PENANAxjWCinXptX
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他確認過完年開工的急件都已處理完,放到處理該部門的祕書桌上後準備離開,昏暗的公司走廊裡回響起手機鈴聲,螢幕顯示來電者:季慈。89Please respect copyright.PENANAbak5NW3Vvf
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程華開心接起電話:「晚安。」89Please respect copyright.PENANA2l0wo4fU71
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「晚安,你吃飯了嗎?」季慈的聲音聽來無異樣,背景也相當安靜。89Please respect copyright.PENANAVCiZXTEu2S
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「還沒,你吃飽了?」程華一手按住電梯不讓門關上,好心情的反問。89Please respect copyright.PENANAt6YYhTEFCl
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「……沒有飽。」季慈反應有點微妙,但時間實在太短暫,短的讓程華來不及反應,他又說:「如果你還沒吃,我們去逛夜市,方便嗎?」89Please respect copyright.PENANAds1l3uCHtn
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「沒有問題,我忙到剛才,現在正餓。我去接你?」89Please respect copyright.PENANA71CS1KgoDk
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「好,我在大門等你。」程華鬆手讓逼逼作響的電梯關上門,愉快的出發接季慈去吃飯了。89Please respect copyright.PENANAGHO9GmuWgO
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