everything will be here. honest and open. for you. all of you.

you are alone in there

It could have been us.

it it weren't for who I was before

If it weren't for alexithymia- difficulties recognizing and communicating their own emotions, and they also struggle to recognize and respond to emotions in others.

Someone says something too good.. it goes in the quote book

hell froze over and everything is so cold.

(poems and rambles about my pain)

it's so hard.

Little bits and experts that I love from the poetry book i'm reading.

sick. shame.

Everything is me.

well. These are things people say. Things I've overheard, conversations I've been in, all that jazz. These are mostly just chaotic, funny things but if I hear someone say something deep or meaningful it might slip its way in here. Please know in this blog there is dirty humor, dark humor, mental health jokes and explicit language. Most of this is pure nonsense and it's meant to be fun. ANYWAYS. Read at your own risk. BAHAHA... right okay. Here we go......

(:)

Ten steps.

Extreme trigger warning. Self harm. (romanticizing self harm for my own coping) Sexual undertones and inferences. Blood

My free writing :) When I make a "just write" I sit down and I don't think at all I just let words pour out.

Slight TW: venting

<3

The feeling when you hear "I love you" after living a life where those words were never for you.

Just cus I love calcifer :p

I'm not sure how to stay okay.

Maybe this endless breaking is just the way I live

(why can't they understand?!)

The words I wish I could have said, stories of my past and future, and more words that I hope I don't forget to say.              xoxo

EXTREME TW: Drug mentions; self harm; mental health; self degradation; descriptive self harm; blood; extreme rage; cussing

I'm  falling  again.

I WILL KMS ;) jk

Another vent. Btw ILY <3

A vent :)

TW: substance abuse, neglect, self harm.