blue is a colour that's stuck by me.. I hadn't realized it until recently but.. without any connections to what the colour blue means if you were to look it up.. she is my blue. my perfect shade. the veins that hold the blood that runs through my heart. My love.

everything will be here. honest and open. for you. all of you.

hell froze over and everything is so cold.

(poems and rambles about my pain)

it's so hard.

Everything is me.

Ten steps.

I'm not sure how to stay okay.

Maybe this endless breaking is just the way I live

(why can't they understand?!)

The words I wish I could have said, stories of my past and future, and more words that I hope I don't forget to say.              xoxo

I WILL KMS ;) jk

A vent :)

TW: substance abuse, neglect, self harm.