「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn4h6mB754L
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vLy1EkCRf
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNrLS2K9FD
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幼小我的父母就離異，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnu0JlIweC
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbVI0WTvQ7j
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對母親的記憶還是有，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZALrzktzQN
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記得她很常酗酒，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0EtzAALg8B
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後來的日子，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡahV4VlhZPJ
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1YhRLKp0JU
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忙於工作的他，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡde2qKSGeV2
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFSzEnNCTZ
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到了上課時間再直接上課，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVTjg3vLEl
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiVMpc7Fi5y
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2EkQz9oJk
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlD7NctGpoy
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwpC2H8vC8C
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKZcCOArywB
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父親工作的地方不一定，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWsrJTVmr2Q
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輾轉的換了三所小學，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT9g4IDbPiX
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK171khUyZk
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他開始會喜怒無常，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pdzve2l4Q
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdaA1yykeI0
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVoHML6MzW8
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很小我就與異性交往，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxH56s8i343
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkOnobbVQRw
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7WSBtqOBh
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDhJ63670kS
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我會睡在工地，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM0GnU1vZe3
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOrVyuEaPem
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡezcOVWz0oT
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRxCeK6LeAf
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他開始會講貶低的話語，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDLQlYIgnl
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那些原本用來工作的用具，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLUX2TWzP6Q
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVypkyhIuDt
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjWgpMV9rxR
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqfJDbuIRh
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5wSCWfxja
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要我轉告給老師，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeu0ThcGN0t
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOdbs5ZNp94
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaH4l24HgI
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsL1ImEHHUA
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeNVR2s6h5s
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細細去回想每個片段，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ZQmLUiboG
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL2FmxvXejw
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzeYYazmUt4
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvakF06frVG
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwoPf7g843p
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV81djNDgBr
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxrMVKWyu5
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ZXUDefKen
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjpWIuKEsL
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADveywHQY7
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnzcnkNO3k
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYK9ChFLVYv
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正準備吃下第一口時，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmBQOHYJTdV
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ88QzcoNb3e
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKKL9jMBOxS
