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I’m constantly divided in my mind between forgetting you completely and remembering everything between us. I cannot choose. You told me things I never knew about you, about what really happened to you so long ago. My mind is stuck in a whirlwind of thoughts. I don’t know where to go from here. Should we both leave this place, or should we stay? Is it even up to me anymore to make such a bold decision? The ice is melting and as it melts away it reveals your insanity day by day. I couldn’t see it before. It makes sense now, the constant calls… Your outrageous demands that you would make from time to time, I couldn’t stand you in those moments. “I’ll hurt myself if you leave me!” You threatened me with those words. As I heard it, I became numb. I didn’t want you to suffer but I couldn’t stay any longer. The love I had for you faded away a long time ago. And now I finally see the reality of it all, when I broke the mirror of obsession. I could see the imperfections, the cracks that were forming from every incident that would occur between us. In those moments I only saw what I wanted to see, and nothing more. It eventually wasn’t mutual, the feelings we both shared for each other. You became something that I could no longer support. You became a threat to my health, you became a threat to my happiness, you became a threat to my future, and you became something that was not love, something I could no longer describe with words. Why did you do this? When did your love become so poisonous to the touch? It had to me, it was my fault, I believe I made you this way. That’s the only explanation I can accept now. These old feelings for you must fade away.                        8964 copyright protection267ＰＥＮＡＮＡApkDRtn4YV 維尼

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